Unsent messages to MATEO

I love you more than anything my love<33

you broke me like no one else has

i miss you

I will always love you and wait for your text patiently ml

I love you. I’ve never felt like this ever. I love you.

it’s you and me forever. i love you baby

I miss u so much but u bottle everything up and I can't deal with that. I wish u were open with ur feelings and I wish u wanted me as much as I want u. I know u pushed me away because ur scared of ur feelings but I would never of hurt you. It's too late now i guess. But I miss you alot I wish we could talk.

It was, is and will be always you. Every Harry Styles’ song remind me of you. I hope u never read this.

Perdon por no ser lo que esperabas, asi como tu yo igual estoy decepcionada de mi misma… si ya no soportas estar conmigo… dimelo y yo te entendere, te amo y siempre lo are ❤

Pensé que te iba a amar para siempre, pero lo arruinaste rompiendome. Nunca te voy a olvidar gracias a vos conocí el amor.

def thought you were a reddit nice guy but im glad you proved me wrong. i am so grateful for you, your one of the only people ive had that didn't leave me because of mental issues. I am so happy i annoyed you in theatre one. i love you, thankyou for everything youve done. even if one day you leave, ill be saying the same thing : )

Sabes solo esperaba ese mensaje donde dijeras que
"no me querías perder" en vez de haberte hido sin hacer nada por nosotros... ?

hey mayo. i miss your laugh and smile so much. i wish you would fight for me the way i am hurting myself by fighting for you. remeber when you said i meant the world to you? i wonder what happened to that. you are such a beautiful boy and i hope you never forget that. i dont wanna let you go man it hurts so much. i know you didnt mean to hurt me and that's all right i forgive you. i hope someone gives you everything youve ever wanted.

Ya ni siquiera sabrás quién soy, es triste ver cómo pasa el tiempo y las personas más o portantes de tu vida se vuelven sinplementes desconocidos a los que ni saludas.

i miss running my hands through your hair and massaging your back. i never wanted to lose you. maybe we’ll meet again one day when we’re both healed. i hope you’re truly working on yourself and healing past traumas. I’ve been going to counseling, got an apartment, a different car. You wouldn’t believe how much healthier I am. I hope you’re healthier too and finding your authenticity. The real you Mateo is so special. I know you won’t see this but if you ever do just know i love and miss you. even though you hurt me i truly wish you great things. i feel like i’ve been waiting on you to come back but i gotta move on now officially for me because I do deserve to be happy. just know you were the worst and best thing to ever come into my life

I would give anything in the world just to hold you in my arms again but I wish more for you to be happy. I miss you so much.

Eres la única persona que me llegó a amar de verdad. Gracias por hacerme la persona que soy hoy, gracias a ti intentaré salvar a otras personas con tumores cerebrales. Te extraño y te amo mucho.

I'm sorry I'm not what you expected, I'd like to tell you that I gave it my all and I'm always going to thank you for teaching me to love.

Thank you for always being there for me. You’ve helped me so much and I know we have our ups and downs but I love you more than anything in the world. I’d do anything for you. I’m so grateful I met you. I love you

i miss how u were at the beginning. you were so kind and sweet to me but u got comfortable and u changed. i want u back so bad but its for the best. i miss ur touch. ur one of the only people I felt comfortable to show affection to. but u didn't like me as much as I liked u, and that's ok.

i loved you i really did. it makes me kind of sad we’re not friends anymore. hope youre doing well :)

I really liked you, you were everything I ever wanted. Right person wrong time.I’ll always love you forever.

hola teamo demasiado uwu, y pues aaaa no se como explicar el amor que tengo hacia ti pero neta te amo como a la carne asada uwu, ya te quiero tener aquí conmigo mi vida :c, aaaaaa neta me encantas y me fascinas amorcitoooooo aaaaa no se pero neta, perdón por llorar tanto :c, teamooooooo, y ya no te enojes conmigo, va? :(
eres neta el mejor niño del mundo

hola teamo demasiado uwu, y pues aaaa no se como explicar el amor que tengo hacia ti pero neta te amo como a la carne asada uwu, ya te quiero tener aquí conmigo mi vida :c, aaaaaa neta me encantas y me fascinas amorcitoooooo aaaaa no se pero neta, perdón por llorar tanto :c, teamooooooo, y ya no te enojes conmigo, va? :(
eres neta el mejor niño del mundo

Te extraño, lograste sacar lo mejor de mi, esa felicidad que tenia y no la había demostrado a muchas personas

Me arrepiento mucho de no haberte cuidado, tendría que haber dejado el orgullo y decirte cuanto te amaba y necesitaba, pasó un año y nunca volvimos a ser amigos como dijimos ese día, sos una de las cosas más lindas que tuve en toda mí vida te extraño como a nadie, espero que seas feliz y que todos los problemas que tuviste con tu familia hayan pasado, te amo mucho

everyday of my life I wish we had never met. I wish you didn't have the balls to do what you did to me and I wish that you knew how emotionally destroyed i am because of your fault, because of your lies, because of your manipulation, because of your need to be loved but not to love back.

nobodys ever been able to kiss me like you have. i wonder if thats why i liked you so much for so long?

I love u so much, you are the best person in the whole world and I don't know why I deserve you..lof u

maybe i'm looking too much into it, but it seems i am out of the picture. i wish you the best and i hope you end up happy.

I don't know what happened, I don't even know how to explain it to myself without getting lost, or without having more questions. We were literally perfect, or at least the closest to it, but one day everything changed, for both of us, when we stopped feeling everything we said we felt?, and we knew it was real, when we lost interest in each other?, because I can't explain what the fuck happened. I don't know what to feel, I don't know if I'm sad, If I miss you, or I just want to know when we screwed it up and all this happened. We were not the same, but that made us perfect, we talked about living together and our pets, traveling together, our families, and one day everything changed, to the point of talking to other people, even being together, without caring. Now I feel better, is just that sometimes I miss you, I see you and I think, what would we be if we were still together? We'll be happy or was this our end anyway, no matter what? Sometimes I don't recognize you either, people say that when you break up with someone, you notice them differently from how they used to be but it turns out that he was always like that, only what you felt did not allow you to see it, I don't know if that happened to you but you were not this way, and I still care about you anyway. You just have to know that, I am going to love you forever no matter what, I called you "love of my life", and I think it was for something, you marked my life, and whether or not this is our end, you were important to me, and you always will be. I promised you that I would always be there for you, and so it will be...

hi! i just want to tell you that it was a fucking bullshit that we liked eachother buth noting happend, btw you are such a good friend to me :)

I hate that it was the right person and the right time for you but the right person and the wrong time for me.

Siempre me arrepentiré de no haberte dicho nada aquel día en el pasillo de mi casa a punto de irte a tu país ?

hace dos años y dos dias me pediste pololear, lastima que ya no lo estamos, duramos 1 mes y poco mas, muy poco realmente pero no sabes los feliz que me hiciste. Me gustaria sentir tu risa denuevo, escucharte hablar cualquier cosa y que me escuches hablar todo el tiempo, es que me gustaba mucho hablarte, ese olor que tenias a perfume barato xddd, tu aroma no se me olvida y a veces me persigue.
Te acuerdas cuando te tapaste las espinillas con base de otro color de piel y me di cuenta, te dio verguenza pero a mi me causo tanto amor y alegria, que daria por volver a verte y decirte todo lo que en este momento siento por ti, es que nose que hiciste para yo amarte tanto. Estoy llorando, es que te extraño me hiciste tan feliz pero no se como soltarte, como dejar de pensarte, desde el dia en que terminamos no he dejado de pensarte, sal de mi corazon porfavor y se que me hago daño, pero realmente siento que tu estas igual y que tambien t mueres por decirme cuanto m necesitas pero ninguno se atrave, si el universo me da 1 sola señal voy corriendo hacia a ti para recuperarte, confio en que en algun momento la vida nos junte y ya esteremos maduros para quedarnos juntos hasta el final de nuestros dias, quiero saber de ti, te extraño muchisimo.

Maldigo el dia que conozcas a alguien mas, pero no quiero sonar egoista, te quiero aqui a mi lado, solo dame una señal y deverdad que doy todo de mi para volver a estar juntos, el awita de boxer me hizo efecto parece:(, te mando un abrazo y muchos besitos hacia donde quiera que estes.
buenas noches, te amo de aqui hasta el infinito...

No se ni cómo sucedio todo lo que siento por ti. Será porque me diste toda la atención que necesitaba en esos momentos o porque contigo podía ser yo misma. En estos días he soñado contigo he soñado que me quieres como yo a ti pero yo se muy bien que tú no me quieres de la manera que yo lo hago. Enserio he tratado de alejar esos sentimientos para seguir siendo amigos como antes pero esta complicado. Me hubiera gustado siquiera tener una oportunidad de demostrarte cuanto te quiero. Siempre estaré para apoyarte ojala algún día me olvide de estos sentimientos que tengo hacia ti.
Te quiero mucho :')

I hate that you never truly cared. I hate that I had to beg for the bare minimum. U make me so sad but I can't leave.

sé que no fue tu culpa los sentimientos que genere hacia ti, pero siempre te aprovechaste de mi; sabias lo mucho que te admiraba, que haria cualquier cosa para que no me dejaras de hablar y sin pensar en mi solo pensaste que satisfacerte. Si llegaste a pensar que yo lo disfrutaba te equivocaste, todo lo que te mandaba era fingido porque sabia que me ibas a dejar, como lo has hecho ya...

bueno fuiste primero en hacerme sentir asi fuiste mi primer beso ya paso el tiempo y te supere porque no me quedaba otra me hiciste muy feliz y tambien provocaste inseguridades en mi pero te agradezco porque entendi q valgo mucho y ahora solo me quedan lindos recuerdos simpre te voy a amar

I miss you. I wish I was brave enough to tell you how I feel, but I can’t ruin our friendship. I wish I knew how you feel about me. You led me on to nowhere, but now I’m wondering if it’s my fault. I never made any attempt like you did. But were you just being goofy? Or did you have feelings for me? I hope one day I can tell you how I felt, even if you didn’t feel the same.

Es triste como de la nada dejaste de hablarme, se que me quisiste mucho pero no entiendo, es triste:(

you still linger in my mind. some nights you're in my dreams. i can't escape you. i love you so much, even though we've both moved on. thank you for the memories. but you really broke me.

I lied I never loved you I was just afraid of being alone. Also thanks for the months of tears pouring down my face and constant criticism on everything about me, it made me the person I am today, fuck you :))

I don't know why have u leave me if we were about to be something. I still want an explanation. Why are u so cold with me since then and now?

I should have never unblocked you. I should have never watched her live. You should have never put her before me.

there’s something about you that just infuriates me. I have such a deep hatred and longing for you i don’t know what to do with myself. i wish you never texted me.

thank you for everything you've done for me. you made my 2020 amazing when it should've been terrible. i wouldnt change anything. i love you now and forever. i hope whatever happens is for the best and i hope you end up happy, its all ive ever wanted. it was silly to think i was gonna be the one you would be happy with. i dont deserve all the kindness and good memories you gave me. ill cherish every moment forever

Right person. Wrong time. Only I know it was the right time for you. So I guess I was the wrong person. Im sorry.

Todo va a estar bien,eres fuerte, todo va a mejorar, y todo eso que no lo permita va a desaparecer. Mereces todo lo bueno, eres un exelente amigo

i stayed up so late to talk to you. i love you, i love you so much . why don’t you. come back please.