hi ,, this me addressing my past unsent projects . ive liked u for a while ,, aey . and i analyzed every little thing u said lmfao . i thought u couldve liked meback when u said i love u ,, maybe u were just saying it as a friend at the time . but now ,, today were together . and i get butterflies in my stomach whenever u text me ? i love u ,, but ill probably nvr tell u i wrote any of these el o el

the worst feeling is that u dont like me back ,, i havent even told u i did but u know . and u dont feel the same

i fucked up my sleep schedule for u . ur awake at 7 am to 12 am and thats 2 pm to 10 am for me so i would stay up all night to text u ,, and wake up two hours later bc i didnt want to b asleep while u were awake . i just wanted to text u as much as i possibly could

hi . im sorry i dont know how to help u . i just dont know what to say to u , like ive been through what uve been through , but i dont want to bring it up bc then itll sound like i only ever want to talk abt myself . i think ur really cool lolz . i love u . i 100% know that . but i dont know if i love u or if im in love w u . say if i was , if i was in love w u . would that ruin everything ? with u , me , everyone . and if i did . i cant believe i caught feelings for someone who lives across the world . i know this ones gonna hurt in the end . i promise i wont leave u . but one of us is gonna get hurt eventually

fuck i forgot abt time zones oh god . i had a hard day today . i didnt feel like expressing it much but i turned to u for comfort . for a distraction . we didnt talk much ,, in fact we only said goodnight to each other ,, and i dont usually have a lot of time to talk to u anymore . but u still gave me relief just knowing that ur gnna b there for me at the end of the day . plus ,, who could complain ? at least i have u

im afraid the distance will steal u from me to b honest . but its always been like this ,, this is always how our relationship has been and i will wait until the day we can see each other face to face but one day well finally get to go on that picnic date ,, or go stargazing ,, or go to tokyo together . just like we planned . i hope one day well meet in an airport lobby and all will b okay . also im gnna keep up w ur time zone from now on a ha ha
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I still think about you. I miss you, though I know I shouldn't. I'm sorry. ♥