Unsent messages to ASH
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: November 2, 2020, 8:16 pm UTC
u give me anxiety, u know the old me. for some reason i still think of u and miss u. thanks for reaching out.
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: October 29, 2020, 5:16 am UTC
i'm writing this on his behalf. we are still terrified of you a year later. i don't know how you sleep at night. we both have ptsd now.
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: October 26, 2020, 4:50 am UTC
I love you so much, I really do. I've tried so hard to detach from you and yet I just can't seem to shake the grip you have on me and I truly dread the day we'll have to separate. I just... you really are the first person I've truly loved.
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: October 24, 2020, 5:52 am UTC
i hope u miss me even though i've been terrible to u. i will always love u. im so sorry. we had our time, and it's gone, but god, we were so in love. thank you for being my first love, but u always deserved better. take care of yourself, love.
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: October 22, 2020, 10:19 pm UTC
recently u reached out and it gave me anxiety. i can’t tell if i miss u or want u to stay away. how did u even find me ?
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: October 22, 2020, 5:03 am UTC
At least you aren't in pain anymore :) but now your soulmate is in pain i'm so glad you're happy now though but I think things could have gotten better if you decided to live and go to Japan
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: September 30, 2020, 12:46 am UTC
I was in love with you and you were in love with someone else and now i’m with someone but I still think i’d choose u
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: September 20, 2020, 11:44 pm UTC
It’s been 8 months but still every song I listen to screams your name and I just want to know where I went wrong and what I could’ve done so you would’ve stayed.
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: September 15, 2020, 9:22 pm UTC
It’s almost my birthday. part of me wants you to wish me a good one, we were supposed to spend it together
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: September 14, 2020, 7:46 am UTC
Let's play again when we get to talk, once we met let's go stargazing.
i'll wait for you to keep your promise on coming to me.
- Someone who left you because of her emotions. -
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: September 14, 2020, 12:46 am UTC
I think you and me are pretty similar, both the coping mechanism we use and the trauma we went through. When I saw you with Eiji I felt better, I felt alive, I felt like I could have a good ending too. I know that's bad projecting my hopes on you, I shouldn't do that, I know. But you make me feel like I can survive because you did it and I am really proud of you. I love you in a complete platonic way. When I saw you dead in that library my heart broke in thousand of pices. I'm still feeling bad for that. I think I will never heal. I thought that if you could survive i could do the same, so when I saw you like that I felt hopeless. I still am. You deserve better than this. You deserve better than everyone. If could change things I would, even at the cost of losing my life. You really are one of the best person in the universe and i understad you. I understand all you went through. Please come back. I will never say goodbye to you. I will try to not lose my hope. I will try to survive, because this don't even feel like living. I'm sorry.
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: September 12, 2020, 11:28 pm UTC
You are an amazing human. I’m sorry I’m bad at being a good friend to you. Please don’t ever leave me.
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: September 9, 2020, 10:02 pm UTC
Sometimes I think about us and want to go back, other times I think of us and want to punch you for doing those things with me. You will always hold a piece of my heart and I hate you for it.
From: ABC
To: ash
Date: September 7, 2020, 12:56 pm UTC
do you think about me still the way i think about you? do you hope one day we will find our way back to each other... i do.
