Unsent messages to STEPHANIE

im sorry for being shit friend at times. you always have a spot in my life even if we arent close anymore

star shopping : 0:29 - 0:42

u said : 0:27 - 0:34

u said : 1:01 - 1:13

awful things : 2:07 - 2:11

the brightside : 0:24 - 0:29

lil jeep : 0:34 - 0:40

walk away as the door slams : 0:00 - 0:08

kiss - 0:48 - 1:01

only a couple. part of me wants you to see this. another part doesnt. but its lil peep, your favorite

i find it insane how i went from being the one you would leave people on paused for to being the one you leave on paused for someone new.

i don’t think i’ll ever get you out of my mind. i guess it’s true when they say you never really forget or lose love for your first love. you were mine. without a doubt. i never loved someone the way i loved you. and the thing is , i still do love you and i really always will. it’s crazy how i’m getting more and more into lil peep because it makes me feel connected to you again. hopefully we do get to jam out to him together one day, i’d love that. i hope i get to meet you one day too. gosh that’s all i ever wanted. i’m sorry i’m a fuck up. i hope you’re starting to see that there’s better than me out there. i can see you got a better one already. and i’m happy for you because you’re happy. i love you to the moon and back princess, 224

i find it crazy that its been almost a month. a month without hearing your sleepy voice. a month without the constant cute name calling. a month without falling asleep together. a month without calling you mine. its crazy how fast time has passed but im just glad that this time away from me is doing you good. its great that youre realizing that you dont need me to be happy and productive. youre doing great with everything and im so proud of you. im getting back to eating but im still working on the sleep thing. i love you forever and always, 224. i'll keep holding on for you

i still remember your favorite names too. bubby, honey, lovey, bebe, princess. i love you always bubby. you might not know this but i miss going to sleep with you and being able to wake up to your sleepy but sweet voice telling me "wake up sleepyhead, its getting late." if something were to ever happen and we got back together in this lifetime, i would never want to hurt you again. i know what i did wrong, and im becoming a better person. maybe you'll see one day. but until then, just remember that i love you always, no matter what

youre the one person that understood me like no other. you were there for me on the best and worst days. the main reason all your stuff is away is bc i was told it would help take my mind off you, but it hasnt really worked. sleeping alone is one of the hardest things ever, it just doesnt feel right. you were truly the best thing that happened to me. im so happy you found someone who treats you right. dont let anyone hurt you princess. just know that whenever you decide to put that blankie and hoodie away for good, its gonna be a tough day. i love you 224 always

believe it or not, a face hides a lot. moving on was never part of the plan. everything i ever thought about involved you. i miss you everyday, but i guess we'll grow from this. as much as i want to be your person in the future hopefully, i'll understand if its not. i just want you happy and that's what you are right now. as much as all of this hurts, you'll always have a big piece of my heart. i'll always love that smile and laugh. i think about you all the time.

you will never be a regret. im sorry for all the pain i caused. i hope you know that i still think of our wedding. i'll love you always and thats a promise i will keep.

you taught me so many things. i wish i would’ve cherished our time together more. thank you from the bottom of my heart. until we meet again lovebug