you are engaged now and i am so happy for you, but i just wanted to say that I always meant to keep our promise

I wish I could tell you everything that I love about you. I want you to feel like you're the queen of this world.

playing the friend for so long was draining but I learned to separate myself from loving you and kept us friends instead. I could never stop loving you though, that's the problem

I trust you with my life, everyday you save me without realising it. Please stay here with me. You are worth it and deserve the world. Ily so much

You were the first person I could be myself around. It hurts that I wasn’t as important to you. I’ll always love you

The reason I never fully committed was because I knew you were still talking to him even after you said he was toxic. The though of being a second choice and never someone you’d open up to was a complete turn off.

I always thought we would be friends forever... what did I ever do to you? I was always there for you and you still took advantage of me. I still cry about you sometimes, you don’t deserve my tears.

i can't believe you're still hung up over shit after 3 months. get over yourself. stop harassing me and my boyfriend you freak. i know it's based around jealousy but you have to get over it. for the sake of everyone

hey, i haven't told anyone this but.. i have BPD and that's why i was so clingy and couldn't let you go. maybe a little part of it was the feelings i had for you at the bottom of my heart that i could never figure out. im sorry and i love you more then anything

of all the people that could've been my first love i'm glad it was you, you taught me how to live my life in a way i never have before, to see the fun in chaos, to always look for the sun - for this i thank you and think you deserve the world

dude you were my best friend and i have no idea what happened. ofc i still think abt u, and i worry constantly because i know you just need a bigass hug. deep deep down you know you're not okay and you need help. if you ever called me out of the blue because you needed me, id pick up in a heartbeat. i will always love you TONS, but i love you from a very very far distance. please look out for yourself and stay safe.

i hope one day you learn to grow up. i was rooting for you. it’s a shame you’re such a bitch. we could’ve been friends

maybe i am being dramatic, but maybe it’s for the best. maybe i should celebrate the new year with the people who will always be there, myself.

you mean the world to me and i relate to you more than anyone. i love you so much and you deserve the world. you always make me so happy and you always put a smile on my face. i hate seeing you get upset and i wish i knew how to comfort you better. i love u bestie

I miss talking to you, but if things didn’t turn out the way they did, I would be surrounded by toxic people

This site says its for your first love and that is what you are to me. I may have been with other people, but it wasn't till I was with you that I realized that it wasn't love with them. You treated me perfect and even though you ended things I would jump back in a heartbeat because I miss you in every way that does and doesn't matter. I wrote this the night you left because im sure you will never see this so it will be less clingy and sad when the time does or doesn't come. You mean the galaxy to me and I wouldn't trade you for the world. I will think about you endlessly these coming months and maybe even years to come because I know thats all I have ever done was think about you. Your stupid silly jokes that I can't live without, slightly annoying things I've grown to love, I even love how you tell me no because I've never known boundaries and it has made me such a good man. You seen the opposite in what I seen in myself, and you made sure to remind me everyday of how you feel, and that was truly special. I was and am so happy with you I always got butterflies whenever I would tell my mother about you or when I showed her those pictures of you. You are the most amazing woman alyssa and I wish I could convey that better than a stupid wimpy message on a site youll never see. I'll talk to you later, when my name, face, heritage, and life are different

I still think about your lips on mine. I hope you are happy. I wish I had been nicer and handled things differently.

I like you even tho I have never seen your face. I really like your personality and you always make me feel safe!

you were my best friend. i loved you so much. why wasn't i enough? what did i do wrong? i can't take the silence anymore.

you live in my head and i can’t get you out and i text you hoping for a response and i told you feelings were coming back and i just don’t know how to talk to you i wish we could just have a heart to heart conversation so i can tell you how i feel and everything and i miss talking to you and being in class with you and if you would ever stumble across this somehow just know that you mean a lot to me and you’ll know this is from me ik you will

everytime i see you i feel so bad. i was never enough and it hurts. how could i have been enough if you kept changing your standards ?

hey. something good happened. it's like a switch flipped in my head, and now i'm not sad when i think of you.

stupid ass bitch. mayo monkey ass hoe. i hope you choke on your dry ass chicken bitch. never liked you from the start you fucking coward. fucking ugly ass roach every time i said you were pretty i lied. dont ever try to one up me by saying im not fat. no need to lie trick ass skank.

we both used to be loners. the minute i made more friends, i never forgot about you and would continue to talk and hangout with you 24/7. i kept reassuring to you that i’d never forget about you and that you had nothing to be jealous about and even tried to get you to meet my new friends. when they dumped me, you made a new group a friends and forgot about me. you’d cancel on me the very last minute, you’d leave me on read or deliver for days and days, and you lost interest for our friendship. i wish i wasn’t so disposable to you.

I hope your doing well and I hope your happy with him!! You taught me that friends should never be my sole support cause they will end up hurting you one day. I hope your happy with Brady

I’ve had a crush on you since day one. you never seem to figure it out. it’s like you’re completely denying it, and it hurts to know why you are. You don’t want to hear that I like you. You’re so pretty to me, and i wish i could be your type. I don’t wanna ruin our friendship, so i will never tell you. Just know that I love you no matter what. You are the first person I ever fell in love with, yet you are a beautiful person I wanted and never got. We are friends forever and nothing will ever change that. I hope you enjoy exploring your sexuality, and I’m glad I was apart of that. I just wish I wasn’t just an experiment to you. You’re smile keeps me on this Earth. Stay happy, best friend.

whether you see this or not i hope you know the impact you’ve had on my life. i hope we can still make it

You were my first love, you hurt me but I just hope you remember the good more then the bad with me, I’ll always want you to be happy even if it’s not with me

I just needed a friend who cared. You just hurt everyone around you until they can’t handle it anymore.

I’ve never been all that good at expressing myself, but hiding my feelings for you was the biggest mistake I’ve ever made. It’s been a while since we last spoke, and I still think of you, but it hurts too much to repress my feelings when I talk with you. Even if you never see this, I’m glad I was able to say it. The year we spent together was easily my best. Thank you for everything, and I’m sorry I’m such a coward.

heyo, i dont think you're the type to go on this website but maybe, just in case, i loved you. i still would if i knew how you feel about me.

im sorry if i cant convince u tht i really in love with u, i only can reassure u when u need it, but just want to let u know tht i really love u like lot lot hehe. i know my tone is kinda suspicious but it is wht it is. sincerely, ur mans.

we were so close back in middle school i guess high school is when friends begin to split up, it sucked, everyone had their own shit going on but thats no excuse for me being an asshole. i loved you. i was glad we were so close i told you every thought which came to my mind. i don't know if we could ever be friends again we've changed so much but what happened has been blocked out of my memory making me think what harm could happen in trying again. i know you aren't a bad person i have forgiven you long ago. i'm sorry i put you through that just because i was put through it. sometimes i have something happen to me and want to tell you as well, ive never reached the level of closeness with someone as i have with you. you know what they say trios don't work out. but damn i really wish they did.

you promised to be here for my 18th birthday.. but just like that, everything fell apart and now we’re strangers again

i have feelings for you and i know you have feelings for me but i’m just so scared of change and uncertainty. i love you.

hey baby,
you are doing your homework and im so thankful I get to hear your beautiful voice every day. I want to do so much with you. ill be here as long as you want me

you’re amazing in all forms you’re one of a kind. it’s hard to find people like you and you deserve the world and i hope you get it one day. i don’t think i would ever be able to give you the world even tho you would like me to. your voice brings serotonin pure happiness. i’m just terribly afraid of hurting you so i constantly have thoughts about pushing you away . i don’t ever wanna see you upset or crying over me. please love yourself, love yourself like no other and take care of yourself beautiful. i just can’t be the to satisfy you i can’t satisfy anyone without making mistakes i’m so sorry

i still play third eye blind thinking of you. im sorry i fucked everything up. maybe we'll be together in another life because god knows that's all i want. im sorry.

I think I might be in love with you. But you don't know that I'm a boy in a girls body.
why do I like you so much? you don't even want to date anyone.

i dont know exactly when i realized i loved you maybe around six grade idk that sounds stupid but i just think about what if we had kissed ik you didnt feel the same i dont even think i fully knew how i felt about you then too since we were so young but it ever since you left i never stopped thinking about you. i wish i never liked you because i know it would just cause pain if we ever did date. i dont know anything but you seem happy now i dont really know.

u were good to me while it lasted. i know we would have never worked out long term. u don't seem happy but I hope u find it someday. and someday u find happiness within yourself

Dear Raphael...
you made my fears vanish, my days brighter, future more reachable, and my life better. Even after it all, I always knew I loved you more and now you do not deserve it.

don't doubt it, don't question it. don't push it away. don't force it. take all what comes your way alyssa. if it's yours it will find you.

hey. it's my first time writing in here. i chose this color because u used to write me letters with this shade of sticky notes. i still keep them.

looking back, i have always pinned on you the blame why we didn't work out. but as we grow older, i have realized that i should've given you more time, i should've understood your struggles, i should've payed more attention to the smallest tiniest little things you were trying to tell me, i should've set aside my pride. i tried my very best not to do the same mistakes again when i dated someone after you but every time i do, our "could've been" always bothers me

I want to tell you so much. I want to throw this weight off my shoulders. nothing is holding me back besides fear. why am I the one who has to make the first move. why can't I be like you and hold it all back? I know you feel the same way... why won't you say anything?

what you did was shitty. i'm not writing this to attack you, just make you realize that justifying why you hurt people so badly with the excuse that it was for your own "happiness" is a low move. it wasn't. it was just selfish and you know it. boys come and go but i guess everyone knows where your priorities are at.

When people ask me what I saw in you, I just smile and look away because i'm afraid if they knew, they'd fall in love with you too.

I wish you could just understand how you make me feel. The way my stomach gets butterflies every time I see you. The way your eyes captivate me. It's like you have full control over my emotions and I can't do anything about it. You occupy my mind from sun up to sundown, but I just wish you felt the same way. My life has always been filled with disappointment, but I think my biggest one would be not being able to spend the rest of my life with you. If only you knew

youre my yellow. you have been there for me for ten years now. a day doesnt go by that you dont find a way to make me smile or laugh. you have made me a better person, youve made me, me. youre truly my other half and you make me so insanely happy. thank you, i cant wait to continue to grow up with you.