Unsent messages to MYLES

i really want it to be you, please don’t use me

u dont know how badly ur words hurt me, and for that i wish u felt the pain i felt

I know we are distant now, but just know that you will always be the friend i've always wanted.

i rant about to you the moon and stars, luv. they remind me of you.

i wish we could hang out like old times. i miss your presence

i thought i was going to marry you and now we don’t even talk

i really hope things work out between us

I wish you the best in college.

I want my best friend back

i miss you. and i'm sorry.

I want it to be you..

you know i love you and i feel like you hate me for it and never want to talk to me, which is so annoying because thats all i want to do. we have the same basic conversation twice a day and now you've started just airing me and i just expect it to happen. i hate you and the hold you have over me. its so unfair that i feel like i have to suppress how i feel everyday so that i don't sound like i'm obsessed with you because i don't know how you are gonna receive my interest in our conversations. i used to feel so stupid when i was getting three word responses from you but i wanted to continue the conversation and now i don't bother. the fact i'm the only one putting in effort to our friendship sometimes hurts more than the fact that you love her. you make me feel like i shouldn't like you because you like her but then that makes you a hypocrite because she likes someone else too. but, you know i'm always yours and hers biggest supporter. i just wish you would talk to me and actually show some interest, now especially since i cant see you or at least pretend please. i hate how i'm treated so different to all your other girl friends and i don't know what it is about me that makes you do that. i just wish that any slight thing was different, anything that just made me happier. i miss you, i love you and i hate you, all more than anyone else. i wish things were more transparent and mature between us so that we could talk about it but its whatever you know. i dont even need to sign this off because you'll know who its from from reading the first line, lmao :/

Thank you for listening to my rants and being the nicest person ever. You deserve so much better than what you've gone through.

I wish I could text you this but you would clown on me lol. I know i'm a hopeless romantic but I really like you and ur face. I wish you felt the same way about me.

It's you, it's been you for awhile. I've never, never, felt the same way about anyone before. You're the only I want, the only one. I have never met someone the same as you before, and I'm so grateful that I did. You have all the traits I've ever wanted in someone, and more. Everyone else in our school are so problematic, dry and rude. Just in general boring/unfunny people. Not you though, you're the farthest from anybody else. Each others, or not, I'd still want you to be in my life no matter what. I've liked you for who knows how long, I love your laugh and when you're happy, I love how you have such a good music taste and how you're emotionally connected to music, not to mention you're so put together. You never judged me when I was in my worse, it shows how supportive you are. We can open up to each other without feeling uncomfortable, and I love that. I want to get slushies with you. I just want to be yours. I love you, Myles.

We haven’t talked in a long time and I still think of you all the time. It felt like you knew me and I shouldn’t be writing this on New Year’s but I miss you. I don’t want to do this anymore.

i wish you could love and care for me as much as i do for you. But that will never happen, your brain is clouded by your own personal issues and too preoccupied loving your ex instead.

I miss you still, I wish things didn’t go the way they left off. I see you’re happy with her it’s what I definitely couldn’t do.

Here's one thing I already know about life. You were once there for me and cared for me always, making sure I always answered your texts..but now you barely answer mine. I wish I never went done that path again even if I still like you, I know you don't.

i don’t understand why you left that way. just please talk to me i know we can work through it, don’t fucking push me away, i miss you a lot too.

Thank you for making me feel what real love was. I never genuinely laughed and smiled in my entire life like that. You made me feel like I was actually loved and you werent just using me for sex. We clicked right when we met and I will never forget that night and how special you made me feel. Thank you

it's almost a year since that accident me and you had and when you abandoned me in the middle of the road. I still miss you very much even though you left me. I will never forget when you cheered me up when I was down. I will never forget when me and you talked in spanish class. I know you hate me still. but I just wanted to say that you were a important person to me in my life and I will never forget you in my life. I love you

I don't know what the hell is going on. I've been meaning to ask does it hurt your face to wear a mask? :p

i wish i didnt react the way i did, ik you cheated on her but i reacted badly. i wish we were still friends.

hey you. i know im falling in love with you, im just waiting for the right time to say it. just scared. youve brought out emotions that i didnt think i could feel really. i feel like im starting to really live and not just exist. ive never had someone care about me like this, or someone who i want to be with every moment of everyday. theres so much i need you here for. im going to try my best to keep you and never hurt you baby

Sorry for always annoying you and trying to talk. I know you care about me because you still talk to me :)

i keep the card you gave me in my phone case at all times just to feel like you’re with me, i miss you

Why were you horrible to me? Why did you always try to make me feel like i was nothing. I am glad i opened my eyes, i regret meeting you.