Unsent messages to ALAN
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:53 pm UTC
Eres un amor de internet, tal vez nunca te vea o pueda sentir tu respiración pero te amaré por siempre :(
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:59 am UTC
You’re such a shitty guy, but I’m above anonymous cyber bullying so... I hope you never find better ?
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 19, 2020, 7:32 am UTC
Hey lol. I'm not gonna say my name in case you see this lmao. Anyways believe it or not I never had a crush on someone until eighth grade. Romantic feelings and interest was something I never felt. Until I met you. We texted for a year and a half everyday at every hour and ur messages were the highlight of my day. And then I tried to set u up with my friend in freshman year remember? Gross I don't know why I did that but you guys stopped texting so it turned out ok lol. And when you told me u had a crush on me but all I did was ask if it was a joke lol sorry about that I'm not good at expressing feelings. Anyways we stopped texting after 1 year and a half and I thought about u from time to time, the flirting, the laughs, but I couldn't text you, half of the reason was bc u were blocked and the other because I was too petty. Then we started texting again and then I left u on seen again for 5 weeks bc it seemed u didn't care and u were really dry. Then 5 weeks passed and u texted me again then left me on seen lmaoo payback ig. But u need to stop texting me, I need to forget you. I didn't love u and I don't. I just think I have an attachment because u were the first person Ive ever liked to this day. But fr stop texting me randomly lol we need to move on. We live in a pretty small town so I'm hoping I don't run into u. Anyways thanks for being a friend and the only guy who I didn't block after u admitted ur feelings lol
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 18, 2020, 10:40 am UTC
I fucking love you. I wish we were both ready to be together. Idk if we have is love, but for some reason your the first time it was more than a crush bc of how long we've been with each other.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 18, 2020, 5:04 am UTC
I wish you knew how hurt I feel when you seem like you aren’t interested. I wish you put in the same amount of effort as me and met me half way. I wish you actually cared about my life. I just wish you liked me back.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 18, 2020, 4:36 am UTC
i wished i would have know it would be the last time. i would have said good or at least a till we meet again and to also let you know that you deserve the best and nothing less. till we meet again.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 18, 2020, 1:34 am UTC
734 miles away. i think about you everyday. i already know you won’t stay. but just know, you’ve made me feel okay :)
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 18, 2020, 1:34 am UTC
734 miles away. i think about you everyday. i already know you won’t stay. but just know, you’ve made me feel okay :)
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 17, 2020, 7:38 am UTC
creo que siempre tuve muchas ganas de conocerte, te quiero mucho, y espero volvernos a tener la confianza que nos teníamos antes. Te deseo lo mejor, gracias por hacerme la más feliz con tus mensajes:)
No me odies, yo te quiero mucho.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 16, 2020, 5:38 pm UTC
I miss you so much ... even after this time ... I love you still I can't forget about you. you may hate my guts but I cant forget about you
K.G.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 15, 2020, 12:01 am UTC
Aunque no estemos juntos, aunque estemos con otras personas y por más tiempo que pase te querré siempre y siempre tendrás un espacio en mi mente y corazón porque nadie podrá reemplazarte únicamente trataré de llenar ese vacío que dejaste al irte.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 10, 2020, 9:20 am UTC
I honestly am dumb for even thinking things would work out. with everything you have put me through I actually still thought you would be different. No, you were the same. You treated me like shit again, you tried controlling what I wear even if its just a shirt a little short, you told me not to post certain things, and nothing was ever 50/50. the fact that we weren't even together and you treated me this bad is even worse. when we were together you had me delete all my social media, would cuss me out every day, yell at me over small things, take everything out on me, call me a bitch, slut, ho, anything you could think of, you took away everything from me and put me in a dark place, even through ALL of that i still made sure you were okay every day. After we broke up a month later we started talking again and you made me think you were so good and made me think you were different. things were great, it felt like I had the old you back the one i fell in love with at first. 3 weeks later your controlling me, manipulating me, and treating me the worst you possibly can. The fact we are only 14 and you treat me this way, good luck in the future with girls, not all will treat you how i did not all will be here for you like I was. I love you but you put me through hell. I did the most I could for us to work yet you still find ways to make me feel worthless. right now you don't want shit to do with me but 2-3 months from now when theres no more girls that want you, your bored of being single, and you start thinking about me. I won't want you, I hope i actually find someone that knows how to treat me with respect and make me happy. theres no going back anymore. you made me feel so alone, and so sad. I still told you every night 'text me if you need anything' even the nights you would call me the rudest things and make me feel worthless. wish you the best but don't come back once ur bored or sad, you aren't here for me when I'm going through shit so I'm not here for you anymore. wish u the best alan, love you. jehe
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 7, 2020, 6:48 am UTC
Yo se que no fui la mejor novia, pero eramos principiantes en esto del amor, eres y seras mi primer amor, aunque yo no se si fui el tuyo.
siempre recordare esas platicas y detalles... Te amé como a mi primer amor y me costo olvidarte como el mismo.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 6, 2020, 11:38 pm UTC
Llevo meses tratando de hacerte ver lo mucho que me importas y el cariño que te tengo, de que haría cualquier cosa por ti, pero entiendo si no soy el indicado para ti, entiendo si no me ves como igual... espero que la persona que escojas te sepa ver como yo te vi a ti.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: November 6, 2020, 5:59 am UTC
Holaa.
Tal vez ya ni te acuerdes de mi y ahora me odies pero aun asi me alegra haberte conocido como te lo dije siempre te voy amar y aun lo hago se que esto fue un error un hermoso y horrible error, cuidate.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: October 27, 2020, 1:33 pm UTC
i want to be your friend but you make it so difficult. albeit that things are difficult for you that is not an excuse or validation to how you act. things are hard for me too and i dont want to constantly be chasing someone who doesnt show any sense of responding commitment or willingness to be my friend. your apathy or ignorance is tiring. stop pushing me away. i hate it and if you keep it up you will loose me.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: October 27, 2020, 11:02 am UTC
We’ve really become strangers. It saddens me that it ended like this, but I miss you even if I don’t show it. I try so hard not to care and it works. I hope things go back to normal in the future.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: October 8, 2020, 7:37 pm UTC
thank u for everything, u deserve the world. i love you to infinity and beyond and back infinite times.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: October 2, 2020, 11:17 pm UTC
If you knew how I really feel, what would you do? Would you cheer me up or let me down like everybody else did at this point..?
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: October 1, 2020, 3:40 am UTC
i guess we didn't want the same thing. we could've made it work. it wasn't a huge distance. i still think about our conversations. there's a ghost of a smile whenever i look at the clock late at night because it reminds me of you. i really liked you. the comfortable silence. the way you would fidget. but things never would've worked if we both didn't try. that's where we differed. i don't think you cared about me like i cared about you. so fuck you, but my heart still beats so fast whenever you text me once in a blue moon.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: September 30, 2020, 7:23 pm UTC
I just wanted to be friends but i didn't want to annoy you now i just think of how it could have been if i told you i miss you and hope to speak to you again for now just...
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From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: September 30, 2020, 8:32 am UTC
You helped me so much and I thank you for that but, you broke me and now it’s time to let go and love myself again.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: September 29, 2020, 7:50 am UTC
I hate you for making it seem like you really wanted something to do with me however I still love you
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: September 13, 2020, 1:53 am UTC
how are you? i miss you. i hate being so far away, it feels like i'll never see your smile. but i'll wait as long as i have to my love, as long as you wait for me.
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: September 12, 2020, 4:31 am UTC
i still love you and you know that but why did you choose her after i told you everything you wanted me back too
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: September 9, 2020, 3:32 am UTC
i love you so much and could love you so much better than her. i feel hurt every time i see you though
From: ABC
To: Alan
Date: September 7, 2020, 3:13 pm UTC
You have no idea how bad I wanted you, and how much it hurts to see you with someone else. Still, I wish you the best and I´ll love you forever.
