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I think you and me are pretty similar, both the coping mechanism we use and the trauma we went through. When I saw you with Eiji I felt better, I felt alive, I felt like I could have a good ending too. I know that's bad projecting my hopes on you, I shouldn't do that, I know. But you make me feel like I can survive because you did it and I am really proud of you. I love you in a complete platonic way. When I saw you dead in that library my heart broke in thousand of pices. I'm still feeling bad for that. I think I will never heal. I thought that if you could survive i could do the same, so when I saw you like that I felt hopeless. I still am. You deserve better than this. You deserve better than everyone. If could change things I would, even at the cost of losing my life. You really are one of the best person in the universe and i understad you. I understand all you went through. Please come back. I will never say goodbye to you. I will try to not lose my hope. I will try to survive, because this don't even feel like living. I'm sorry.