Unsent messages to RJ

we could’ve been so great together if you’d let me love you

i miss you so fuvking much loves.

im so scared of losing you, i know theres no one else like you

i was never strong enough to carry ur baggage, no matter how much it aligned with mine

this love of yours feels so empty

when I hear midnight rain, all I can think of is you. I'm sorry for being the midnight rain.

it hurts to say goodbye, you're too important to lose.

I’ll look for you in every person I meet.

I love you so much

“you’re extraordinary” i’ll always remember that, thank you.

It’s been a year since we met

i love you.

something ive been meaning to say.

i wish i was nicer. i’m sorry.

i love you always

in another life we are forever

i just wanna know why. i think i’ll love you forever. forever love. you’d get that. you made me want to be myself, thank you. i was i was the one for you, part of me believes would could be in love again. i need more than one last hug.

This would be the stupidest message I will ever send.
but I still like you. I’ve dated several people at this point.
And you are the one I can’t seem to get out of my head.
Messaging a guy is so not my style. But here we are.
This isn’t a please date me.
It’s just for you to know.
Jumping late at night at the cliffs
Making out in the theatre parking lot
u said see u in three weeks
Somehow we just saw each other so vulnerably

When we first started dating I was supper excited!!but it sucks now that our relationship didn’t last as long as I wanted and now I just can’t stop thinking about you and the more I’m without you the more it hurts

you really were my first and only love and I know you love her but now I'm questioning if you really loved me...

thanks for being my best friend for a bit, even if you didn’t know you were. i miss speaking to you, but i know i have to move on. have the best year of your life! cheers bud

I really did love you, a lot. I don’t wanna lose you but I know what we had is gone. i’m so sorry I couldn’t give you what you needed. I wish I could’ve done more, you know I would if I could. why do you act like you hate me, i never did anything to hurt you.

i use to wish you would come back, but i know you never will and honestly you don't deserve me. i'm happy to say i've moved on. i know i'm better off without you and i know my worth. i found someone who cares about me and he makes me so happy, happier then you ever could. i still wish we could have been friends because i know we would have been good friends. i hope you find your dream girl, i hopr you're doing well.

rj stop. seriously stop, make up your mind. stop fucking with my feelings because you’re not sure of your own.

Thank you for always making me smile, I liked you back, I wish you would have admitted it I didn't know at the time

i hate you. i hate that no matter how hard i try i can't get over you. i can't forget about you. i can't be happy with someone else without thinking about you. you are over it and i know it. what did i do to deserve this? nothing, all i every did was care for you. i hate you, i hate you so much. i wish i could unmeet you, all the pain you put me through wasn't worth being happy for such a little time. you make me so afraid of love and i never even loved you, i hate you.

why does ur friend look 5. show ur full face if u finna post like bruh tf, anyways.. ive sent u alot of messages on here in the past expressing my love for u, nothing has changed but.. u dont feel that way anymore so just ignore the ones that sound like me. i sent another one today, u should read that one, its obvious its me. i really hope u find these tbh :/

i still look for your name in my notifactions knowing damn well you didnt reach out. you always leave when i need you the most and then come back acting as if you actually love me, dont lie. im still hoping and praying you will come back, maybe you wont, thats what im scared of. im so in love with you it hurts, i would choose you in every lifetime but you couldnt even choose me in this one. why am i not enough for you, you said you loved me and wanted to marry me.. where did that go? did you fall out of love? if you did, why couldnt you tell me, you just block me and post some petty shit and me have to figure it out myself.. eventually i was petty back but, i didnt mean it. i dont want it to be the end, its not only up to me tho is it? nope. i changed for you, i got help. ive been so excited to tell you im overcoming my past so i can give you what youve been needing. but i guess someone else can give that to you. we were coming up on 1 year :( i love you more than anything, i love you to death rj.

you said you were immature back then, but i think in a way you still are. i know i don't know you that well anymore, but i think someone mature would not ask someone to be friends and then leave them on delivered for two months. i still have a soft spot for you and if you come back again i will hesitate to say no, but i know you aren't good for me and i can find someone better than you. someone who will fight for me, someone who won't end our friendship, and someone who will actually stay. i spent the last year trying to move on and trying to forget about you. i never could but i think now i can. i found someone who makes me happy, maybe not like you did but he is making me realize i shouldn't be sad over you anymore. i wish i could feel the way i felt about you with him, but because you hurt me so bad i don't think i ever will. you broke me to the point where i am afraid to ever fall in love. i hope that one day i can love someone the way i wanted to love you. see you in another life loser

you suck. you're a pos. why dont you just admit that you're cheating on your s/o? i was so stupid for loving you

i still miss you, it's been two months since we last talked. i miss being friends, i wish i never told you my feelings. i'm sorry

We snapped for a while and I loved u. but you ghosted me. it hurt. you were my only friend. come back.

i know you aren't coming back and i'm trying so hard to move on like you did. i want to forget about you. i wish you never texted me asking to be friends again. i wouldn't miss you so much. you didn't even want to be friends, if you really did we would be talking right now but it has been almost two months since you texted me. i don't get why i can't get over you. we knew each other for a few week, all i felt was a connection. the night we meet i felt like you were going to be important in my life and you were. i guess i wasn't important enough for you though.

lol fuck you you toxic manipulative bitch im not some manic pixie girl you can project your frustrations onto. you can’t just mistreat me, take me for granted and then wonder why i’m upset lol

i miss you, come back. over a year without you is hard. i can't move on, idk how and i don't think i ever will. i'm sorry.

hi, u have my heart. you always will no matter what. i have never loved anyone like i have loved u. thank you for everything that you have done for me. i'm happy to see what our future holds. i'm ready to go drive around while we listen to our songs together and go on little adventures. i'm ready to be your #1 supporter in football. i will always be here for you and i know you never believe me when i say it but i love you a lot. we both have trust issues and we are hurt mentally but we are here to fix each other, its not gonna happen fast but its gonna happen. ur my world and i never want to lose u. i love u loser

You were the best thing to ever happen to me. I finally learned how to love someone and love myself. Every day I ask the universe for you to come back to me. But you don't need me anymore. You need someone better and you deserve her. I hope you can help her just as much as you helped me. You made me want to live again. And now that you're gone it's so hard to wake up in the morning. I love you RJ and I wish you the best.

i saw her eyes gleam when u texted, i heard the way she talked about you, the way she stared at you, the way she sleeps with the scrunchies u wore. dont break her heart, please. i love her more than anything and i hid my feelings so u could have her. dont mess this up, i wont watch her break because of u. shes not one to cry but she has the softest spot for u, u made her different. just dont hurt her rj. please.

your voice is my favorite sound. your chapter of my story is the one I find myself running back to. our memories replay as I fall asleep. you're what I want forever and our future is the only thing I look forward to. I cant wait to marry you. our ups and downs don't define us. at the end of the day, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, our feelings don't need an explanation. I love you more - you know who this is, trust me.

hey again, these are from me. you should know who it is, I left two other messages on here. I love you to death.

I'm still so in love with you, wherever you are, that's where I want to be. my heart belongs to you. forever. -

You made me stronger, yet it wasn’t right. I loved you but their was something off. Something missing. And I wish I would’ve have let you in. I tried to make you jealous because I never thought you cared. Sounds so stupid. I still look for you at games or when a car passes. All always look for you... wish I would’ve know what I had. I hope our paths cross again.

those weren’t cat scratches . i hate your distance but everytime you do anything kind i hate myself even more and i cant stop thinking of anything like what could’ve happened i just want you to care about me please care about me i won’t do anything bad i promise

ik you deny it but deep down i think you feel exactly what i feel. friends don’t look at friends like that.