Unsent messages to SOFIA

why would someone like you ever like someone like me? you could have anyone. thats how i know it wont ever happen.

I love you so much. You have saved my life in more ways than you can know. I miss you with my whole heart

I love spending time with you but getting closer to you hurts me because I know you'll never be mine.

Whenever I'm in the same room as you, I breathe a little less so that you can take all of the oxygen.
I love you.

what the fuck is wrong with you? you expect us to be friends but you’re openly transphobic to me? who the fuck do you think you are lmfao

i hate you, yet i still can’t stop thinking about us, despite what you used to say, i know you’ve never cared, even though we still talk, i will never forget what we had

heyyyy pookie HAHA. okay but in all seriousness, i can tell you’re going through some shit rn but i want you to know things will get better. it might be easier said than to believe but you truly are a beautiful person inside and out (when i tell you you’re gorgeous, you are GORGEOUS) and you will attract the happiness you deserve :) you’re so sweet and funny i’m glad that we’re friends i hope it stays that way! i hope you have an amazing year boob >:)

It pains me so much that I missed my chance with you. You were perfect. I love you and I don't know if I'll ever get over you.

i still know everything about you, people talk about letting go and i cant seem to get you out of my mind, i will always hope our alternate selves end up together happy as i was with you, i miss u

you were my best fucking friend in the world, and it hurt like hell when you replaced me and slowly drifted away. I tried so hard for so long to make it work but you didn’t put in the effort in return. i miss you so much it’s physically painful, but you’re a different person now. I feel like I don’t know you anymore

Espero que algún día te des cuenta que yo di todo por ti, pero que jamás fuiste capaz de valorar
psdta: Si alguien los hace dudar de su pareja déjenla, si realmente la quisieran no dudarían de ella

every time i think about you my throat closes up thinking about how i lost you. even my girlfriend now understands how sensitive of a topic you are for me

hey dude, we just had a conversation about this website and i wanted to say, your an amazing friend and i love our banter even tho it’s pretty evil and anybody overhearing it would think we hated eachother. xoxo

bitch, i love you. im really proud of you. i know you've been going thru sm but stay strong. i can't afford to loose you.

I wish I would have fixed myself before it got worse and I lost you. I'm sorry. I love and miss you so much.

i miss you. i don’t know why we stopped talking. i don’t know why i left you. i hope you think about me. i lever stopped loving you. do you think about me? do you think about me? do you?

should’ve told you long ago but i love you. i’m going to miss you so much when you leave and i don’t know what i would do without you or if i’d even be here without you. you’re the nicest person i have ever met and i don’t want to say goodbye yet

i’m sorry that i messed up everything. please know i never wanted to hurt u. u don’t even realize how bad u hurt me but i still love u and want u back. i love you ok. come back when u can. but stay happy while ur gonna because i love you so much that if u needed to leave me to be happy i understand. i love and miss u- ?

I don’t think I can ever stop loving you. I have no idea how you’re doing right now, who you might be with, and if you ever think about me, I just know that I haven’t stopped thinking about you since the day you left me. I know you left because you didn’t have any feelings for me anymore, I don’t think you could ever understand just how much I felt and still feel for you. I’m sorry I couldn’t be everything you ever wanted, because that’s what you were to me. I miss you and hope you’re doing good. Love always.

just know that no matter what, ill always love you and care for you. I just don't think we're gonna be able to make this work this time.

you were toxic, i was toxic, our relationship was toxic. but for some reason i still miss you so much.

i’ve been with other people but you’re the first person who i’ve ever really loved. we loved each other, but we could never be together for obvious reasons. then, you stopped loving me, even though i still loved you. you told me to stop loving you. when it became too painful to talk to you as a friend, i left you. i was hoping to completely forget you, but i still think about you everyday. i ignored your messages and attempts to talk to me. i miss you so much. it hurts so much. i don’t know if i want to forget you and let go of the pain at the expense of losing all of my memories of you. i want to move on and be able to love somebody else without thinking of you, but at the same time . . . i hope that in another life we’ll cross paths and we known who we were before, and be together, able to feel each other and love each other.

i have never met someone so much like me both a blessing and a curse, thank you for being my rock, i wouldn't be here without you. i. love. you.

You don’t know how much I love you and I doubt I’ll tell you- it appears that our love will stay a beautiful dream.

ayer vi algo que no debí de ver y después de tanto tiempo volví a pensar en ti, en nosotras y enserio nose porq mientes sobre nuestra amistad y se que no fue lo mejor pero solo quiero que digas la verdad y podré estar bien otra vez

Even if I told you what I was going through you wouldn’t understand and would still leave me at lunch

Me encantaría que sigamos siendo mejores amigas, pero ya no hay vuelta atrás, me haz hecho sentir muy mal e insuficiente, se que no soy lo mejor, parece que no comprendes, no todo se solucionará con un "perdón"

Thanks for teaching me what patience means in a relationship, but fuck you for leaving me without and explanation, to this day i struggle with the memory and idea i had of you

sometimes i wish i never sent that first DM, asked for your number, and decided to be your friend. but i couldn’t stop myself. i wanted to do it for so long and knowing that it was the wrong time i still committed. i’m so sorry, for everything, but i still want to talk to you and get to know you as a person, thank you for everything.

i think ur rlly cool, u were the first girl i ever had a crush on. thnk u for sitting w me at the library in the mornings. ur smile still makes my heart feel tingly

hi lol i’m here cause i can’t fucking express my emotions. idk what i even am gonna say to you. i’m half fucking mad and then guilty for being mad. you don’t deserve me to be mad when you didn’t even do too much wrong. and also here i am not even using your last name cause i’m too pussy to just tell you how i feel. i just kinda loose trust fast and i feel bad but i dont rly trust you. no matter how much i want to. i’m sorry.

i swear it wasn’t my choice to fall for u but u didny need to take away my bestfriend and the only person i had left

i wish i could have told you how much i loved you before you met him. but there's nothing i would do to hurt you and destroy your happiness, thus you'll never know. i think you were, are and will be forever the love of my life. hope you're happy.

heyyy let me just start this off by saying, you are such a special person to me, i may not show it but i value you so much. Before i met you, i never had a true best friend. I never had somebody i could go to for comfot if i was sad, if i had to spill any tea and just to generally have a great time with. We instantly clicked when we met eachother I remember that day. We were at a meeting at school for all the newbies coming into bara, and when it finished we introduced ourselves and went to go eat some cupcakes. We sat down and laughed for ages about Theo and how dumb he was. I am SO greatful that we ended up in the same class!! We have had soooo many funny and precious memories that i will forever cherish in my heart (obviously the sex button, the music block when there was exams, the video chat with lijah and kia....) and so many more. Our friendship is so amazing and i hope nothing never ever comes between it. I can't wait for more memories to come as we venture through, and just remember i will always be there for you no matter what and i will always come back to you. - donut, mazi and pablo xoxoxoxo

Dear sofia, HEY BITCHHH i honestly love you so much. like past the fricking moon like the whole solar system and back. You have been there for me since day 1and i appreciate you so much. I admire how you are so strong headed and independant, your smile is so pretty and you have beautiful mesmorising deep dark brown eyes. I'm so lucky to have such a perfect best friend. We have so many funny memories (sex button from the hotel game HAHHAH) you never fail to make me happy and to make me laugh. I love you xx MAZI

Se que nunca debí acercarme demasiado, se que es culpa de ambas... Dolió en ocasiones pero... Sano en otras y eso se queda conmigo, al final cuando pensé que no podría enamorarme lo hice, nunca fue mi intención pero sucedió, quizás te ame toda la vida, apesar del daño que nos hicimos... Se que tu amor nunca fue para mi y mi error fue creer que si... Al fin y al cabo terminé haciendo lo mismo que tu, amando a alguien que no me ama.

you do so much bad for me but so much good as well thats why you are my green because red and yellow make green

i don't think u ever knew how much u meant to me. but i always knew how little i meant to you. thats why i hated you.

i think i kinda hated u. i think we hated each other. but it felt good having you by my side. even tho i was never your first choice

Eres tan linda, nunca supe si tus labios sabían a fresas, mis días eran iluminados con tu hermosa sonrisa y esos ojos de chocolate.
me siento tan tonta, debí de darte un tiempo, estés dónde estés, te sigo amando ♡.

it’s been long since we’ve talked but i wish you would acknowledge and apologize for the toxic shit you did to me for the entire time we knew each other. i know what i did and i’ve done everything to make sure i’m never that person again but i still feel guilty. stop pretending as if i was the only one who did bad shit because you were just a bad person as i was. i wish i wasn’t such a dumbass because looking back on our messages there were so many clear signs. last time we talked i attempted to get some closure and even confronted you about the shit you did and yet you still found a way to put me in the wrong and make me feel like the only bad person without admitting you did those things. i don’t hate you or anything but i genuinely think you haven’t changed at all and that you believe you didn’t do shit. i wouldn’t mind if you texted me, i just want closure.

i don’t know if what you we had was even worth all the pain you caused me but i can’t imagine myself with anyone else

Te quiero muchísimo, se que no vas a llegar a leer esto, pero igualmente necesito decirlo.
Cada vez que te veo quiero abrazarte y decirte que eres la persona más importante de mi vida y que moriría por ti. Quiero decirte que te veo más que una amiga y que cuando estoy contigo solo pienso en mimarte, darte regalos, dibujos, abrazarte, recordarte lo maravillosa que eres y qué vales muchísimo. Te quiero. ?

i’m sorry i was so selfish; you always deserved someone better than me. i hope one day you can find yourself someone who will love you wholeheartedly.

Realmente me importas y te quiero, pero lo último se q no es correspondido, entonces mejor me lo callo. Peeero yo sé q nunca podré remplazarte, porq tú me iluminaste como nadie lo ha echo. Y siento q haya tenido q terminar como terminó
Te ❤️Ali

It's kinda sad how you only had interest in me because of how lonely you were. It took me a while to get over you.

listen, ok i know you dont like me and i fucked up because i asked you out of nowhere, im sorry, im just super lonely and i just need someone to fill that void and i was kinda hoping you were that person, im sorry if i made you uncomfortable. im truly sorry

you are genuinely cruel. ive known you for so long and you like being mean to people, because you're very insecure and it makes you feel better. please stop.

yeah i kinda thought i'd check this website after you tweeted about writing one of these to oikawa jskadjkas. anyways, i want you to know that you shouldn't be scared about anything. you care for me like nobody else and you bring me so much happiness it's insane. you're so funny and so incredibly sweet and i wish you could see yourself from my eyes because to me, you're perfect exactly the way you are. so please please please don't think you aren't good enough or that you're gonna end up disappointing me because that is just so far from the truth. trust me, i want this to work out as much as you do and you will NEVER not be good enough. sorry this is so short. i have so much more to say but i can't really put it into words rn bc it feels like someone is literally grabbing at my uterus and squeezing the living hell out of it

i hate that i like you so much,,, you said you loved me yet its not the same love as i feel,, i cry and over think our small conversations.... i cant believed you said you loved me more... i love you more and it was so obvious,, why did i fall for someone who makes me feel like shit.