Unsent messages to CALEB

I didn’t mean to fall out of love with you. I never dreamed in a million years this is what I’d feel. If I could stay, you know I would. You didn’t do anything wrong. This is my fault. I’m not sure how to tell you

i love you, i think i always will, but at 3am when i’m sitting by myself i hate everything about you because you made us be “just friends”

You were my first everything and I loved you so much. You made me feel so happy and special and I will never forget that. I’m sorry about how awful our breakup was and I will always regret how I treated you, but just know I hope you have such an amazing life, find the girl of your dreams and build her the house you always wanted to build, with the family you wanted and all your dreams come true. I will never forget you xxx

I still love you, I never stopped. I miss you so much. i miss everything about you, your smile, your laugh, your personality. you were the best. thank you for still being a great friend.

I’ve loved you since I met you. For 4 years. Through all the change you and I have been through. Somehow I still love you more than I did when we were together

The moment I saw you my heart skipped a beat. I had been praying for someone like you to come along. God put you in my life for a reason and I'm curious to see what it is. I really want to hang out with you again but I'm nervous to ask. I hope we become great friends. And good luck with the girl you like. She's very lucky.

Sometimes I wish I hadn't spoke up about what you did because I was more comfortable being used. I don't know what to do anymore.

I’m tired of guessing. You’re constantly on my mind and I don’t know if I’m even on yours. You flirt with me and give me signs that our connection still stands a chance but then there’s other days where you show me you don’t care at all. All I need is for you to tell me because I feel like I’ve done a lot of the work. I was the one who texted you admitting feelings. I was the one who asked you out. Are we friends or something more? It’s really tiring trying to understand. I’m afraid if I reach out again with my questions I’ll scare you away permanently. You’re kind of the best thing I got right now.

i so badly wish you were the person i needed you to be. but instead you fucked me over. fuck you for being a shitty human and fuck all the girls you got with. they knew you had a girlfriend so you’re all pieces of fucking shit. go to hell.

you told me to not come here but here i am anyways. it finally hit me last night. i’m glad you’re doing good :)

u really hurt me. i thought we had something worth keeping & u acted like u didn't feel the same. did you know i have a gf & im in love now? i wonder what could've been.