Unsent messages to MILES

No se como me siento, a veces te extraño más de lo común y quiero hablarte pero no puedo, no puedo llegar de la nada y decirte que te extraño, es que ni siquiera cambiaría algo, además de que vos fuiste el que se alejo sin dar explicacion y quiero aceptar tu decisión, solo que duele mas de lo que esperaba y en parte te odio por alejarte sin decir nada.

Dios, te extraño tanto que no me importaría perder mi dignidad solo para que estemos juntos o seamos amigos de nuevo, pero no quiero obligarte a nada, supongo que tuviste alguna razón para irte, pero eso quita el hecho de que me duela, me pregunto si hice algo mal o si tuve que hacer algo para que no te fueras y es estresante.

Siento que no me amabas tanto como yo lo hacía, solo que conmigo no sentías dolor y preferias estar conmigo que con alguien que te hacia daño, poco a poco deje de demostrarte lo que sentía porque me sentía frustrada, no quería ser una estúpida segunda opción cuando para mi vos ni siquiera eras una opción, eras lo único.

Creo que es lo ultimo que escribo para vos, te debo dejar atrás y espero que cuando vuelvas ya te haya superado y pueda decirte que no.

He’s a different type of euphoria
The kind you feel when you look at the stars
He probably tastes like honey & ash
The type that doesn’t see you for your scars

i miss you, and i really miss our unique friendship. but it was always her and will forever be her. the fact that you told me that you would never listen to her and stop talking to me, i always knew that that is how it would end. i miss kindergarten when we would play tag and run around the slides without a care in the world. love you forever..

I could never believe you truly love me. I've been meaning to ask: does your face hurt if you ware a mask?? :p

you have such a nice personality and i feel like your spirit animal would have the personality of a toucan and the body of a frog (this is meant to be a compliment)

we all love you so much :)

Hey dude, I've known you for a while and enjoyed every moment. Seeing you get closer to showing who you truly are makes me so happy for you! Thanks for being an amazing friend and my fellow villain wanna be hehe

Thank you for everything. you made me happy when i was down, made me smile through my tears, made me feel loved even when i didn’t love myself. i wish i could do as much as you did to me, you have always been so nice to me, your words make my heart flutter, you are too great for this world. Never doubt yourself. even if other people think you are not worth it.. i think you are worth everything. i would do anything for you love. just please, please don’t beat yourself down. you are perfect in every way.

Please- just tell me if you don’t love me anymore. don’t hold it in, it’s killing me thinking you don’t love me the same anymore

i hope you know that i love you more than anything. seeing you smile is the the thing that brightens up my day-- the thing that makes me happy. i'm so glad i met you; you might not realize it but you've helped me through so much.. more than i can explain. i want to repay you- make you constant happy. and i promise i'll try my best. i know we're far away from each other, but i'll always be here for you. and i mean that, my love.

p.s: i ain't never seen two pretty best friends

I understand now that you don't care for me as much as I cared for you. You are the most important person in my life but to you I am a second choice.

i really hope you grow a little more before you date again. i never want any other girl to go through what i had to go through. also learn how to respect others when they say no or seem uncomfortable. i know deep down you're a good guy but goddamn i thought i was never going to get out of our relationship. also you're racist xoxo

You were my first love. I thought you would of been my last. I’m happy to say I don’t think that anymore.

I liked you alot and you were always so fun to hangout with i had feelings for you but was too scared to tell you i feel dumb writing this now but hey

you used to compare us to jim and pam. will we eventually get the timing right too? or does that shit not happen irl?

hey i saw you driving yesterday. also a big fuck you from me to you for everything. that shit changed me. fuck you miles.

jesus christ i need to get a grip on myself. why am i still here? if anyone who knows me saw this they’d laugh

that night we first kissed you kept rambling, waiting for me to shut you up. but i liked listening to your rambling too

my parents ask about you so often. they sound sad. i used to talk about you often. i think they know about everything

i have a recurring dream of you marrying her. before you say i do you look at me with yearning yet do it anyways

i submit to your name for hours knowing you’ll never see. please, find these. when you do, you’ll finally know

you never save the pictures i send you of us. do you not look at them often too, feeling the beautiful ache of our tragedy?

you’re depressed and you only come to me for help again. our cycle is going to restart if you don’t stop this now.

all of the boys i matched on tinder look like you. i went on a date with one. he was sweeter than you

tell me how it ends. i’m tired of guessing, playing this back and forth game. it’s been years. i’m tired. so are you.

you always come to me when you need to be fixed. does she not fix you? then why did you leave me for her? i can’t do this

i don’t have feelings for you but you’ll always be the one. say the words and i’ll be yours forever. please say it

I'm not the only one with faults. I hope you understand that. I'm not the only one who made mistakes.

I had a dream about you last night. It was the first time in a year that I remembered how your hug felt. It made me sad because that’s the way you held me the night before you left. I love you. Maybe it’s not romantic and more the fact that you’re the first person to accept me and never leave. Even though you live across the country now, you still keep in touch which is something nobody else has done. You deserve the world. I really love you.

I loved you and you loved me but we let our friends split us up over stupid drama and I wish we could’ve ignored the rumors

i miss you. everyday. i got better after it happened, and i’m worse now, and all i want is for you to hold me close and tell me i’m alright. we didn’t work, we were never going to, and that’s okay. i just miss you so much

i am so in love with you and i never want this feeling to go away. i just want to hold you in my arms.