Unsent messages to ALYSSA
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: August 3, 2023, 3:30 am UTC
dont blame me for not reaching out, i tried, you didnt
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 23, 2023, 10:59 pm UTC
i wish you treated me better as a friend
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 23, 2023, 9:48 pm UTC
I love you so much you're my everything. I'll always love you
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 23, 2023, 9:46 pm UTC
I'm sorry for being a terrible friend, it's not your fault
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 18, 2023, 10:29 pm UTC
i hope you learn to treat people with kindness
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 18, 2023, 5:25 pm UTC
I really like you not just as a friend....
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 16, 2023, 10:23 pm UTC
we should run away and raise cats in the mountains
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 16, 2023, 8:06 pm UTC
the best girl I kno, hope u still look at these :(
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 16, 2023, 8:02 pm UTC
no matter how much you keep hurting me i’ll always forgive you.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 16, 2023, 3:10 am UTC
I wish you the best but I hope you never talk to me again.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 12, 2023, 9:11 pm UTC
You were like a sister to me, and you threw that in my face.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: July 12, 2023, 2:09 pm UTC
i loved you so beyond much, sometimes i wish you could’ve seen
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 15, 2021, 12:33 am UTC
you promised to be here for my 18th birthday.. but just like that, everything fell apart and now we’re strangers again
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 14, 2021, 4:02 pm UTC
we were so close back in middle school i guess high school is when friends begin to split up, it sucked, everyone had their own shit going on but thats no excuse for me being an asshole. i loved you. i was glad we were so close i told you every thought which came to my mind. i don't know if we could ever be friends again we've changed so much but what happened has been blocked out of my memory making me think what harm could happen in trying again. i know you aren't a bad person i have forgiven you long ago. i'm sorry i put you through that just because i was put through it. sometimes i have something happen to me and want to tell you as well, ive never reached the level of closeness with someone as i have with you. you know what they say trios don't work out. but damn i really wish they did.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 14, 2021, 6:25 am UTC
im sorry if i cant convince u tht i really in love with u, i only can reassure u when u need it, but just want to let u know tht i really love u like lot lot hehe. i know my tone is kinda suspicious but it is wht it is. sincerely, ur mans.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 13, 2021, 9:40 pm UTC
I like you even tho I have never seen your face. I really like your personality and you always make me feel safe!
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 13, 2021, 5:55 am UTC
I miss talking to you, but if things didn’t turn out the way they did, I would be surrounded by toxic people
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 13, 2021, 4:45 am UTC
you mean the world to me and i relate to you more than anyone. i love you so much and you deserve the world. you always make me so happy and you always put a smile on my face. i hate seeing you get upset and i wish i knew how to comfort you better. i love u bestie
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 12, 2021, 3:21 pm UTC
of all the people that could've been my first love i'm glad it was you, you taught me how to live my life in a way i never have before, to see the fun in chaos, to always look for the sun - for this i thank you and think you deserve the world
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 11, 2021, 5:37 am UTC
you are engaged now and i am so happy for you, but i just wanted to say that I always meant to keep our promise
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 8, 2021, 6:53 am UTC
I think I might be in love with you. But you don't know that I'm a boy in a girls body.
why do I like you so much? you don't even want to date anyone.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 6, 2021, 5:45 pm UTC
heyo, i dont think you're the type to go on this website but maybe, just in case, i loved you. i still would if i knew how you feel about me.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 6, 2021, 9:45 am UTC
I’ve never been all that good at expressing myself, but hiding my feelings for you was the biggest mistake I’ve ever made. It’s been a while since we last spoke, and I still think of you, but it hurts too much to repress my feelings when I talk with you. Even if you never see this, I’m glad I was able to say it. The year we spent together was easily my best. Thank you for everything, and I’m sorry I’m such a coward.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 5, 2021, 9:22 pm UTC
whether you see this or not i hope you know the impact you’ve had on my life. i hope we can still make it
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 4, 2021, 2:03 am UTC
i feel so fcking empty now and i just keep thinking about you and if i could just kiss u but ur with him and im acting like i ever had a chance to begin with.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 3, 2021, 8:58 pm UTC
youre my yellow. you have been there for me for ten years now. a day doesnt go by that you dont find a way to make me smile or laugh. you have made me a better person, youve made me, me. youre truly my other half and you make me so insanely happy. thank you, i cant wait to continue to grow up with you.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 3, 2021, 3:30 am UTC
maybe i am being dramatic, but maybe it’s for the best. maybe i should celebrate the new year with the people who will always be there, myself.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: January 2, 2021, 6:22 am UTC
playing the friend for so long was draining but I learned to separate myself from loving you and kept us friends instead. I could never stop loving you though, that's the problem
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 31, 2020, 7:22 pm UTC
I just needed a friend who cared. You just hurt everyone around you until they can’t handle it anymore.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 30, 2020, 7:03 am UTC
I’ve had a crush on you since day one. you never seem to figure it out. it’s like you’re completely denying it, and it hurts to know why you are. You don’t want to hear that I like you. You’re so pretty to me, and i wish i could be your type. I don’t wanna ruin our friendship, so i will never tell you. Just know that I love you no matter what. You are the first person I ever fell in love with, yet you are a beautiful person I wanted and never got. We are friends forever and nothing will ever change that. I hope you enjoy exploring your sexuality, and I’m glad I was apart of that. I just wish I wasn’t just an experiment to you. You’re smile keeps me on this Earth. Stay happy, best friend.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 28, 2020, 11:12 am UTC
stupid ass bitch. mayo monkey ass hoe. i hope you choke on your dry ass chicken bitch. never liked you from the start you fucking coward. fucking ugly ass roach every time i said you were pretty i lied. dont ever try to one up me by saying im not fat. no need to lie trick ass skank.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 23, 2020, 2:27 pm UTC
looking back, i have always pinned on you the blame why we didn't work out. but as we grow older, i have realized that i should've given you more time, i should've understood your struggles, i should've payed more attention to the smallest tiniest little things you were trying to tell me, i should've set aside my pride. i tried my very best not to do the same mistakes again when i dated someone after you but every time i do, our "could've been" always bothers me
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 23, 2020, 2:15 pm UTC
hey. it's my first time writing in here. i chose this color because u used to write me letters with this shade of sticky notes. i still keep them.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 22, 2020, 4:30 am UTC
u were good to me while it lasted. i know we would have never worked out long term. u don't seem happy but I hope u find it someday. and someday u find happiness within yourself
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 21, 2020, 9:51 pm UTC
i dont know exactly when i realized i loved you maybe around six grade idk that sounds stupid but i just think about what if we had kissed ik you didnt feel the same i dont even think i fully knew how i felt about you then too since we were so young but it ever since you left i never stopped thinking about you. i wish i never liked you because i know it would just cause pain if we ever did date. i dont know anything but you seem happy now i dont really know.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 21, 2020, 4:20 pm UTC
i still play third eye blind thinking of you. im sorry i fucked everything up. maybe we'll be together in another life because god knows that's all i want. im sorry.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 21, 2020, 10:15 am UTC
you’re amazing in all forms you’re one of a kind. it’s hard to find people like you and you deserve the world and i hope you get it one day. i don’t think i would ever be able to give you the world even tho you would like me to. your voice brings serotonin pure happiness. i’m just terribly afraid of hurting you so i constantly have thoughts about pushing you away . i don’t ever wanna see you upset or crying over me. please love yourself, love yourself like no other and take care of yourself beautiful. i just can’t be the to satisfy you i can’t satisfy anyone without making mistakes i’m so sorry
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 20, 2020, 9:15 am UTC
i have feelings for you and i know you have feelings for me but i’m just so scared of change and uncertainty. i love you.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 17, 2020, 12:29 am UTC
dude you were my best friend and i have no idea what happened. ofc i still think abt u, and i worry constantly because i know you just need a bigass hug. deep deep down you know you're not okay and you need help. if you ever called me out of the blue because you needed me, id pick up in a heartbeat. i will always love you TONS, but i love you from a very very far distance. please look out for yourself and stay safe.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 16, 2020, 3:30 am UTC
I trust you with my life, everyday you save me without realising it. Please stay here with me. You are worth it and deserve the world. Ily so much
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 13, 2020, 7:03 pm UTC
i miss you a lot but i hate you. i hate that i can’t be happy without looking for bits of you in people. i just wanna be happy.
From: ABC
To: alyssa
Date: December 13, 2020, 1:38 pm UTC
I miss you more and more everyday. You were my first love and I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you. I see you in everything I do. I’m sorry.
