first loves never last right? Rylan from the first day you came into my life I knew you were somebody I needed. We had many ups and downs but what we had was so special and I can’t forget it just like that. You promised you wouldn’t leave me and did just like that but I’ll always love u rylan

i miss u soo much. and ik u think nothing ever happened to us, u left me. for her. again and again. it’s always someone else. i miss the bond we had. the convos about nothing. the names we would call eachother. i’ve given up on all my hope i’ve had for us. but if u ever want to come back i’ll still be here like always.

haha this was your favorite color and I mean makes sense cause the thought of you makes so happy yet so sad.

I'll never be the same after what you did to me, and I know you don't think it's a big deal. I'll never be able to be in the same room as you again

i miss us. i went through the old convos and i never realized how much u meant to me until u left. i hope she makes u happy tho

man what did i do wrong? please talk to me instead of pushing me away, stop getting rid of the last memories that we had left please

Thank you. Thank you for being so good to me no matter how distant I was, and for loving me no matter how little affection I showed you. You showed me how to truly love someone, and that love is real and more serious than I thought. You showed me my worth and how well I should be treated. But we were too young. Maybe we will cross paths again, once we are older and can truly learn how to love. Because you treated me better than I ever would have asked for. But I left you, unappreciative of everything you gave me. I know you were mad when you told me all those things, because I broke your heart for the first time. I crushed you harder than you ever deserved to be, and you deserve the world. I hope you can find someone who will truly appreciate and take care of you like I never did. Looking back on everything you did for me, I realize that I took it all for granted. I crushed you like you never even mattered to me, when the truth is that I don't even matter to myself. I didn't even realize this back then, but I only hurt you because I never understood how much you loved me. And I thought that anyone else could give me everything you did, but I am so wrong. I took you for granted and tried to move onto something better, hurting myself in the meantime. Now, I cry every night knowing that I will never be loved the way you loved me. Because, as you said, no one else will love me for the way I am. Everyone will only love me for the way I look, not the way I love. And I thought you said that because you were mad, but you were completely right. Now, I feel like everyone in my life uses me for the way I look to show me off like a display. you just sit back and watch this happen, unable to say or do anything because I hurt you so bad that you are scared of it happening again. I made you afraid of love. and I'm tired of forgiving people, and exsausted of life overall. I'm so tired. and now, my new boyfriend only complements my looks, and degrades himself. Talking about how he never thought he would "get" me because I'm out of his league. anyone else may take this as a complement, but I'm so used to it at this point that it just makes me sick to my stomach. I just wanna be appreciated the way you appreciated me. The way you asked me if I'm ok, if I'm tired, how I'm really feeling, and our daily facetimes and talks about our day. I miss you. I miss everything we had. And maybe I'm building up the idea of what we had to the point of me comparing it to everything I have now, and everything I've lost. but I'm so numb, and its hard for me to feel anything anymore. Its hard for me to miss the things I've lost, and enjoy the things I love. Sometimes, its even hard for me to cry, and get out of bed in the morning. but I do in hopes of me finding happiness again. Every day is an endless loop of the same thing over and over again, and I'm so tired. I miss you and your family. and my family misses you. I just think that I needed time to understand and truly love myself and learn what love really means, but if we cross paths again and we are meant to be, then let it happen. it may not, but everything happens for a reason. I love you and miss you, but I can't tell you because I know that I hurt you and I would draw you back into something that may crash and burn again, all because of me. and I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry.

when you said you weren’t ready was the one time i was sure about anything in my life,you were my first love

i don't know what it was about you...maybe it was the 3 am ft calls or the fact that you are really funny but anyway why did you have to text me again because now i don't feel anything and eventually ill start feeling it again for you smh...xoxo

U made me happy bro. U made my day every single fucking day and u promised u wouldn’t leave me ... but u did thanks

i wish you knew how much you really mean to me. i really do wish we can have communication again. i miss you so much.

i cared too much for you. why did i? i barely knew you but i felt like i've known you forever. please come back.

i hope you find someone who treats you like a king you are and i hope she makes you happy i know i could never do that. i thought you were my soulmate but i thought wrong, btw if your new girl is reading this he LOVES long socks and strawberry syrup

I don't think I'll ever be over you. I hate you, because I still love you so much. I'll wait for you

i don’t think i’ll ever stop waiting, even though it hurts more and more because of her

stop trying to make your way back to me. it’s over.

You make it so easy to love you, the challenge is how not to.

i wish you cared about all the damage you caused me, seriously.

I really hope we can be a couple in the next life, or in another universe. :]

i think about you every day. every single day.

i have let you go pls just leave me alone

You’re my best friend and I don’t want that to end. i need to tell someone, I’m in love with you

I miss our hugs. I miss the way you complimented me everyday. I miss you, Rylan.

it was so hard to stay friends with you when i was so in love you i’m sorry for that.

please come back play your guitar for me again i miss you

i hope you think about me

I’ll never love anyone more than I love you. I hope its me and you in the end, te amo mucho.

Ik im not the only one but I can’t loose you

I wish we had the chance to speak. I wish we had the chance to start over.

Its almost been a year now, I saw u at the store, Ill never forget how u described ur fav cars

I miss you more and more everyday. I love you always

It's ok dude. I'll be fine

I really wish I could just tell you how much I like you

i wish i could just tell you how much i like you but i don’t even know if i like you like that

i love you so much, and i feel like you’re the one i’m gonna marry

i love you too, in more ways than you know

I want you I’m tired of pretending I don’t. It’s always been you

I’m sorry for the last 6 years I’ve spent being stupid. I want to do this with you..

what if we met right now, do you think you'd still fall involve with me?

do you even know how bad you hurt me?

You love me but you don’t show it. I miss you. I miss us.

I finally got over you, and I couldn't be happier

i hate that you love me and i can’t love you back, i love you as my friend, man

hope life is treating you better, im sorry for everything. Thats my biggest regret.

I think I love you but you’re not ready for a relationship. Is that dumb?

I saw myself within you, that’s why i couldn’t love you. I hope ur happy with ur new gf.

i just wanna be friends. i wanted to be with you before, but we can't. i yearn for a friendship w u.

i thought i’d be over you by now. i’ve missed you longer then we even talked for. it’s so annoying

i’d feel this pain a thousand times if it meant one more second with you

Can we just try again