Unsent Messages

i miss you, not a day goes by where i dont think of you. this always happens to me. here, blue, for our favourite colour. our. it was supposed to be you and i. but i dont know where you are and i wonder if you ever think about me. i know youll never see this, this isnt even your real name. but i miss you. i need you. life feels emptier without your jokes and your laugh. you were the only one that really got me here, and now youre not here. what even is here? i wish i didnt love you this much. i wish we never got close. this isnt fair on any of us. and maybe im being annoying, you went through a lot more. but i was helping you, and you were helping me. zara, it doesnt matter how many years pass by, ill never forget you, even if they try to, i never will. you changed my life in just 6 months, just like that, in and out. a piece of me is gone with you. and maybe you should keep it. i know you need it. and for anyone thats seeing this, no zara isnt dead or missing. just gone. idk where, because she wont text me back. pls return my calls, i miss seeing your face.