Unsent messages to STEVEN

Your mom might not like me, but I love you

i didn’t deserve that and you know it.

i miss my best friend. text me when you’re ready

why am i not enough?

Time has gone by but my feelings have indeed not.

You broke your pinky promise.

i’m so grateful to have you in my life <3

thank you for always being there for me when I really needed it

Im so in love with you. I hope we end up together

The bad feeling was me all along

if you truly regret it, call me.

i miss gaming together

i hope ur okay i miss you i’ll always be there for you

Uh, my computer may or may not have teeth marks on it.

Loving you was easy, leaving wasn’t.

you’re about to leave but i’m so attatched to you.

cant imagine wanting to be anywhere else but in your arms

i’m sorry i hurt you
you made me stop trusting people
i love u

and i believe we really were right person, wrong time.

Even though you cheated I still had hopes we could’ve made it.

im so excited for us

Steven no matter how long it takes I will be here waiting

I'm trying my best to find love but they are not you.

I hope you became better this time

I dreamt of my cuddles

i trust you so please dont let me go

I miss us.

So much time has passed but I still crave you…

I still think about you everytime someone drives me home

I know, you never loved me, but you were the first one, where I ever felt like a woman and I miss you every single day.

i can have a million conversations, a thousand unreplied messages, a hundred beautiful compliments, but none of them are you. none of them are as enticing as the words that caught my eyes
are as addicting as the sound that you made on my phone
none of them are as enticing as hearing your voice in the mornings
Every conversation is just to fill the void, though i'm scared it will happen again. I will find the one, even worse only to see they are arent you, how they never will be you
they will never have your words,
the same words that filled my mouth to the brim of happiness. ps. send me a text :)

Por alguna razón no dejo de pensar en ti... Creo que es porque te necesito pero tengo que aceptar la realidad cierto...?
Se que nunca leerás esto pero por lo menos puedo desahogarme.... Gracias... Ten una buena vida mi primer amor te seguiré extrañando desde la oscuridad.... ✨
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No sé como iniciar esto... Ya pasó más de un año...No sé si considerarte mi primer amor, pero sí quién creó ilusión, confusión y distintas emociones en el tiempo que hablábamos, no sabía que sentía por ti, por las diferentes cosas que pasaban y el "que dirán" me aturdía, no sé si me llegué a enamorar pero sí que me gustaste, hoy escribo todo esto ya que logré superarte y liberar tu recuerdo de mi mente, te fuiste sin más, es algo que yo hubiera hecho, me alegro que tomaras la iniciativa, no te guardo algún tipo de rencor, agradezco que me hayas enseñado un yo distinto, visitabas mi mente cada minuto, hoy ni recuerdo tu rostro, conocí a alguien grandioso que me ayudó a darme cuenta que no merecías permanecer en mi mente ni un segundo más, deseo que te vaya muy bien, aunque creo que lo mejor era no relacionarnos, esto fue así y ahora aunque me arrepienta, estoy feliz por esta lección. No volveré a releer esta carta para ver si estoy diciendo esto con las palabras correctas o que si tiene sentido alguno, solo escribo mi sentir. :)

To the one I left my heart with at 21, my first love and first best friend. You hate me now I know, but I promise it was all for you and to you. I love you always.

I've loved you for 6 years. First 4 years a love a friendship and the last 2 years a different way. Now it's been 3 months since we've spoken.

i miss you so much. i think about you everyday. i cant move on no matter how much i want to. im really hurting.

i’m really proud of you hon. we’re friends now, and that’s probably for the better, but i have all the love in the world for you.

Hey.. I know its been a while uh I was just wondering if you have the dilemmas for discussion doc completed from like December. Its just a missing assignment sitting there and it'd b great if u could send it over. Hope you've had a good springsummerhalloweenchristmasnewyearandbirthday. thanks bu-

i will always have a place in my heart for you. and it scares me that if you were to text right now i would drop every single person for you. i will always love you even if you aren’t feeling the same. you were my first love and have been my only true love since.

Pensé que tendríamos una vida juntos como planeamos pero vi que no eras como me dijiste y como me lo mostraste , no se porqué hiciste eso y supongo que nunca lo sabré pero espero que algún día te des cuenta de lo que hiciste y que cambies

De verdad pensaba que tendríamos una vida juntos como planeamos, pero no eras como tú me demostraste y no se porqué hiciste eso, no se la razón y supongo que nunca lo sabré, pero espero que algún día te des cuenta de lo que hiciste

you made me feel less alone. whenever i felt hopeless and lost, u made it better despite being lost yourself. even if we both were lost, we still had each other. please unblock me i don't know what i did wrong.

we were more than friends , you can’t deny that. friends don’t talk to each other the way we did. they don’t talk about the things that we did. you told me that you trusted me most in the world and that you only ever wanted to talk to me. we would’ve been fucking fantastic together. i’m not even mad that you didn’t want me idek if u knew i wanted u. it’s more the fact that u replaced me overnight and who you replaced me with. everything we used to do ur now doing with her. i’m lucky if i see u once a month now and when i do see you she’s always there. i fucking miss you. i miss my best friend.

I love you so much, like your the love of my fucking life. You have made my life so much better without even trying. I wish you had come into my life sooner. You make me so happy and if I ever lose you I don't know what I would do honestly. Sometimes you annoy me but I love you for that. You mean so much to me. I really don't deserve you to be honest. In the beginning you were kind of distant but I get it. I sometimes feel like you've lost feelings for me but that's probably just me overthinking it. I hope so at least. I know you have before but that's fine. You can almost always cheer me up. I'm so happy I met you because I actually don't think I would be here if it wasn't for you.

i wanna ask you how you’re doing these days, if you’re eating well,, but it’s not my place to do that anymore... nd i think i took our small talk for granted. if you ever decide to msg and ask me how my day went like you used to, i promise i won’t give you a half assed answer anymore :) just know that i think i might always be in love with you, take care

i've written this a million times and probably will a million more but, when i think to thank you for showing me what love is, i realize i should be thanking myself. i learned how to love all on my own.

i don’t know why i was never good enough when i put my everything into us. it’s so hard to let the past you go. i miss when you cared

it'll always be you. i hate that i continue to let you hurt me but i just wish you would want me back

You’re still here and it’s killing me. Please let me go I never will be able too. But I also want you to stay, you’re killing me.

I think of what you did and my entire world goes dark. You drained every one of my rainbows. I hate you.