Unsent messages to CARSON

I feel nothing when your name is mentioned. But as soon as I start to love again or open myself up, I end up getting hurt because that’s all I’ve ever learned from you. I’m afraid of love now, because of a reminder haunted/created by you. I don’t want anyone to ever do to me, what you did -ever again. I want to erase you and start over again. Learn what proper love is like. Or to just be respected.

it has been a long time. i will for ever miss you. i would do anything to go back in time and make us right. i think about you every day. i love you.

I can’t believe all the pain you put me through but I’d still choose you. Anytime it was convenient for you to waltz back into my life I let you and destroyed myself I hope you are happy love

My heart shattered and I cried alone when u went down on that field because I loved u, but loving u wasn’t enough so u left

I’m sorry. I’m sorry I didn’t realize you were the one when you loved me, and I’m sorry I’m realizing it too late.

Thank you, If you didn't walk away I would have never left. I'm glad I got to experience it for the first time with you. It's odd, I don't have a soft spot for you just the knowledge of first love and first heartache. All things come to an end. Goodnight Bubba, I'll be good.

maybe in another universe, you’d still be here to watch the stars with me instead of being one of them

ever since you walked in and I saw you I knew that I would love you even though Ik you are crushing on Meghan I still love you

I’m sorry. I know you liked me and I think I liked you too but I was embarrassed. I wish things ended differently. I’ll miss you

Thank you for everything you have made me such a stronger person from all the cruel words and things you have done or said to me.

i tried so hard to let myself love you, and you threw it all away and cheated on me. i can't understand why you wouldn't let me be good enough for you the same way you were to me.

If I could turn back time, I would've done things so so differently. I miss all the things that could've been.

I know you were hurting but I still haven’t got over the fact you took your anger out on me. Why did you hurt me so bad

i regret hurting you and distancing myself from you, i wish i never did that to you and i would do anything to get you back i’m sorry ?

I dislike you and your girlfriend. Hope you end up having the worst breakup to ever exist and she's the one to do it. lyin ass

im still not over u even though were toxic and treated me horribly, i think about u every day and u probably havnt thought about me for 2 months?laugh out loud

I can't wait for you to figure out that we're meant for each other. You're the only one to make me believe in fate.

I hope you’re satisfied knowing my perception of love is fucked up because of you. Now I’m too traumatized to be involved in anything out of fear.

“he could be in just as much love as you are” my friend said this to me today about you and i could only hope that it’s true that you love me back

I'm not sure where our love went wrong, but im soon going to be 1,000 miles away from you so I have no other choice but to let go. Thank you for pulling me out of a dark place, but im heartbroken. I have nobody to pull me out that place like you once did, and now im in that place because you. I get high to distract myself from the thought of you. I miss you every day. I'm not sure if i'll ever get over you, but I hope i do. I love you more than anything. Forever bub.

i love everything about you and i want nothing more than to be with you. but i could never be good enough.

I was in love with you, but you didn’t seem to care or notice. You hurt me in every way possible but yet I miss you. I miss you a lot.