Unsent messages to MAYA

sometimes the intensity with which i want to give you love is overwhelming. because you don’t love me back. not in that way.

i just wish that we ended up together, instead of my constantly offering advice to you about your boyfriends

honestly when we first met on yubo, i was so excited to have met you because you have never failed to make me laugh and i remember the first day we met, i got in the shower but was so excited to talk to you i literally put a cover on my phone and brought it in the shower LMAO. we used to talk like everyday and i honestly do miss that but it’s okay that we’re not as close anymore, shit happens but i’m glad we are talking again. you’re so cool and honestly pretty asf if you don’t know that, this is me giving you a reality check shawddy.

Until we speak again yeah? Look after yourself, and when it gets hard just think of me, I know I’ll think of you. I promise you, I’ll always care. But for now, this is the last message I’ll be submitting. I’ll love you always May May x

I love you. More than you will never know. You were there for me. You are my best friend but I might not be yours.

hey, been awhile, like a year while. things work the way they work but i hope you're doing good, have a nice day :)

I feel like im letting you down. I wish we were closer. I wish i could see you every day because you make me happy. Lately its all gone to shit. Youre gone and so is my happiness. I feel like youre doing so well without me and i dont want to ruin your happiness as well by talking to you and bringing you down with me. I love you bitchhhhh, I hope you love me too

you are very attractive and you’re an amazing person. i really want someone to hold me rn. i wish it were you.

No matter how much I apologize I will never desserve being forgiving from the pain and suffering I made you go through. You dont care about me, why did you help? Was it all pity? Did you blame yourself for it? Only I can be blamed for everything. I never deserved to breathe the same air as you. Also I'm sorry You never got that pet rat

it’s been awhile since we talked. we ended off on not the best terms and that was my fault. i wish i could take it back, every bad thing i said every bad action i preformed. when i first met you nothing came to mind. i was in such a state of shock that i couldn’t believe i had just saw and was in front of the most beautiful girl i’ve ever seen in my life. i wanted to know you, i wanted to know you inside and out. i wanted to know your dreams, your fears, who you hate the most, who you love the most. and after a while, i did know. but it didn’t last, i messed up so much to the point where you don’t talk to me anymore. i’ve always wanted to reach out to you, and sometimes i do by subtle actions, but i don’t think i’ll ever get the time where our feelings were mutual back. i’m sorry

Being around you made me feel less lost about myself around you I could be me and I could be at ease. You were my person and now I have to let u go. It was meant to be us

hi maya!! it’s bailey :) i just wanna thank you for being amazing to me when i need you most and i promise i’m gonna try my best to be there for you always.

ig i just want to come on here for some self closure. i don’t even know how i feel about you anymore. I’ve moved on, but i feel like you’ve lost yourself, and that breaks my heart

hi maya. hopefully u don’t know this site. idk if it would be appropriate to talk to u about anything I’m writing because it’s been so long since weve seen eachother, but it’s always been in the back of my mind and i just want to write it somewhere.

I’ve compared every single girl I’ve dated to you. i have always had the what if’s in the back of my mind. i miss you, last time we saw eachother we were both going through a really hard time and I just hope you’re not depressed anymore. i never changed my phone number because i didn’t want to risk you not having it if you had no one to call and u needed someone to talk to. even if we never see eachother again, i would be so unbelievably devastated if something happened to you. even though my first “girlfriend” was your “best” friend, i can wholeheartedly say you were always my first love in every way. I’ve still never trusted anyone like i did with you growing up. i don’t know how you truly feel anymore, but i just wanna put it out there that i will always be here for you, hope you’re taking care of yourself, and that i love you. If you completely moved on and if you think you know who this is, just please ignore it. I’m writing this to get it off my chest. I just know for me, i never really moved on for some reason and I’ve always had you in the back of my heart. I guess i never got closure, and i really just can’t open up anymore to the point where I’ve given up on the idea of being with anyone.

you better fucking stay you deserve all the love in the world and youre keeping so many people alive, i love and appreciate you and yes this is absolutely who you think it is xoxo

Ik I didn’t actually meet u and this is weird but whatever. You seemed like the sweetest little girl. I hope u grow up loving life love, take care of him for me okay?

you broke our trust even though we've been friends for so long. i don't know how long it will take me to fully forgive you. i still don't understand why you did it. i'm still shocked by what happened and it just doesn't make any sense to me. what you did doesn't really hurt me anymore. instead it's why you thought you could do it without me reacting the way i did. and yes, this is about you.

I decided this is the last time I talk to you, as hard as it is I can't dwell on our past, I need to move on. I once told you I would never fall in love again but I think I am and I'm hoping this is the one because God knows I can't go through another heartbreak. I hope someday you'll forgive me and I hope I'll be able to forgive myself for not having a future with you like we wanted. I wish you the best with whoever is in your future, just please never settle. You deserve so much Maya. Thank you for showing me what true, raw love was. Thank you for being my bestfriend, I believe God placed you in my life when he knew I needed you. I'll always be searching for a bestfriend like you:) You will be the person I'll tell my kids about when they ask about love. I hope all your dreams we always talked about come true for you, I really do. Take care, goodbye Maya.

There’s so much I can say but why are you doing this. I am trying so hard with you is that not enough?

your a drug and now I’m going through withdraw I don’t think you understand how much your hurting me.

your hurting me help me understand why your doing this. I gave you everything what else do you want but that’s not enough for you. I’m trying and you just ghost me and ignore me. during my favorite time of the year I’m trying to hard to give you space but it’s hard please talk to me

youre a jerk you know. ik im not perfect and I've hurt you but I apologized but oh no when you do something bitchy i have to forgive and you can keep talking about me a treating me like shit I don't think so

I have feelings for you. I don't know how or why, but I do. I'm so scared to lose you, I might never say anything at all.

You said you love my smile-- I haven't stop smiling since. But I know you don't like me back like that. And it's not your fault.

May no matter how things seem you have to know, I’ll never get as close to anyone as I was to you. Just because it’s not the right time for us doesn’t mean I’ll forget, I’ll save it all up for you and I in another life. All my love x

It is not that I’m trying to bother you because I’m not, I’m just getting used to not talking to you again. It was when you walked past me I decided I wasn’t going to talk anymore and when you said it made you feel uncomfortable. So please know this wasn’t my intention. But you can still speak to me, we’re friends after all

You said you want to know the people that have a crush on you. But would you want to know if I did? Even if it would fuck everything up?

You are my best friend and i know you don't see me that way but i really hope we can make things workout

Every time you're upset with me it hurts so bad. But as always, it's not even your fault. I can't even be mad.

u will prob never see this bc ur not the type to sadly lurk on this site but u are absolutely a star and u better keep urself happy at all costs

3 years ago I met you. We drifted apart and we fought. I lost myself because you were my bestfriend, the only one who was there for me and never judged me. I’ll admit, I was judgemental and immature back then. But when we stopped being friends, and we drifted and fought I kept bothering u asking why. and now I know why u did what u did. I’m so sorry and I can’t imagine what u went through and I can’t say I understand what u went through but. Idk. It hurt when you left. After you left, I started thinking about you a lot. Then I stopped. Then we became friends again, and now I feel like I have feelings for you. I love you so much but your taken and I respect that But I just wish I can tell you the way I feel about you.

So talented and interesting. Perfect body she could wear anything and pull it off I know she’s self conscious but she has no reason to be.

we have been friends for over 10 years, and I am so grateful for you. thank you for everything, I love you

You don’t mean a single thing you say. You walked past and completely blanked me then when we went out you literally said one thing to me. Come back when you’re ready to be my friend but until then I’m keeping my distance, I shouldn’t have to feel like that

i wanted us to be in love so badly why did you stop trying. and now it’s too late. u make me feel worthless but i still love you. why do you treat me like this

I hope everything is working out for you. It's taken me a while, and I still think about you a lot, but I think I'm finally starting to move on. I think I just finally accept that you just aren't coming back.

i thought i was in love with you, but now i dont think i was, i just wanted a crazy love story. i dont really want to be your friend anymore.

i don’t even know how to tell you this knowing you like someone else and that i will never have a chance with you or at least that’s what i think.

I loved u with all my heart and u lied to me and treated me like shit like u the only one who’s going through things

i cant even describe the way you make me feel. you’ve brought heaven down to me. i really am in love with you. everything about you intrigues me. i want you in my arms. i want to sit and talk to you about everything for hours. sit under the stars. listen to our favorite songs and dance. fuck. i’m in love with you

It’s been years but every time I see you, those feelings are wanting to come back.. maybe you were the one..

I worry sometimes that you'll see these. Maybe part of me wants you to see them. Still wishing, I guess.

You're my first crush. It took 16 years to catch feelings for anyone, but that's all it'll ever be. You don't feel the same way.

u meant so much to me. u hurt me so fuckin bad and i hate u for that. what did i do to deserve it. i even told you how hurt i was and how i just wanted the drama to end and you lied and continued to attack me. fuck you.

Pls don't say yes to a guy you don't want, that hurts...
a lot.
I only expect you find someone that makes you feel like you did to me

I love you papaya. You're my best friend and I am always wishing the best for you. Always remember that.

I just realized, I love you.
You were the reason I didn't kill myself earlier this year but you have no idea.
I've had those silly little crushes a long time ago but I do think I'm in love with you.
But the thing is that I know for a fact that you don't love me back....cause your a lesbian.

i messed up. i hate myself for it. i miss us. i can't just stop loving you.everything reminds me of you. i know you have moved on. but i can't. i miss you. i miss your laugh and your dorky accents you did to make me laugh. . i miss holding your hand. you were the marceline to my princess bubblegum. you were not just my girlfriend, but my best friend.
love, A.

I hope that life is better than I treated you before sorry for hurting you so bad when I really did love you with my whole heart but I had to let you go and be free from the pain I put you through, sorry for everything :'(

i hate myself for messing up with you. i miss our late night calls. Iimiss talking about our future. i'll love you forever and always. i'm sorry.