Unsent messages to STEPHANIE

i think i'm in love with you

ill always want the best for you❤️

ure my bestfriend and i hope we never break away from each other <3

Wish you knew how much I loved you, even though you might never feel the same.

liked you a lot, sorry for making you a side chick

you don’t know how much i regret doing what i did. i miss you every single day.

And u never knew how much I really liked u, cuz I never even told you. Your heart is someone else's

I hope things can always be as good as they are right now.

im sorry we stopped being friends. i miss you so much.

We would have made it a year this month

I'm so sorry I really do. You deserve someone that will treat you right and that person wasn't me.

I still think about you. I hope our paths cross again and we’re afforded the chance to try again.

This is the second time we end up next to each other in traffic … is this a sign lol

Hey, it’s me. I never stopped loving you. I never stopped missing you. It’s always been you only you

This is for you, only you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I miss you. It never stops.

Stephy, I do miss you. waiting for the universe to bring us back as I still hold on to your ring.

please comback to me and ill promise to be better

We fell in love in October

to be loved by you is the most precious thing in this world.

i hope that you will talk to me when we see each other again

You’ll always win first place in my heart. You are my purpose.

green was your favorite color and i miss you

you made me feel empty, but my heart is still full of you.

I miss talking to u so much

You drew me in; into your crazy, feverish love dream, and made me part of who I am today. But at the same time, you rejected my very being and ripped out a part of myself that could never be given back. No matter how I grow or who I love, nothing can restore that piece of innocence and pure happiness that once seemed so invincible and solid within me. At least you gave me a good idea of how I need to be treated and what I should defend myself against in the future.

Dear my love, this time that I met you I’ve tried to deny my feelings because the way we talk the way you make me feel is something deeply amazing and I don’t ever wanna ruin our friendship that’s why I hide these feelings that’s why I deny them. You make me really happy, you make me smile like a fucking idiot whenever I see a text from you. Me and you have many many things in common which is a first as I always have friends who are just opposites from me. You are different. I hope to continue with our friendship and never break that, I’ll try to be there for you even if my feelings get in the way. Also I just want to finish this by saying thank you, thank you for being there, thank you for giving me advice when I needed it, thank you for listening and telling me everything is going to be alright when I was stressing and going through rough times. I’ll continue to be there for you and I hope you can continue being there for me as well. I Just want to say that I love you and I hope we’ll see each other soon. :)

I blamed myself for what you did at the end. I never deserved it but you made me feel like I did. You found better and left. I should have broke up with you when I had the chance. It would have saved me more time and tears.

i’ve had the biggest crush on you since the day we first met, but i don’t know if you’ll ever feel the same about me. I keep thinking maybe it’s all in my head, every small piece of evidence that maybe you felt the same. i doubt you’ll ever read this tbh :3

Thank you por todo , siempre te amaré y te recordare como lo mejor que me puedo haber pasado . Te mereces mucho más

not my 1st love, but we were best friends in 6th grade, and we could still be now if only i had held through. i hope you're doing better, stephanoes:3

I'm sorry for how I acted. I realized too late that my feelings towards you might have been more than platonic and I acted the way I did in retaliation to suppressing it. I will always care for you.

I'm really sorry :/
We were best friends and I was lost and I still am. I don't know why I drop people but I do. My brain won't have it any other way.

To be honest, I just miss you. You're a different kind of sexy. Unmatched. Text me before we die lol -your violet love

I have finally fallen for you, I love you. But I'm too scared to tell you, just in case you realize how uninteresting I am

I truly loved you, we lost ourselves in each other and ended up with nothing but faded memories. It was no ones fault, I just wish I could’ve helped you more

I didn’t understand why our friendship felt different when I met you in ninth grade. I didn’t understand why I felt more like me when you were around. I didn’t understand why I wanted to cuddle with you in Spanish class &amp; laugh with you in P.E. &amp; sneak off with you in drama. I didn’t know I was queer at the time, but I knew what we had was somehow special. It’s been 7 years since we spoke. I still think of you sometimes.

thank you for believing in me

i wouldn't be where i am as a dancer and person without you

i love ya

Ur the only person I can talk to and ur the closes person in my life. I’m sorry I was a asshole when we were kids. I hope u can forgive me. I know we don’t say it often to each other but I love u sis.

I love you. you’re literally the sweetest person I’ve ever met and I don’t even know how ill survive without you.

I know I did some bad things a few years back and I've never forgave myself for it. I miss you everyday and as soon as covid is done I wanna see you. You don't understand how much it meant to me when I explained everything. You're the reason why I'm alive today. Thank you

Before we start. I chose this color because i still remember it’s your favorite color. We grew up together. You were always my best friend, since kindergarten. I don’t know why you chose to do the things you did to me. You talked bad about me, but you never even said it to my face. You talked bad about me to our friends. You tried to get them to hate me, i’m not stupid, i know that’s what you were trying to do. But then they told me what you were doing, like a real friend would. I cut you off, it felt good. It felt good not to cry every night wondering what i did wrong to you. As for our other friends, they told me what you were doing, and they stuck by me, that’s how i know they’re real. I’m glad I cut you out. But you know what, i still think of you sometimes. I still think about why you did what you did. I still think about how we could have been adults and worked it over if you tried like i did. I still think about being your friend. I still think about how we would spend hours in your pool in your backyard. So yeah, I guess i do miss you. But i know that what i did was best for me. That’s the first time i’ve done that , done what’s best for me. So i’m not sorry. Also, you’re mistaken, i never once talked about you behind someone’s back. I don’t do that sort of thing to people I love. My mind says i miss you, but my heart is glad you left .

I love u! I know u are my bsf, but I don't love u in that way... You broke my heart bcs u don't feel the same. I really want to tell u, but i can't. I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU! i'm sorry..

It’s been years since we have seen each other. You were the most amazing friend I could ask for. But I had to move away. I regret it so much more than anything. I’m positive I would be happy if I stayed and you were one of the main reasons for that. You were one of the few types of people who could handle my quietness and my random energy. You were amazing but I don’t know what happened. I guess we got older. We got older and decided long distance friendships don’t work. You can’t handle my energy when I text you, all you do is embarrass me every time I try to start a conversation. I understand this is my fault. If we didn’t I would of had the most amazingly life but now where I am is toxic. Way more than you would think. No one understands my disability no one knows how to handle me. I tried to kill myself. But I remembered you and the life I had before. I am going to try my best to get that life for me again. I love you former best friend

gosh you look so beautiful right now and i wish i could tell you with a bunch of cute names and lovey dovey stuff. i hope one day i get to call you all those cute names again, i hate holding them back because they come so naturally. i hope you realize how much i love you and always will love you. one day lovebug, one day. however, i hope you dont see this. i dont wanna force anything onto you. thank you for being such a beautiful soul. i love you with everything in me. i still can imagine you in a wedding dress so vividly. i hope i get to experience that for real one day. i'll always be the one thats waiting for you.

all i wanna do is hold you one time just in case i lose you again. i just wanna feel you next to me and feel your warmth, one time.

i’d be willing to take the chance if you were willing to give me it. if you don’t end up giving me that chance though, i’ll completely understand and i’ll let you be happy because that’s all i’ve ever wanted for you, happiness. it looks so good on you. so if you don’t wanna gimme that chance just tell me. if you ever see this, just know that i’m in love with you and have been for a very long time, even when the universe tested us.

one of my biggest aspirations is to sit in my car with you somewhere far from everyone and everything, like the mountains yk, and sit there, hold your hand, and blast lil peep as loud as we want. with no other cares in the world. just you and i. that’s why i’m holding on. everything i do, leads me back to you. i hope i’m not getting my hopes up. you’re all i want. i’ll wait as long as i need to. but if you ever need me to back off, tell me please. i love you princess, always.

i actually left her for you. i can’t believe i did that. but everyday i spent with her, you were still the only person that crossed my mind. i feel horrible. i think it’s my time, just know i love you always. thank you for everything

you did something i thought you’d never have the guts to do. you didn’t talk to me the whole day. it’s something so little but something i never really thought would happen. i’m happy you’re moving on. i’m trying to as well. i’m taking everyday, little by little. i’m not gonna sit here and lie and say i didn’t check my phone for a notification from you today, but i can guarantee that you didn’t do the same for me. i guess i’ll just never be a priority again. i’m just something in the past. your “first love” but you easily tossed me to the side. i get it. i messed up. i just feel like i’m so easily replaced even though you told me countless times i never was when we were together. i really hope this guys the one. i wish you nothing but happiness in your life. maybe one day i’ll see you in person. but if not, give angel and piper some little rubs for me. and tell your mom that i miss jamming out to the piña colada songs and all those oldies that you never liked. i really thought it was us until the very end. but things change i guess. have a good life. i’m contemplating texting you right now, which is probably what i’ll do after this. if anything ever happens to me, never forget that i love you and even though you hurt me and i hurt you, the time we spent together taught me lots of things. i hope you found your happiness within this kid. i love you 224, even if you don’t love me back. i’ll always be rooting for you.

I wonder if you check this thing like I do. But I think I’m doing it, I’m finally realizing that I can get on without you. No matter how hard it is, I’m doing it. I will always love you and will always hope we have something in the future. But maybe they’re right, maybe for now, it’s better like this.