Unsent messages to ZARA

im forgetting everything about you, i had to write your name down today, just because i almost forgot how to spell it. all our memories are fading, i cant remember if they actually happened or if it was a dream, or something i imagined, or something i wished happened.

i miss you, not a day goes by where i dont think of you. this always happens to me. here, blue, for our favourite colour. our. it was supposed to be you and i. but i dont know where you are and i wonder if you ever think about me. i know youll never see this, this isnt even your real name. but i miss you. i need you. life feels emptier without your jokes and your laugh. you were the only one that really got me here, and now youre not here. what even is here? i wish i didnt love you this much. i wish we never got close. this isnt fair on any of us. and maybe im being annoying, you went through a lot more. but i was helping you, and you were helping me. zara, it doesnt matter how many years pass by, ill never forget you, even if they try to, i never will. you changed my life in just 6 months, just like that, in and out. a piece of me is gone with you. and maybe you should keep it. i know you need it. and for anyone thats seeing this, no zara isnt dead or missing. just gone. idk where, because she wont text me back. pls return my calls, i miss seeing your face.

even tho we were never together I have always loved you, and if you re gonna see this one day remember me, the girl who stopped u from killing ur lungs:) I love you

Me gustaron muchas personas en mi vida, pero el dolor que me causo esto fue el mas grande de todos. Me empezaste a gustar, eras mi mejor amiga. Me declare y vos pensaste que era joda, estabas con un chico y no me ibas a dar bola. Teniendo una amistad mas fuerte que todo, siempre que necesitaba algo vos estabas, me ayudaste en el momento mas dificil de mi vida. Diciendo chistes de estupidos llamándonos trolas, tortas, etc. Yo sabia que eras hetero aun asi lo intente porque tenia esperanza. Siempre te quiese dar un abrazo, y nunca te lo pude dar. La única persona que me gusto que me hizo llorar por su rechazo. Me hubiera gustado ser el, asi estar juntes. Espero que me hayas considerado tu mj, alguna vez algo mas. Espero que algun dia nos veamos y te pueda dar un abrazo aunque estemos a miles de kilometros lejos. te amo. Te mando un abrazo desde aca, tkm demasiado. Si lees esto te digo que no me gusta tu pololo, en realidad me gustabas vos. gracias por todo
Fuerte abrazo, tu trola favorita ?

oh where do i start. oh ik. fuck u. u ruined so much of my elementary school years and now ur trying to become friends? yeah i dont think so. the grudge that i hold against u is like nothing ive ever had before. i would go on but i dont wanna hurt ur fragile little feelings.

im so so sorry. i lied about getting better and tbh I think I'm a lot worse. i might even be going soon. i don't know when soon is but its kinda soon I think. I'm so fucking sorry

i know you're probably still thinking about a lot of things you shouldn't be at your age. i know things are hard for you right now but I hope that you know I'm always thinking about you and wishing the best for you. i told you today that I finally found someone I love, I couldn't figure out it at first but finally with some help I figured out that I really do love someone. this person is you. you might think that this is weird since we've been best friends for so long and I understand that. I'm fine with it just being a one-sided love, with only me thinking about you and loving you cause that brings me so much happiness already. i wouldn't want to ruin our friendship. thank you for everything. i love you and I would die for you any day.

i hope you still like green.
often i find myself wanting to message you, to ask how you’ve been, desperate to know. but i don’t want to hurt you, to have to bring back a memory you may not want. but i promise you, when i’m out of school and have the money, i will find you- and you will have the choice to take me or throw me away. it doesn’t matter, just know that i’ll never forget about you, and even if we don’t talk anymore, it doesn’t have to be the end.

I gave you so much of myself, I lost myself along the way. It's not fair to have to miss you. I love you.

I gave you so much of myself. I lost parts of myself along the way. It hurts that it wasn't enough. I love you.

hi my love. i just wanted to thank you, for everything. everything you've ever done for me. you are the most precious and beautiful person i've ever met in my life, i adore you. i wish i could tell you how i feel. i don't want to ruin things with you. you're perfect & you're loved, cherished even. thank you for saving my life, i'll never be able to repay you. you're everything to me. please never leave. i want to grow old with you, i want to be your partner in crime. but, you'll never know, will you? from the bottom of my heart, i love you.

You’ll probably never understand, but I loved you so much, platonically that is, but it grew to a point I was so happy just to see you, I’d get out of my comfort zone bc ik you’d be there. You just made me so happy, I’ve kept all the birthday cards you gave me, I remember last year crying bc you forgot to give me one. It’s my fault for unnecessarily growing attached to you. I just hate the fact we can’t be friends anymore and I wish I could understand why you lied to that extent. I miss you bro