i miss you :/ ive been working on an apology in my notes app and its not enough and it cant be good enough and im too scared to text you. everything i said was wrong, and i wasnt good for you at all. i hope youre doing okay. maybe one day we can try again, or at least be friends. i have a playlist of shit and i dont know,, i dont want to date you again just because then you would be known as the person who went back to the cheating ex. as much as i wish we could have a second chance, i fucked it up and i accept it. i hope we can be friends one day, because talking to you made me really really happy. im sorry babes. i miss you.

the way i've fallen for you- thanks for showing me i don't need to settle for boys who won't go on dates with me.

i tried telling the cashier at ulta that i dont have a good phone number blah blah,, AND THE MF LOOKS AT ME AND GOES hm are you sure, and then i got scared

i still miss you smh def not a one-night thing :/ lol you looked rly pretty in ur recent posts btw :3

im so fucking sorry


i cant even say i was in love with you. i mean if i was then why did i hurt you






yea :/ u deserve so much better

mayb one day ill be walking around dickson and run into you and we could talk. thzt would be nice i think

i really really hope you find a person who's fit for you, because it's obviously not me and it wont ever be. i want whats best for you, and if you want to be with zach, then i wish you guys so much good. all i can say at this point is that im so so happy we got to end on a relatively better note. talking to you again made me really happy, n im glad that you seem to be doing okay. i do still miss my pretty purple-haired girlfriend smh. yet i know you are so much better off with me not in your life. i hurt you and it was unfair, and it's still unfair for me to write you messages over this website. meryy christmas

ps hehe, me in 20 years is a sick song, tyty for recommending it ;p

jesus christ AHA god this is hard- i want you to be happy with zach, and im so sorry you have to hide this shit from ur friends. we both know its dumb, yet... aha. idk either i wanna see you too? but it? i don't want you to hide anything from ur closest people. we definitely need to have a real face to face convo, n i miss hugging u (also kisses but shhhh that's not a rn problem) and i swear to god im so so sorry, and i wish! it could! be better! but ur right idk how it would work either

i do need to be completely honest with you because i am still talking to mars, and ik you know that too. we both rely on each other too much, and if you and i even talk again, you should know that// idk if i can really ever cut him off. we both have an emotional attachment that i don't think can go away. and i also know you cant really trust me not to fuck him er anything, so LOL :D but yea i don't know what else to say except that's what i need to be upfront about.

on a hunch you'll be checking this: its not a thing i can control, and im so sorry i wish i could drop him and win you back, but we both know i would end up hurting you in some way er another. i really truly wish i had never met mars and we could've been smtn great. im here and always open if you need to talk to anyone ab anything, and i wont judge er anything lolz. ill miss you babes, i hope you have a really good life, i wish i could be a part of it. don't turn to any bad coping mechanisms, and you don't have to know if ur lesbian rn, er hell idk, you don't have to know ever. if zach makes you happy, go for it, if he doesn't, its not a big deal. there's always going to be a what-if when i think about you. you deserve so much good. be happy and fall in love with people and forget about me.


just got ur text. and its fair. and im sorry. there's not anything i could say to change it, because it is what it is. i wanted you to know that before we talked again. im sorry for everything, so fucking sorry, but we both know sorry wont take back what i did. i will miss you so much, and i think ab u every time i pass some girl with purple hair.

goodbye zenna.

You’ll always be my partner in crime