85-136) this is the longest it’s been since I was here. It’s not like I didn’t check but I couldn’t bring myself to type anything out it just seemed wrong I kept thinking, hoping you would come back but you didn’t. I’m ok with that I’m moving on I’m starting to like someone actually he’s kind to me. We seem to have more in common than you and me when it comes to beliefs anyhow. I miss you bubba I still think of you from time to time but you don’t take up as much. I think I’m healing and I mean it. I love and adore you still but you were right it’s not the right timing maybe it never was it might never be but I know that if we don’t end up together some day we know we will have went wrong. I’m still waiting the year out I promised you that I promised myself that. Only time can tell. Bubba just know that you were my true love. Cause baby at 16/17 it’s always true love. Thank you for being there when I needed it. Oh and pls be proud of me or whoever sees this I’m nearly 3 months sh free it’s took a while but I’m learning to love myself the way you did once. Love you always and forever , baba

80-81)post16 was today it wasn’t so bad first day back but I’m really not looking forward to tomorrow I miss you a lot I keep switching between missing you and then being like ha you’re missing out and honestly man idk I guess I’m trying to cope knowing I’ll never see you again just hits anyways ? I’m off to bed ly

194-197) thank you for the contact that we had. It’s made it easier. I still love you and I wish things could work out. I just wanted to say thank you again for everything bubba

189-190) this year seems to have flew by. I kept wanting to message you to wish you a a merry Christmas but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. It’s best if I don’t message right it’s just I want to. I want to ask how you are and laugh and joke on but we can’t do that. It would have been our first Christmas as a couple. I’m sad we never got to see it through. Much love baba

150-156) application for uni has taken over my life. I still keep hoping that you’re at least thinking about me

77-79)school is tomorrow I’ve Never been more nervous/ excited for anything other than when I first met you

137-145) I know it sounds awful but you were the worst thing to ever happen to me but also the best. Love with you was different than how it feels with him. I want you back some days but others I wish I could erase what we had. It hurts sometimes, to remember that you’re out there somewhere.I’m still thankful for what we had. I guess it’s always true love at 16 huh. -still forever yours baba

82-84) the days are getting easier now. I still miss you but it’s not as apparent in my life anymore I don’t link everything to you it’s a good but sad feeling. I’ve had many bad days but the weekend eased a lot so :) 6th form later today so I need sleep I still love you bubba always

146-148) not long left to go bubba until I stop these. I promised a year remember. The love that I have for you is unmatchable. My heart tells me not to let go of you but my head says otherwise. I miss you. More than I admit to anyone I guess I’m just holding on waiting for a sign but it’s stupid I know. I just miss FaceTiming you and having arguments where we would burst out into laughter, I miss having competitions where we would argue who loved each other more but overall I just miss you. Remember when you came over and we were arguing over how cold it was and we were smiling those were/ are my favourite memories bubba. I’ll love you always baba

179-186) I have a feeling that message was from you more than ever now. I’m glad you’re no longer in love with me if it was you but I’m still I mean I still have love for you I don’t think I’m in love anymore but I still love you and check up on you every now and then. Also merry Christmas Eve eve I wish I don’t know what I wish I just miss you. It’s only some times I catch myself thinking about you and realising. I just want you to be happy but I also want me to be happy. I love you bubba and you’ll always be bubba to me no matter if you call someone else baba. Bubba is your name okay

157-175) I think you may have left a message on here idk if you did but a message really hit home if it was you I’m glad you’ve moved on. I sort of have of course I still love and miss you but I get that the distance is to much I think I was just in love with the idea of you in my head for so long because I haven’t spoke to you in months how am I supposed to remember what you’re like you know. I still adore you I still have everything you have gave me I look at them every now and then. I hope you like uni. And I remember that you’re moving soon next year maybe this year I don’t know but I hope you like it. I still love you bubba and I always will. Remember to find me in another life okay x

187-188) MERRY CHRISTMAS BUBBA I hope you have an amazing day and I’ll update you after new year much love ?❤️