You are my best friend but sometimes it feels like I’m only important when you need me and I wish that wasn’t true.

do you ever think about me? does the thought of me plague you like the thought of you plagues me? sometimes, all i think about is you.

I know it seems like there’s no reason for me to be the way I am. But if you knew my life maybe you’d understand. I’m trying to be better.

I get it. I know I’m the worst but understand I didn’t choose to be the way I am. My life wasn’t easy.

I’m sorry for responding inappropriately but you were the one who hurt me and kept doing it. You were the one who made me feel shameful and worthy of nothing but being used. You were the one that lead me in and dropped me for someone else. You were the one who didn’t leave me alone and was scared I’d tell people how shitty you treated me. You were the one who didn’t care if I looked bad as long as you looked okay. You owe me an apology.

hey avery just want you to know that you mean the world to me and you're the best thing thats happened to me in a while. love u so much

I know you wrote to me on here in the summer time. It’s too coincidental. So why can’t you say how you feel to my face. You don’t understand how much your feelings for me show even when you try to hide them. That’s what hurts me the most. It felt like I was being strung along by you even though you had moved on. I knew if I saw you again, you’d keep stringing me along. I knew id never be able to move on if I let you keep playing with my heart. You’re with someone else and you have been for a while yet you wouldn’t let me go. I didn’t know how to tell you this because you would never open up to me. Seeing you guys together broke my heart but I could never tell you this. I hope you’re happy now and wish you the best but you broke me. I want to thank you for helping me to see my own flaws and life struggles- it means more to me than you’ll ever know. XO

I wish we could talk things through. I think we both had good intentions and things got screwed up. The thing is I know I can’t be that vulnerable.. especially with you. xo

Even if you couldn’t tell i was already depressed without all the mess of our relationship. And it felt like you wanted me to feel like shit.

Haha, I really really like just as a friend but I’m jealous of you. You and Evan are so happy you have so many friends and you are so pretty but it’s ok because you don’t like me as much then I like you I love talking to you

i have never been more lost. i still crave you. i need you more than ever. every day hurts without you

I try to love you but I feel so numb and just don’t have the strength to love and help anyone anymore. I hope in the future I can love you with all my heart

your not as pretty as you think you are. tbh ur kinda ugly. your personality sucks ass. looks can only get u so far. You're so stuck up and a bitch. no one really likes you.

you get mad over the stupidest things and u take everything too serious. ur a self centered bitch who only cares about herself. start having emotions bc no one will like u when u have no personality.

I think I’m leaving messages for someone with your name & your leaving messages for someone with my name. But I think they’re different people.

I think I’m leaving messages for someone with your name & your leaving messages for someone with my name. But I think they’re different people. Maybe we can figure it out if you Leave the name of your state or something

I wanted you but didn’t trust your intentions. You never even bothered to send me a text or keep up with me. You never seemed at all interested in having a conversation with me. You had someone else but made it seem like you wanted something with me. Was it just nerves or was I a game to you? That’s all I want to know. I want an honest answer and I deserve it.

AYO im submitting one for myself bc im mean


yeah anyways you fvcking suck, you bitch. fvck you. you do realize that most of this was your fault, right? you called CPS on Cam's parents, which literally fvcked up EVERYTHING, you're one of the main reasons why Lucas cant talk to you anymore, and you keep making everything worse. And back in March, what you did was fvcking horrible. You got into a relationship with Lucas when you didn't even like him back (at the time), what the fvck is wrong with you?



lol n e ways this is kinda dumb ngl


you're probably gonna fvck everything up again by going to the skatepark this saturday. do you not remember what happened last time? Angel even thinks its a bad idea, he used to fvcking encourage going every saturday to see if Lucas was okay. ig you just miss him *that much*.

cringe
imagine being madly in love with somebody


lol


:/

fuck u. a true friend would've never done that to me and my best friend. I understand that you go through a bunch of stuff but seeing you flirt with j and m? what the actual fuck. i have so much love for you but the fact that you have no boundaries makes me have no respect for you. You continuously keep being heartless. I thought you were one of my best friends, but you proved me wrong. have fun with the guys and breaking their hearts all over again.

I truly believed you were good and were just misunderstood. Even after you flirted with my boyfriend I still forgave you. But once you started hurting my best friend I lost all respect for you. What kind of person hurts an innocent lovable human being. She has done nothing but love and be there for you but honestly, enjoy yourself surrounding yourself with boys. See if they'll always have your back.

I liked you so much and you were my ideal person...Please just don’t try again with me unless you come to me with balls

I wish I could’ve loved you the way you loved me. You’re such a good person and will always be in my heart.

that summer with you felt like a movie. i could search the universe and never find someone like you. i wish you’d come back home to me.

maybe we end up together later in life. maybe in another dimension. a connection like that is powerful.

I'm sorry. We both just wanted different things. And I was trying to be someone I was not. You deserve to be happy :)

Did you ever want to get to know me or did you just see me as a hookup? Did you just want me because you couldn’t get the person you really wanted?

Let me sniff your feet they probably smell like cheese oh my god i cant stop thinking about smelling your sweaty toes im so fucking cool ahhh im a dad let me sniff.... do it stink

i love you forever. you have saved me and completed me in ways nobody has before. thank you for being my best friend, i hope i can return your goodness one day.

You never appreciate what you have till it’s gone. I wish you’d actually have feelings and not fake them.

Hey. You don’t know it still, but you were my first heartbreak.i’m not mad at you for it. you had no clue. I was so ready to love but you weren’t. i can’t blame you for that. i understand.

No matter what I should have never treated you the way I did. I’m sorry. It was selfish and cruel. I’ve been treated that way before and I know how badly it hurts. I have a lifetime of pain that I’m trying to work through to be a better person.

I blame myself a lot but you really hurt me & it doesn’t even seem like you care. At least not enough to own up to it.

I’m sure you didn’t expect me to hurt you so bad when we met. I feel bad when i think about the way you looked at me that night. You looked so innocent and I hurt you so bad. I am struggling. I want to be better. I know I’m probably the worst human you’ve ever met or could ever imagine. I’m going to get better.

I miss you and I’m sorry I’m not who you thought I was. But I’m glad you cut me off. I can’t love someone else right now. I’m broken and I don’t know if I’ll ever get better. I hope I didn’t put you through too much pain. I can’t stop looking for the bad qualities in others, thinking everyone hates me, and hurting others to make myself feel better. My mind is constantly in defense mode.I’m a broken person and I have been always been this way. I’ve never been mentally healthy and have never been near someone who’s was. I hope you’re okay and I hope you didn’t listen to a word I said. You did hurt me too just so you know and I do think you could work on yourself too. You’re great as you are. You don’t need to hurt others and trick others to get satisfaction. I’m left confused. Did you ever care about me? Did I ever mean a thing to you? Was I just a game? I’ll never know.

i’m writing this to myself. i know life isn’t what you thought it would be when you were younger but you have to stop wasting your life. don’t let it pass you by because you will regret it. enjoy every moment, every hug, every laugh, every sunset, every smile from a stranger, every first bite, every bubble bath, every unboxing, every first stroke of paint, every rainy day, because time is fickle. God’s got you darling. now go, enjoy your life. follow Him. tell people of God’s gift. and love love love.
- your past self

I just want to know if it’s really you leaving me messages on here. Sometimes I think it might be but I doubt I even cross your mind anymore. Your happy with someone else.

I just want to know if it’s really you leaving me messages on here. Sometimes I think it might be but I doubt I even cross your mind anymore. Your happy with someone else. I know I messed up but could you ever forgive me? Well I did more than mess up.. I was horrible.

you used me. you broke me to the point where i didn’t want to live anymore. it’s terrible that i’ll always miss you.

You broke my heart only for me to break yours. I realized I only loved the idea of you. I thought that I could change you. I was wrong. The good qualities did not outweigh the bad.

You're my best friend. I love you so much and I hope you know that, but I'll say it here too just in case.

I’m sorry you had to deal with me. I hope you didn’t listen to anything I said. I hope I didn’t hurt you. I was hurt and broken. I don’t want to pass the pain I’ve been through on to you.

I want you to be the person I finally let in but I lose hope in myself everyday. I think it's best for you to move on because I don't think I can be the person you want me to be.

hi! you are my best friend and anytime i’m with you i feel safe. i love you so much and i just wish you could see yourself the way i see you.

I wish I could show you the physical impact that night had on me. I couldn't stop for a year. And I've got over 60 scars to prove it. Take a step back and focus on someone other than yourself.

i dont trust u
seeing the ss of u on ft w her kinda hurt ngl.
ik u wouldnt cheat but it still hurt
i j wanna stay here for u n mayb youll realize how much i love you
ur the only thing keeping me here
we both need to do better.

I care about you so much. Why do you do these things to yourself? Is it to grab the attention of others so they’d like you more? You don’t realize how much you’re hurting yourself and it hurts me to have to watch you go on. I want the best for you.

You don’t know this but I’ve already been through enough suffering in life. I don’t have anymore strength in me to push through someone who doesn’t allow me to learn to love my self. I need to keep moving forward and the way you treated me was only pushing me back. I wish you a good life but we just aren’t meant to be.

i love your eyes. my favorite thing. so dark and perfect. it’s the only thing i remember about you that i could put into words

when my kids ask me what love looks like I wanted to bring them to you but you left...where did I go wrong?

i have loved you since october of 2017. it was never off and on like i told myself it was. i love you so much, stupid. i really do.