Unsent Messages

i dont remember your favorite color. honestly, thank you for helping me become this version of myself that i didn't know i could become. im sorry for being so confusing at the end. you just hurt me too many times and it took everything in me to realize i needed to leave. for good that time. i hope you find yourself again. i still don't understand, if you loved me so much, why you did the things you did. all the hours i spent sobbing and worrying and getting my heart broken over you. 7 months i wont get back. wow. fuck you. but at least i learned a lot. you really taught me a lot, you know that? oh, i can't listen to falling anymore without thinking of you. god, writing this makes me want to call you and scream or cry either one. but i deleted your number and blocked it so i couldn't call you even if i wanted to. it's crazy how much i cried in your car while you held me . or how many fights we had in your car. that damn car. i remember when you told me you needed me at graduation. that i had to be there to watch you. i'll be at the graduation. i just won't be watching you. you gave really nice hugs. i used to love it when you would squeeze me while we were hugging and i thought my ribs were gonna break. it was nice . whenever i go to chickfila i still think im going to see you in the window even though you don't work there anymore. i really hope things work out for you one day and that you understand why we weren't good for each other. thank you for everything. goodbye.