Unsent messages to TRENT

It feels like I’ve loved you longer then I’ve even known you

you confuse me so much but i can’t stop liking you

It’s been years and I know you’ll never be over me

You’re the absolute love of my life nobody can replace you.

i never hated you, but i’m so glad i finally left you.

You deserved better. I’m so sorry. I miss you everyday.

i miss you and love you i cant wait to see you again

I’m sorry for what I did and everything I put you through.

I miss you, how things use to be.

I loved you with everything and you left so easily

i love you so much I hope you never leave me I want us forever

i wish you were here next to me

You stole my first kiss from me and I will never forgive you for that. I TOLD YOU i wasn’t ready for anything sexual and yet on our second date you took
me to the place that all couples go to hook up. I got drunk and you kissed me and we made out. Maybe I did like it. But I was too drunk to remember much of it. And then you left. Fuck you.

We first kissed when we played spin the bottle together. The bottle became what I drank from when I wanted to taste your lips again. It still is. I still love you.

oh boy were do i even begin... we had know eachother since kindergarten and then we started middleschool i had always had a crush on you i just chose to ignore it. Then came the day you gave me that weird loopy smile in class and i got butterflies. We were considered friends and we helped eachother with crushes little did you know that really hurt me, but i still helped for some godawful reason. i told you on valentines day (go my little sixth grader self) and what did you do... you played with my feelings even if i was young and naïve you still were a dick to do that. it hurt me. and then you proceeded to LEAD ME ON like W H A T but you gave me a wake up call telling me that you didn't deserve me not only that i deserved better. so i took time and found myself i found my self worth i found my happiness that somehow you stole. regardless of how much it hurt and how i suffered all i can say is thank you. I'm not mad I'm grateful. you could never understand but i needed to search for my happiness i couldnt expect it to be there i needed to tell myself i am worthy of happiness. i am worthy of love. I am worthy of life. And now i went into the new school year with that in mind and found someone who knows im worth it, i couldnt be happier. thank you trent really thank you. ill miss you spiderman

happy new year lovie. im so glad I met you in 2019, It’s crazy to think I’ve been with you for a little over a year ❤️

I tried to write this months ago, but I couldn’t figure out the words to justify what I did to you. I am truly sorry, but you hurt me back. I was in pain too, and you didn’t value my emotions. Your actions make me know my decision was right. I’m sorry but not for what I did.

There’s always going to be that “what if” in my head, no matter how many times i tell myself to let you go.

I fell hard for you after our home coming dance. to this day I fall more and more. I wish we could've had one this year, you and me would've been the best couple out on the dance floor

i went through all that pain just to end up with you , i would go through all of it again if it meant i never get to lose you.

i know you love me i just wish i was your first everything. but you told me im your real first everything.

we don't know each other very well, but every time we talked i felt like i could truly be myself. i won't find someone like you for a while.

you were my first for everything.. i miss you terribly, but you chose her. you left me without a second thought.

you’ve ruined me and my perception of love, yet i don’t think i could ever hate you. you’re still my best friend.

i wish we weren't so tense. i wish we were able to be closer.
i wish i could tell you i'm so proud of you.

everytime you look at me, I get butterflies. I'm falling for you so hard, but I don't think you feel the same.

i dont remember your favorite color. honestly, thank you for helping me become this version of myself that i didn't know i could become. im sorry for being so confusing at the end. you just hurt me too many times and it took everything in me to realize i needed to leave. for good that time. i hope you find yourself again. i still don't understand, if you loved me so much, why you did the things you did. all the hours i spent sobbing and worrying and getting my heart broken over you. 7 months i wont get back. wow. fuck you. but at least i learned a lot. you really taught me a lot, you know that? oh, i can't listen to falling anymore without thinking of you. god, writing this makes me want to call you and scream or cry either one. but i deleted your number and blocked it so i couldn't call you even if i wanted to. it's crazy how much i cried in your car while you held me . or how many fights we had in your car. that damn car. i remember when you told me you needed me at graduation. that i had to be there to watch you. i'll be at the graduation. i just won't be watching you. you gave really nice hugs. i used to love it when you would squeeze me while we were hugging and i thought my ribs were gonna break. it was nice . whenever i go to chickfila i still think im going to see you in the window even though you don't work there anymore. i really hope things work out for you one day and that you understand why we weren't good for each other. thank you for everything. goodbye.

You hurt me more than I could have ever thought and to this day I would still run to you in a crowded room, but we both know that it's too late and too much for us to start again.

you were one of my first crushes. Everyday you made me laugh or made fun of me but that’s what I loved bout you. You never failed to put a smile on my face. You actually made math fun which is surprising for how much I hate it.

I just want to dance in your dorm to Frank Sinatra at 2 am again. You made me fall in love with life.

i know it’s selfish for me to say but i don’t want you to fall in love with somebody else. and i really love you and i always will. i don’t know what’s going to happen if we don’t end up together, but god i pray we do.
i really hope you have all the happiness in the world and im sorry i couldn’t give that to you. i’m sorry i couldn’t figure out wtf was wrong with me. i’m sorry for ever hurting you.
i really wish we could’ve figured us out. i still wish you’re my forever.
Again idk if us being friends means we’ll never be something more in the future or if it just means that we’re taking a break.
i miss you and i wanna talk to you everyday and i just want to be with you and fuck all this bs. but if taking a break means that the next time we try us it’ll be how it was, then i’m okay with the heartbreak.
but if you fall in love with someone else, no matter how much, it’s going to kill me. but no matter what, i’ll want you to be happy because your happiness means everything to me.

i like you. i feel like you like me. but i feel like you hate me. how the fuck am i supposed to figure out.

i dont remember falling in love with you, but i do remember looking into those eyes, and not wanting to look away.

our relationship had its moments, some good some bad I’m sorry for what I did and I know your sorry for how everything ended, thank you for teaching me about myself if you ever need me I’m here.

treat her right she deserves it, she deserves the world. I love her and so do you so do it. marry her mf.