i’m glad i met you
gorgeous
but our relationship is like glass it would rather stay broken than me hurting myself putting it back together

Goddamit, why the hell do you always gotta be on my mind 24/7... I see my whole fucking future with u.

i love you. i really do. i know you probably don’t feel the same way. but you truly are my favorite person. you have no idea what kind of impact you’ve had on my life. you’re always there for me,, and you make me feel wanted. i’m so glad i was able to meet you all those months ago. thank you for everything, man.

That 3 second text from you is all it takes to make me smile even though I barely get one conversation a day.

hey u will never see this but ur the first person i ever loved and yes u did fuck up my mental state but i do this think that i love u even if i say that i'm over u

Hi Ollie,

I doubt you'll ever see this, but it I wanted to say this when I was too afraid to tell you. I'm sorry I pushed you away, I push everyone away. I don't know how to reconsile good people with myself. You are such a beacon of light and goodness. You where always so caring and kind, i don't want to darken that. I'm scared that just knowing me will hold you back. I still care for you, so much. I kept those boots.

I miss you but I don’t. It’s so hard to explain. You treated me like trash but I miss it. I miss everything about you

i kno this is meant to b for first loves but u were just a great friend to me and there’s so much i never said. i’m srry. i wish tht u didn’t feel we had to stop talking entirely. i hope ur ok nowadays. ur kindness meant a lot to me, i was lost and had nobody and was dealing w addiction, trauma and anxiety tht i never rly told u abt. so thanku for that. i’ll always find myself making room on the bus for u.

I wish I’d told you how I felt even though I found out later you didn’t feel the same, I still haven’t found anyone who makes me feel like you did. I know it wasn’t healthy for me and I deserve someone who feels the same about me as I do them but I just wish that person was you. You’re so beautiful.

Why did you have to do it? I trusted you, how am I suppose to move on and accept it when I can’t remember what happened?

i like you, i know youve been through bad reltionships, but i want to be the girl who shows you that this is what a real, loving relationship is. where im here to support, comfort, and make you heppy. you mean so much to me, and i dont think i will ever tell you. i want to tell you how beautiful you are and how amazing you are, and how you push me to be a better person. i think of you all the time.

you manipulated my feelings to use my body, how fucking dare you, you've left an emotional scar for life

I'm sorry we don't talk much now. I don't know how to be your friend without being in love with you. I'll always remember you in the best light.

Why was I never good enough for you, I wish I could get over you like you have me, but I still love you

I miss the old you. The guy that would pull my hair and hide my pencils because you liked me, not the guy that ignores the word “no”.

you were my everything but did i mean anything to you? you left as soon as you saw her and that was it

You pulled me out of a bad place. You told me that you loved me. You painted me a future where we together and I felt safe. I opened up my soul to you. You knew everything I had been through. You knew my emotions were still raw. You promised to love me and I started to heal. Then you threw me down even further. She seemed lovely. Was she? Was she lovely enough to justify what you did? You told me she was better than me. I never realised I wasn't enough for you. I hope one day that you will reap what you sow. I hope someone will show you how it feels. And I hope one day I reach a point where I know better than to trust boys like you.

do you believe in the universe? i'm constantly seeing things that remind me of you, whether i want to or not. i know it's been a few years and we've both changed, but i still want you. i want to be the girl you facetime, call, text, play video games with - whatever it may be. i just want to be yours. i never got any closure with knowing if you liked me back, but i felt like you did. you used to compliment me and laugh with me, was i just a person you sat next to in class? who you only spoke to because you were stuck there? you made me look forward to every day. i messaged you last year, you could not have had drier responses. do you just want to forget about me? we saw each other in august, briefly across the street. i heard a loud sigh and we locked eyes for barely even a second. i don't think you looked back. was i not worth a wave? or a hi?

i'm sorry for still not being over you, i don't know if i ever will be. every time i check my story you're always the first or second viewer; it gives me a glimmer of hope that you still remember me. you don't follow many of the people we went to school with, even some of the ones you're friends with now - why? you still follow me despite us going our separate ways. i don't know if i ever want you to see what i've written. i just wish you'd either message me again or just block me altogether. i just wanna know if this feeling goes both ways. i doubt you'll see this and i highly doubt you'll know it's me. i can't get you out of my mind.

i can't move on, not until i know for sure what you feel.

It’s been so long and it didn’t even matter but I can’t help but smile whenever you come across my mind.
been that way since

thank you for putting me through the heart break so young, i now know what to say when other people are hurting

for some reason ive always liked you even when you show no interest in me I do think I'm starting to like you more but idk how to feel about it because you probably don't like me back :))

i wish we could talk about how much we hurt each other, how toxic we were for each other. you nearly killed me and i was too focused on keeping myself together that i didn't realise how to keep you together too. i will never forgive you for what you did to me but i loved you, more than i knew how to. im sorry

Hi,
I love you still. I met you quickly with a brief passing with someone introducing us. We dated for a year and it was the best year of my life. You changed though. I miss the old you. The one im in love with, not the one that just cheated on his girlfriend for me and doesnt admit there something between us.

im still in love with you. crazy right ? but i sit across from you every day and wonder how i let you go so easy.

i would do anything to be able to love you openly. to hold your hand, and kiss you, and rub your back when youre sad

please dont leave me. i still want you. i still need you. i know im a liability but that doesnt change im in love with you

How could you kiss me multiple times and then say you want to take things slower...I just wish you wanted me the way I wanted you

why was i not good enough for you? i know you broke my heart and damaged me beyond repair but shit man, i really loved you, why couldn’t you have loved me like you said?

i love you, i really do. but i don’t know how to tell you and be okay with your response. i don’t want to be separated and i don’t want anything to come between us. but i’m not allowed to love you...

i want it all to get better. i want to be able to blink & not see u in those split seconds of darkness. i want to go back in time and tell u things like 'i'm sad but i hope u love me enough to stay' i want to go to sleep at night thinking that i'm happy even when you're happier without me. i just want to stop waking up sad in the morning.

I miss talking to you, I really did like & appreciate you as a friend. Talking to u about music was the best. I had to leave ur stories bc you were just messing w my brain. Acting one way and drunk texting me another way. I hope you break free of ur friends n dress how u wanna dress n do what u wanna do bc u deserve it. 505 still reminds me of u bc u sent it to me first :) anyways i hope ur well n u can always talk to me if u need to

there’s quite a lot i wanna write. i never meant to cause you any pain and i’m so sorry if i did. you were always the person i had and i thought it’d be that way forever. never in a romantic way but i loved you so much and i don’t think you actually knew that. i just wish we could be okay again ): feeling a little bit lost at the moment and talking to you seems to lift me up. i feel a little lost without you, keep smiling and laughing, i’m so proud of you x

maybe i talked too much about u, but always to the wrong people. and maybe that's why it hurts because it feels like this is me letting u go. when all i ever wanted was to dig a hole inside of me and keep u there. forever. maybe until i could finally talk about u to the right people.

I took you for granted whilst you were alive. I loved and still love you and I wish I told you before.

I'm pretty sure that in either this life or another we were soulmates. I know that a little part of me will always be in love with you. I can only hope that maybe you love me a little still.

I would be ok, but I can’t help thinking about how you never knew who I really was. That’s on me and my own demons. I wanted to pull you out but I guess I’m not the one to do that for you. I really hope you find it.

i still think about you. i don't think i'll ever understand what or how you felt, but i'll always have a soft spot for you

you know, you were a really good friend. i hope life is treating you okay, because it has not for me. i’m sorry.

Absolutely no one compares to you. At this stage I can't even remember why I liked you so much but I did and I can't ignore it. Hopefully I'll see you again, and not just in passing. Hopefully you feel the same way.

what would have happened if i came and lied in the rain with u like u wanted me to... would u love me now?

the best 2 months of my life were spent with you and you just left me.i hate what you did to me but i miss you

you were the first i ever loved, but i know you didn’t love me back through any of it, and it’s okay now. I’m not hurt anymore, you can’t hurt me anymore

I know your gone and I should let you go. But I can't. I've tried and after 2 years of you gone I still am madly in love with you. Maybe you have found your soulmate or a girl who makes you smile at them the way you did to me. But even though I know you will never see this I just want you to know that you are the only guy in the whole world who I have truly loved. I love you Ollie.W. maybe in another life you would have stayed a little longer we would have worked out. good bye, hopefully not forever but just till I'm back in your arms.

I don't know why I like you I think you were just one of those crush you have out of nowhere but you are really nice guy.

I know I got annoying at the end and I’m sorry about that. I hope you’re doing well right now and wish you the best. Thank you for everything. You were a great friend

Do you like me or not? ive fallen head over heels for you and you're giving me mixed signals. please stop playing with my heart like this i cant take it. please just let me in, i want to talk and make you laugh like we used to. even if its just once.

i’m sorry for not telling you how i felt until it was too late, if i could do it again i would. i miss us.

every time i think about you my face immediately lights up and my mood uplifts. i wish i could talk to you.

I sometimes think about what could've been of us if we hadn't been separated. It's nice to see your birthday messages. I wish i could know how you felt and how you feel now

Feels good seeing you with new people, kinda wish it was me thought. I wonder if any song reminds you of me, i sometimes listen to the songs u dedicated me, it feels good, fuzzy inside. I will forever be grateful for falling in love with you, i have never felt like that for someone else since, although thats not because of you or trauma, I've just never been into people like that