Unsent messages to STEVEN

when i first met you, i never would have thought you would mean this much to me. now, 3 years later, you are my world. you are the person i want to spend the rest of my life with. i love you so much. please never let go

You are my best friend. My other half. I know depression is telling me to push you away but please don’t give up on me.

i hate our toxic relationship, you make me so sad. Why can't you leave me if i tell you i want to break up with you??

I can't believe I let you treat me like the way you did. You were nothing but a waste of my time. I'll never forget what a joke i made of myself.

I wish you would have loved me too. I still think about you and regret not kissing you when I could have.

We couldve had something so fucking good, summer sleepovers, rope swings, boat days, rock jumping at the falls, but u chose HER?

our rooms are blue, our favorite colors are blue. i will always love you, no matter where i go. i won't be too far.

I cant tell if you really want me.... are u just using me? I like you. Or at least i like what i see and know about u so far. I want to know u more. I wish you would talk to me

hey dude,
you probably dont want to be my boyfriend, bc well, youre not gay, or even bi, but know, i miss you and just want a hug from you :/

I want to dance in the rain with you, I wanna take goofy pictures with you, I wanna sing throw backs in the car, I want you to tell your family about me, I wanna be yours.

we were wrong for each other but I still loved you with everything I go. I'm sorry I left you, it pains me too much to remember what we had, I knew u didn't want to tell anyone about us but the grief of us staying together was breaking me.

All you do is use girls. All you think about is sex or anywhere you can put your dick. You wanna use girls then ghost them. I used to like you until I found out about your true colors. To be honest you suck.

i honestly thought we'd end up together but i suppose we were just kids who needed each other to get through the day. i hope she makes you happy.

I sat there and loved you through it all. I loved you even after the cheating and even after you lying to me about girls. I say through it all and it still feels like I’m not enough. I wanna be enough. I want you to tell me the truth about you please...

Fuck you.
you really put me though some fucked up shit. the worse part is i would still give you the world

If I knew it was gonna be our last time together I would have held you a little longer that night. I'm so sorry for everything it's all my fault bubs. I love you no matter what but i'm saying goodbye now. I promised you forever and meant it. But ig you didn't feel the same. It's okay tho. I'm so happy for you and I hope you catch every dream. I'm so glad you found happiness with someone else. Even if it wasn't with me. This is goodbye now I'm finally letting go. Even tho I don't want to I really need to ofc ill probably cry a little bit ill still be here for you no matter what. That's all now goodbye. :)

I told you how people hurt me in the past and you did the same thing they did. Why tho? Was I not good enough for you?

its really hard for me to hate someone, but I hate you. I hate you because you were so temporary and you made yourself seem so long lasting. I hate you because you didn't even have the decency to wait a month until you moved on. I hate you. HATE. I wish I had the real balls to block you, but removing you is the best I can do. I genuinely hope I NEVER see or talk to you again. I wish the worst to you, I do. You are a liar. And the way you tried to make me feel bad for doing something good for myself. You are a manipulator and I am glad you are no longer in my life. I wish I NEVER got to know you. I did not need to know you.

You made me feel like I was the most beautiful woman in the world, I gave you everything of me and you just changed me for someone else.
Don’t worry, now I get it.
Before I always was thinking about I wasn’t enough for you, and now, I know you don’t deserve me. I am better than that.
And it’s OK. because you were my first love but now you don’t even care me. ;)

you were my first every crush, I think your funny joke made me like you more, you were also the first boy to care about me if I cried and probably one of the only ones, I wonder what would of happened if I didn't say that to you, but then again was going to move schools and we were little kids so we would of just moved on really. but I will always remember you as the first boy to make me laugh so much and smile and to care about me.

I hate you so much. But im so attracted to who you are, youre manipulative and i acknowledge that, that’s what makes it worse

ive rewritten this a thousand times. i cant describe my love for you, but ill never tell you because you’re straight..

Hey I was really in love with u and u made me really happy but, it was getting kinda toxic but sometimes I still wonder how we would be if we were together, but that’s okay I think things are better like this! I only wish nothing but the best for you and I’m always gonna be here for u dude :)

You broke me so many times...
...but you made me to a stronger person and I would like to say thank you!

when i think of you, i just feel empty.l i don't know what went wrong. i don't remember when i stopped loving you. i feel like i wasted and had the best two years of my life at the same time.

You left but you’re stuck in my head. I try listening to the rain, but all I ever hear is you saying my name.

You left but you’re stuck in my head. I try listening to the rain, but all I ever hear is you saying my name.

You left but you’re stuck in my head. I try listening to the rain, but all I ever hear is you saying my name.

Fuck you. You're so fucking manipulative because you know I'll be here for you. You came back out of fucking nowhere and said that you love me? You don't love me, if you loved me you wouldn't keep disappearing and blocking me, if you loved me you wouldn't go off with other chicks then cry when they do to you what you did to me. Fuck you and fuck my heart for being unable to let you go. Just either stay in my life and be a good friend or fuck off for good, I can't handle this.

this is our once a year tradition and i wish you would get off your phone and spend time with me for it

i was broken when you came in to my life. i gave you everything i had LEFT in my heart including the hurt. you were right for me it just wasn't our time. u grew up during us and need to figure out who that version of you is without me and i need to make my heart full before we could deserve each other. if its not us then i will make my heart full so i can devote my WHOLE heart to someone who will reciprocate that and so much more.

when we go days without talking, you're teaching me how to live without you. stop leaving me or leave forever

i remember liking you so much in elementary. it made me so happy. and i have no idea why, but i did. you were funny, cute and sweet. you still are but i’d love to be your friend, i cant stop thinking about you

The thought of what we could of been haunts me. It keeps me up at night wondering if you left because I didn't love you enough or I loved you too much. Either way fuck you

I forgive you. Ik you don’t know what you did and why I was so rude to you but You hurt my confidence. Your words stick with me everyday.

you are one of the best people I know. someone asked me if I was in a room full of every person I’d loved, who would I run to? and you were my answer, even though we didn’t last long and even though we aren’t talking now. you make me feel happy and beautiful and at ease. I can’t be stressed with you. I hope things are going great for you and I know you’ll get to where you wanna be. I am letting go. I am finding myself and I am moving on. I still carry the lessons you taught me but I’m realizing I don’t need you actively in my life to keep those. grateful for the memories, all good things your way

i never understood why there is always a gravitational pull bringing my heart back to yours. i pray one day i'd finally get over you..

you and all the terrible things you did to me are in the past now, i’m done letting what you did to me when i was 14 and 15 control my relationships now. fuck you.

I liked you. In school and out of school I tried to express my feeling for you. I even started talking too your best friend

you’re not the person i fell in love with anymore. you broke me. i would’ve done anything for you. i still wish you the best in life and happiness even though you don’t deserve it.

I miss your goofy ass literally everyday. We still talk but it isn't the same. I'll always have this lil soft spot for you, even though I will never know why. Thank you for making me feel loved and understood.

I don't want to ruin our friendship and I'm happy with the way things are, believe me. But I can see more.

is it stupid that i go through the submissions under my name hoping that just maybe you've written something about me too? i wish the timing had been better, but i'm still hopelessly in love with you.

man it's gonna suck having to say my first love was someone named steven.. stupid ass name for a stupid ass person. i still think about you sometimes yk

im terrified of losing you even though you promised never to leave. you mean the world to me and make me so happy i dont want to that to go away. you love me no matter what and i dont need to hide around you. youre amazing and want you to know that but im scared ill lose you.

hi ur still on my mind every day if u see this please please please talk to me i am so desperate you dont understand how many months its been i am literally in love with you