I’m sorry that when you asked me out I said no. Truth is my mind wasn't/isn’t in the best place. I thought you were joking, I never thought anyone could like me. I actually had the biggest crush on you, truth be told I still do. You’re in a relationship though, I’m just happy you’re happy. Please forgive me.

You sit next to me in class now. How it pains me when our elbows touch. Your laugh is still my favourite thing, but you’re happy with your girlfriend so I should stop thinking this. How do I turn it off? I don’t want to feel this anymore

I loved you and you ignored me, but now that you started liking me, I don't want anything to do with you.

te amo. eres lo mejor que me paso debí decírtelo antes de que murieras, siempre estarás en mi corazón

You broke my heart but im glad you did it so soon.. cause if it would have gone further i wouldn't have survived it.

If we had met earlier and I decided to go the same university as you, would you have chosen me over him instead?

I still love you more than ever. I’ll always work on me so I’ll be better if you come back .. I’m sorry

4 years later and i still think about you. i hope you're doing okay, and I hope one day maybe we can be friends again. i miss u

you were different that night. I liked him, not you now. things are jilted- I want you firsthand again.

I still think about you when I'm cold, about when you taught me to be warm. maybe if you weren't a nitty Eddington.

Hi Ed, it's been a long time since I talk with you, and I want to say sorry. I feel sorry for all things I did to you, I feel so guilty for everything.
I just want to say I love you and I miss you. You took my heart with you and I just want it back.
Please be happy. I hope I don't cause so much hurt, and if I did, please forgive me.
I love you, Ed. You were my best friend and the first person I loved, and that means the world to me and I would never be enough grateful for it.
And I just hope you can forgive me.
You deserve everything in this world.
I've chosen green because it is your favorite color.
Yours sincerely, D.
Please, don't read this.

i remember you always telling me there’s no one better for you than me. guess that changed huh? sorry i wasn’t enough for you. i have so much to say to you. but i won’t waste your time like that. so, i just wanted to thank you. thanks for helping me love myself. i found myself with you. you helped me through so much without even knowing. i love you ed. i’ll forever love you. there isn’t a day i don’t go without thinking about you. thank you. say hi to mom and dad for me. of course you have to tell ur doggy that i still love him as well.

6 months on & ur still stuck in my head. U broke a part of me and I hate that u have that power. I'll never forget you, but I wish I could.

Im so disappointed in you. I loved you with all my heart but you treated me like shit. I dont think i will ever love the same again.

I'm sorry for hurting you how I did. I didn't know half of what I do now; I think of you whenever I see your sisters

i can’t view a sunset without thinking of you and i can’t pick a flower without thinking of the garden i wanted with you

i can't believe it's been almost 4 years and you're still in my head. if that's what you wanted, it worked.

Sigo luchando cada día porque esto funcione, pero cada día encuentro razones para irme. Te amo, pero quedarme me está lastimando.

i love the idea of you and i am attached and attracted to you. but i do not love you as you do not me. you made the sky crumble and waterfalls roar with a single glace. you and yourself, perhaps you and someone else, never mine, forever in my mind.

im sorry about the last time we saw each other, i told you i was better and i guess im not. im trying and i hope youre proud even tho i fucked you over. text me in a few years

years later and i still think of you. i hope you don't cry at night anymore. you were my world and you deserve the world.

I wish you could know how you left things, it has always stayed with me. Like, you know you need to do something but have forgotten exactly what that something is. Or the song you can hum the tune to but never figure out its name. Or the room you walk into but forget why you went there in the first place. I have never stopped wondering, I have never stopped questioning. For some reason I never blame you, I keep circling back to myself. What did I do wrong? Is my love not enough? When you start questioning your own ability to love, you stop thinking you have any to give. I have spent a long time on my own, deeply alone. I want to tell you how much I miss you, not a day goes by where you don’t cross my mind. That is sad, isn’t it? Holding onto the last tiny piece of my past, an idea of what love felt like. Sometimes I feel like that’s all it will ever be for me again, an idea.
Nothing ever fits right, almost like someone else’s piece of the puzzle is made for someone else, never mine. My piece is torn, faded and never going to fit into the picture. You made me feel so alive, so whole, so loved. What can one do when those are taken away? I've had a lot of time to think, but I never seem to get past the love I had for you; no one makes sense and no one measures up. You were the one I saw myself with until my last breath. Now you see yours with another and I am left with just a shadow of what that feels like.

First day i sat next to you i thought you were the most annoying person. But deep down i enjoyed every minute a spent with you. Honestly time flew and i didnt realise my heart was falling for you. Our year together was cut short due to the pandemic and i never got to say goodbye. Quite recently ive been missing you and looking at old memories together. Watching those made me realise how much ive fallen for you. Yesterday you walked past me and i made eye contact with you. That split second felt like i was safe and happy, i want to look at you forever but i theres no way you fee l the same. So Ed i love you and i know ill never get to tell you this. But letting it out feels good. i hope your happy right now. Goodbye..

Today I listened to the song you dedicated to me on my birthday, after nine months without doing it. I cried... I felt so angry.

sorry I was confident enough in myself to make you feel as loved as you were. you were always my favorite person, I wish I made sure you knew it.

I don’t know if you were idealisation or reality but I wish I would had found out which.

I have a huge crush on you and our friends want us together. I want you to ask me out.

Hii, I still have a crush on you but I'm happy that you already found your love. Take care

you're all i've ever wished for, you make the world brighter sweet boy

should i approach u?

You're a nice guy

I never had any romantic feelings towards you. I faked my emotions so you wouldn't be hurt.

All I think about is you

the sun is starting to set earlier. i still think of you sometimes

i wonder what would become of us if I wasn't so afraid, if i had just made a move sooner.

if things go wrong just remember I love u more than u think and double that. u have my heart forever

Dear, Toki. I have missed you and wish you're doing good. I happy that u have someone new. GL! ????????

I'm sorry I wasn't brave enough to stay friends with you.

i was passing through your city

I wish you loved me back.

No matter what I do you'll always be my dad and I have to accept it. Love you.

everything i do i do with you in mind

I haven’t been the same without you, you were my life & home. My heart is forever yours.

i can’t believe it took you a month to move on. i thought i meant more to you

I'm so sorry

i wish our families would let us be together. i love you

Sometimes i feel the urge to say it and i hold back every time, except for now. Lovr you xx

sorry for blocking you

I’m broken without you. You’re all I’ve ever wanted. Please can this nightmare just end?

I love you, it’s been 4 years and now you are happy with her but I can’t, I still love you Ed.