We both fucked up so much with each other. I’ve grown so much and have become a better person from reflecting on my mistakes. I put in work to change. I’m just worried you haven’t done the same. I’m scared that if you haven’t you would put me back in the dark place I was before. I want to try understanding each other instead of arguing. I want us both to put down our “defensive walls” and I want to grow together. I think we just hurt each other because we’re too scared of letting each other in. But it takes strength to be vulnerable. I can’t leave things so bad and it’s clear you can’t either. I know I’ve hurt you so much and I never wanted to. You’ve hurt me too but I genuinely believe your a good person, you just need to accept yourself and understand you’re bigger than what’s hurt you. I pushed you away before because I was scared you were gonna put me through the same shit again that you did for months. I’ve been through a lot of pain in life but am now learning to accept it and grow from it. I hope you can do the same because I know you care about others. I miss you. I can now say I forgive you. I wish you the best and I hope we cross paths again because it wasn’t meant to end like that. I don’t want us to hate each other. You can always contact me- just be honest and vulnerable and I will too. I finally feel like Im strong enough to show you I care. I’m genuinely sorry for how I treated you and I forgive you for everything.

I’m not sure if you care about me of if you ever did at all. But I’m not doing well again. I hope to see you again and hope your doing better than me. I wish we could’ve gotten closer. I know I’m closed off and might never get to fall in love. I just feel like as much as I care about others and like others.. I have no trust in others and I have no love to give or receive. I’m sorry for that. I’m sorry if you wanted something real with me but I’m just too broken and I’m not sure how long it’s going to be before I’m ready. I saw a post on here that I could’ve sworn had to be from you but I’m not sure if it was. I’m not sure if I even cross your mind at all anymore. I think about you a lot and feel a lot of guilt and self hate about stuff. I wish we could talk. We were so awkward it was kind of funny. Miss you

We didn’t get to know each other. You never told me a childhood memory or your favorite ice cream to get from Dairy Queen. We couldn’t forget each other but the best thing to do was let each other go. We were hurting each other because we wanted to be together but couldn’t admit it. But truthfully, you mean nothing to me and I mean nothing to you. You’re just someone I share a few adorably awkward moments with and things turned sour. You taught me a lot about myself and I hope I did the same for you. You hurt me but I’m a better person because of it.. and I hope you can say the same for me. XO

I hope you moved on and are happy now. I hope I’m the last thing on your mind. I never wanted to hurt you and don’t trust myself anymore. I guess things worked out for the best.

I purposely clog the toilet so when my mom takes a shit, I can have a snack for later #youknowwhatimean

why do you keep reaching out to me
you and i both know you don’t love me the way i want you to
if you think it makes me feel better, it doesn’t. it kills me to speak to you, knowing i’m not the one.
you were always so goddamn selfish

I was really struggling when I met you, you knew that. but what you didn't know is, is how much your presence in my life saved me. we havn't talked in a long time, but i hope you know that i think about you every single day since out last conversation a couple months ago. the times I miss waking with you to band class, and whispering backstage at theater rehursal, i miss every minute of the times we spent together. And while you will never know, I wish so terribly that you could know that despite how confused I was back then, i knew, and have always known, that I love you, Avery.

I feel like I’m not good enough for you... you are amazing and I love you but I feel like you could have so much better than me...

I was dumb for thinking you ever really liked me. I wish you would’ve just told me you were messing with me.

I keep hoping that maybe you’re thinking about me as much as I think about you but i know you moved on, so now it’s time for me to move on too. I’ll still always love you and I wish that I could’ve gotten closure from the things that happened. But I need to accept that I’ll never have that.

You love more than anyone I’ve ever known. Don’t be upset when people don’t give that love back, it’s not your fault

I know we don’t speak much anymore but I want you to know that I still think about you all the time. I still love you and I wish I could have you back but I know you don’t even think about me anymore but I do all the time and my friends say that I shouldn’t but I can’t help it, I truly felt like you were my soulmate but you moved on pretty quickly.

We both had feelings for each other at some point. You don’t have to tell me but don’t lie to yourself. I get why you do though. I wouldn’t wanna have feelings for someone like me either.

You seem happier now. You seem like you fell in love with someone new and stopped pining over what we had. The bitterness between us was only because we cared. But that doesn’t mean it was right. Maybe things weren’t meant to be between us but I’ll always remember you in the back of my mind. I’ll always be looking for for you in a crowded room.

I know it’s selfish of me but a part of me hopes you didn’t fall in love with someone new. I want you to be happy but I just wish it could be with me.

I wonder if we ever think about each other at the same time. I wonder if you even think about me at all. Why didn’t you choose me

i am so in love with you. you are the person i want to spend the rest of my life with and i mean it. im convinced youre my soulmate no matter what the circumstances are. i love u

i’ve always wanted to be loved so unconditionally by someone and i truly feel like you do. whether or not you’ll ever admit i know you love me and everyone sees it. i love you

hi!!! i love u!!! im in love with you!!! i appreciate you!!! so very much in love with you!!! ok bye i love u!!!

i am so in love with you. every time i see you my day immediately gets better. the way your eyes sparkle and the way you smile when you’re happy is something i love. i'm so sure that you’re my soulmate regardless of the situation we’re in right now. i love you so much.

i dont know how i fell in love with you but i did. youre the first thing i think about when i wake up and the last thing i think about before bed. the way you get so enthusiastic about your video games is adorable. i truly do love you so much and i wish i could tell you that.

I wonder how you are and if you remember things the way I do. I miss the blue light and the way your guitar echoed through the house. I miss your hand on the small of my back during my night mares. You always made sense in the strangest way and I’ll never know if you truly loved me the way I loved you. I know we were young but I thought it was us. I really did. Tell pretty boy he’s loved.

hi bub!
im thinking abt u rn
i hope u remembered to eat and do ur hw fool
im sorry for crying yesterday
ur the best part of my life
i love you more

We were never best friends, u replaced me the first chance u got. I don’t trust u at all, but I miss u so much

I wish I could just get up in front of the school and tell everyone how much I love you. You're an angel, darling.

I never stopped thinking about you. I’m so sorry for what I’ve said to you. Nothing justifies it. But I’m hurting so much. If you ever see this please talk to me again. I’m in pain and there is only one way to block the pain out- and it’s not healthy. I wanted something with you. I thought you cared about me but I think you were just afraid of me.

I was only mean to you because I’m so insecure about who I am. I’m so sorry. I genuinely feel horrible. Trust me because I know what it feels like to have someone attack you like that. I hate myself for what I treated you. I’ve spent hours crying in my room over being treated that way.. and than I did it to you. I’m sorry. I feel like a bad person. I am a bad person because of my pain. I feel like everyone in my life hates me. I’m scared of ever being around anyone again. I just want to be alone. I hate this world and I don’t want to live in it. I’m sorry. I wish you never heard a single mean word in your life. I’m so sorry.

I wish I had a heart and I wish I could love you. I don’t. I’ve never felt love in my life. I don’t feel like I deserve it and I can’t even imagine what it feels like. I don’t trust a single person. I don’t even trust myself. I wish I could care about you but I can’t. I wish I could be there for you. I try my best to be there for others but I’ll never be happy. I’m sorry. I can’t accept anyone loving me. I hurt myself and I hurt the people around me.

Why are you so perfect when we're a lone, but when we're with anyone it feels like you're a whole different person?

I wish I could tell you how sorry I am. I’m confused and hurt by some of the things you did but I handled it in the most awful way. I was in a really bad place and I didn’t even know it myself. I hope you’re doing well.

Idk why you changed your mind after leading me on for 6 months. I wish you understood how much I liked you :/

Was I always the second choice? Was I just someone you wanted to get in bed to brag to your friends about & than never speak to me again. I don’t think you understand how bad that would’ve hurt me. I’m glad I walked away.

I wish I knew if it was really you leaving the messages under my name. I commented back to them btw- I just think it takes time to show up. I’ll tell you the reason if it’s really you. Can you leave a smiley face under my name so I know.

I get it if you’re confused about where things went wrong. But do you really believe that this whole time you didn’t do a single thing me wrong?

You really seem happy now and moved on. I’m glad and I think you deserve it. Nothing excuses the way I treated you and I’m sorry. I hope you didn’t believe anything I said because i never thought that poorly of you. Although, I think you hurt me on purpose at time and you were a little bit ill intended and bad at communicating- you didn’t deserve the way I treated you. I screwed up a lot more. I hope you weren’t trying to use me because you really made it seem like you wanted something real. I guess I’ll never know. I wish we talked things through and things ended better but you deserve to be happy and you seem like you are.

I can’t open up in anyway. I am too hurt. I’m too broken. I run away- I really do. I’m sorry that I made it seem like I was a better person than I am. I miss you. I just want a hug.

i'm SO glad we aren't friends anymore but just curious.. do you think of me when taylor swift comes on? i bet you do

I’m not sure why you put up with me for so long. I really thought you were the problem back then. Your smart for moving on and cutting me off. I’m not mentally healthy and you can probably tell that. I’m trying to be and I really do care. I wish we could talk but I get it if you never want to again.

I know you didn't mean to hurt me in the end, but you still did. I know you have a big heart and that you mean well, but you still hurt me. I know what was bound to happen after that night, but i still hoped that it wouldn't of. I know everyone tells me i deserve better, but you were so much more than that, theres not even enough words to try and describe how much of an amazing person you are or at least the person i saw that everyone else didn't. I know you moved on, but i still find myself thinking about you all day and night. I know you haven't even shedded one single tear the fact that you lost me, but i have shed more tears then there are stars. I know i was just another girl to you, but you weren't just my first love, you were my whole world. and you took my world from me and you now left me all alone with my heart ripped out of my chest. I know you didn't trust me, but i trusted you with my life when sometimes i probably shouldn't of. I know i probably should of never started talking to you in geometry, but Im glad i met you and got close with you and fell in love with you. Even though i had to pay my price and get hurt like this. It was all worth it for you. I know that im not your person no more, but you will still always be mine. I know that i cant make you happy no more, even though you were my only happiness. I know that there is some other girl that will make you happy, and i know that girl will not be me, but it would truly fill my heart to see you happy even if its with someone else. As much as it breaks my heart to admit but im not your girl no more, im not your friend anymore, All we are is just strangers with memories that i find myself replaying in my head all the time, wishing i could go back to. I know you hate me now for what i did, but i will always love you no matter what you do to me. forever and always love, Shelby

We have been best friends forever and I’ve always liked you but I will never have the courage to see if you feel the same

I’ve accepted that you never cared and never will. I hope leaving me for her was worth it, and I hope you two have a happy life together. Something tells me y’all are forever. Goodbye, Avery.

I really wish I could tell you how sorry I am for everything. I wish I could explain it all to you. I’m glad you seem happier.

thank you for making me realize how i should have been loved in the past. you are so perfect. i love you immensely

Never leave ok? I love you more than anything and if you are going through hard times please push through, I know you are strong. You still need to finish all the anime’s I recommend to you.

honestly, i've completely moved on and I don't hate you anymore. I kinda wish we could just be chill but I feel like it wouldn't end well. also I got dumped haha vibe check

Everyone could see how we wanted to be together except our own selves. We were both to hesitant and scared of rejection. We showed everyone how we liked each other but gave each other reasons to believe it couldn’t be true. How come two people who wanted to be together kept walking away? We kept coming together just to end things.

Everyone could see how we wanted to be together except our own selves. We were both to hesitant and scared of rejection. We showed everyone how we liked each other but gave each other reasons to believe it couldn’t be true. How come two people who wanted to be together kept walking away? We kept coming together just to end things.

why did you leave me? it still hurts so much. i miss you please come back i promise things will different this time

you will never know that i'm in love with you, but know that you're so perfect in my eyes. wish more than anything that we were more than best friends.

It’s hard trying to explain to your family that the person you thought was the one isn’t the one anymore :/