Unsent messages to TREVOR

I hate that you came back when you knew i was happy. you hated to see me happy with someone else that wasn't you. I am happy i blocked you, but i will never regret being with you. our relationship was made up of things i believed were love at the time, but it wasn't. Thank you for everything, really. but you cant be part of my life anymore. when my kids ask about my first heartbreak, i will tell them about you.

You were the first guy I gave it all to and i wanted it to be just you for a long time but you took so much away from me when you left. I dont know why i still care but for some reason i still want you and youll never read this but i wish you would come back trev i wanna see your stupid permed hair one more time

I cant sleep or eat or breathe I miss you so much. Why'd you come back when i was doing better? Why'd you say you still loved me and then leave me again? Maybe I'll never get an answer but I'll always love you. Im still holding on to hope that you'll find your way back to me someday. Forever and Always 50

you hurt me ,broke me basically it hurts to know you only wanted me for my body when im so much more than that and i was stupid enough to give you a second chance when i never ahould have or i wouldnt be in the possition i am now so a big fuck you for breaking me even more.

ur now one my best guy friends but i’m still in love with you even tho u don’t know. i love and miss u

it would be easier if i hated you, but i don’t. i understand why you ended it. and i never told you that i loved you, but i did. and it’s okay if you never felt the same, but i just needed you to hear it once.

I don’t think I’ll ever stop thinking about you. That day was the best thing that ever happened to me and then you just treated me like I was nothing. I can’t help it, I miss you so much that it hurts. I wish you would just text me. I just want to hear you call me cute or beautiful again.

I think you may be who I’ve been manifesting. When we spoke for the first time last night I felt a spark in my soul that has not been ignited in a long time. I cant explain it, but I need to get to know you.

honestly, yes it’s my fault i didn’t have any respect for myself. it’s my fault you led me on for a year now. i’m always apologizing for your mistakes, doesn’t that say a lot about yourself? you always make me feel horrible about myself saying how i never take the blame for my mistakes, but in reality; it’s you. you are the one who can’t take responsibility or clean up your actions. all this time i’ve looked past everything you’ve done and i’ve tried to see the best in you, but everyone finally made me realize, you just don’t care about anyone except for yourself. you really made me feel so shitty about myself for so fucking long, but it was just all your own anger and insecurities that you were taking out on me. i forgave you way too many times and gave you way too many chances. i stayed around for so long, not because i didn’t respect myself, but because i really had hope that we were gonna work out, and you really can’t blame me for thinking that. i hope you sleep well with her tonight and she brings you all the happiness i couldn’t. i’m sorry

i would do anything to start over. i wish i could meet you the first time again. i can't love you with the baggage.