Unsent messages to MARC

i cant believe i ever loved you

I miss u but ik u don't feel the same

i'm still waiting 4 u

you didn't deserve to be treated that way. i'm sorry.

I love you sorry I didn’t say it back I was scared

I'm not well to a long time, can't sleep, when close my eyes you´re still here and the memories kill me.
I wish you were still here but you left me.
I won't cry, I can't afford self pity.
"If I could begin to be
Half of what you think of me
I could do about anything
I could even learn how to love
Wondering when I'm coming back
I could do about anything
I could even learn how to love like you
I always thought I might be bad
Now I'm sure that it's true
'Cause I think you're so good
And I'm nothing like you
Look at you go
I just adore you
I wish that I knew
What makes you think I'm so special
I could do about anything
I could even learn how to love like you
Love like you
Love me like you"

I wish you could’ve given me one more chance. One more after I pulled myself together. I really want to show you I could do better. I’m sorry for messing up the way you view dating. I’m sorry for making the first the worst. P.S. i chose green cuz it’s your favorite color.

grey for the colour you wanted to be. honestly you got me the closest to romantic love i've ever been and made up some fake shitty excuse of "getting rid of all technology" cause thats why you still read the texts i sent right? thats why you're still active on spotify right? you made me feel accepted for everything i am for once. i wish you well but kindly fuck you.

I wish I never let you take advantage of me time and time again. I'm so much more than an object and I never want to see you or speak to you again.

I kinda fell in love with you the second I saw you in the library. But I think you are too good for me.

marc strelitz,
you deserve everything good in this world and i hope you remind yourself that everyday.

You´re the most beautiful thing that happen to me in all my life, and If someday we broke up, you will be the best gift that the world gave to me. You don´t have to make lots of thing to be perfect, you´re so amazing in so many ways and I can´t wait to spend all the time that I have here with you.
My heart belongs to you, since we met until I die.
We´re a couple, a team, a fusion when we are together and even when we´re not.
I love u so much, and this message is for u, Cookie bear ♡

Will I ever really be over you? No. But will you ever stop and think how your actions hurt other people? Probably no again.

yeah i’m over you but i’m still hurt by the fact we didn’t end up happy together, but i’m sure we’re taller in another dimension.

i wasnt enough for u and u used me to make u feel better but we had a good time together and i miss the memories we made together

You have made me feel so loved in ways I can’t comprehend are even real. Shared moments with you are like fever dreams of pure bliss. I get lost in your eyes each time.

Why did you let me fall in love with you and act like you loved me back when it was all a lie? I miss you, it hurts not being your friend

u CHEATER i won't hesitate to pour sugar in her gas tank and lick a jolly rancher and stick it on ur windshield

Hi kid, I j wanna apologize, for everything. I didn’t realize what I was doing until now, and I am so sorry. I got attached to you and it hurt like hell to let go, so that’s why I kept fighting. I miss what we had and I’d do anything to get that back, go back to normal with you. I’d choose being friends over not speaking ANY DAY, and I want you to know that I’m always here if you need someone. I’m sorry for everything, I wish this didn’t end the way it did. I care about you and I’m thankful for you and your friendship. Best wishes always. If you texted or called me, I’d pick up in a heartbeat. If you’re thinking about me, please don’t hesitate to reach out. Send me a song, send me a text, send me a sign. I miss you dude, I miss our friendship. I’ll see u sometime, and until then I wish you the best. Forever and always, hopefully yk who.

I'm so happy right now - no one has ever made me feel as special as you make me feel. That's why I'm so scared to lose you, it'll hurt so much more.

Hey, it's Sadie. lol, funny story I'm still in love with you even tho you hurt me. i would do anything to be with you rn and idk when I'm not texting you I'm thinking about you and when I'm not doing that well idk bc that's all i do. You're the only person who i text and marc your the only person who brings me happiness. idk the point of this but i want to let you know you still mean the world to me and i wanna see you so badly and i hope we can continue our friendship or whatever we are rn. anyways i love you marc and i miss you

I never really got over you in forth grade. And when we were together in high school we drifted to different places.I still miss you everyday.

I have a lot of feelings for u because i connected with you like i didnt with nobody else. i hope ur doing ok. i miss u ....

We both know we have a conversation left. You owe me an explanation even if it's been 2 years since we don't talk.

it’s time for me to accept the fact that we’ll never be together. if you really wanted to distance would not stop you. i wish i was everything you wanted but i know now that i’ll never be enough because actions speak louder than words. i’ll always love you but it’s time for me to stop holding on to the past.
-the mia to your sebastian

I fucking hate you so bad. Everything that you did to me I never deserved to be treated like that. And no one knows so they look at you the same. I’m so close to coming out and saying my part of the story.

You always said you were a bad person and I never believed you. But you are. I hate you and I wish I could stop thinking about you.

i miss you everyday, i'm sorry for everything I wish i could take it back, i still love you so much. I'm sorry for everything all I want is for us to talk again.

I'm sorry for hurting you. I hope I made the right choice. You'll always have a part of my heart. I love you

thank you. for changing my life. i know we still talk, but thank you. i don't even know how to explain how you've made me a better person. you've made me comfortable with myself, and i know sometimes i can be really annoying, but i promise i feel so like myself when talking to you. your hugs bring me so much joy, i melt in them like warm chocolate. your smile gives me nostalgia, as if i've met you before. you almost feel like the boy version of me, which i think is the coolest thing ever. thank you for having my back, and just being there. your company just gives me warmth, and it feels like a blanket. thank you for making me feel this way. you're the first and quite frankly, only person i really truly fell in love with.

I like you a lot like I can’t go a day without thinking about you but you don’t feel the same about me

Te odio por todo lo que me has hecho, y no me puedo creer que alguna vez me gustaras. No me hables nunca más. xx.

Quiero salir contigo, me gustas por el físico ( tu tremenda poroga fuuff quien se la pudiera comer)pero también me gustas tu como persona

One of my best friends, never want to loose you and everyone. You helped me change for the better and I learn so much from you every day.

you really were the right person at the wrong time, maybe one day we can go on that date, i miss you so much

I wonder if you still have our story. I wonder if you'll still write me when you go to basic. Do you wonder about me too?

I wonder if you even see these anymore. I hope so. Im finally starting to feel joy again, I hope you are too.

We were young and in love. I didn't realize how many nights I would stay up thinking about those days.

I love you sounds weird yes I know I know we live 3 hours apart but I just had this feeling of comfort with you I never intended to feel this way but I do I try not to cause it’s a distance but there a thing that makes me stay I can’t see myself with anyone else yes that a crazy thing too I know well I wanted to say that I wish one day I get the chance to see you if you like to I got to be me with you and show you who I am and we talked about so many thing I don’t even do that with anyone not that I ever tried but I never had the comfort to get that way with anyone you say this may be crazy but I know you say we are young I understand that 120% but I can’t I want to be with you if this is my chance to tell you I am going to cause I don’t know if I be able to tomorrow sounds cheesy but it’s true I want to live the ups and downs with you now I am going to cry why cause I have a feeling that I met you for a reason your supposed to be in my life for some reason I want that reason to stay

Why cant you see me, I love you, but you love someone else, idk if i should give up...but i found some happiness in the thought of you

You wrote me one on the 11th of October the day I thought you wanted me to leave, as I tried to I realized hours later that it was a mistake and I came back because I couldn’t. My feelings for you are the most beautiful raw things I have ever got to feel in this life. The amount that I feel is way to strong to ever be apart from you. When I see your face, it makes my stomach flutter, I love talking about you to my parents it makes me realize how much I care about you,
You have taught me what love is, how to be loved. I told you about my past and you didn’t judge me like I thought you would but instead you loved me even more. You didn’t care because I meant so much to you. Which made me feel beautiful, that no matter what I had done I am still perfect to you. You don’t understand what it feels like when I am with you, When I know I am yours. It’s the best feeling in the world and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. You decided to leave due to some serious reasons, for which I don’t blame you, hearing you express it all I could understand why you would want too. But now when I look at my phone all I do is cry, waiting for you to text me or call. I look in the mirror and choke on my own words because I can’t have you. I can’t brag about you or sleep call with you. I can’t talk about the amazing future we planned for each other.. I can’t love you the way I want too and it hurts. I want you to know I have never cared this much for a person as I do for you, you are the most amazing, handsome, fearless, and strong human being I’ve met. If I had the chance to hug you and kiss you I would; even if it was the last time I’d ever do that. You have made into a better female, one who isn’t as fucked up as the rest, you made realize my beauty and the meaning of it all. But seriously you are the reason why I started believing in love, that love is real. Because Marc I love you, and I won’t ever and can’t ever stop loving you.

I really am sorry about everything. You didn’t deserve what I put you through. You’re a great person. I hope
you find love and happiness

I love you but you do so much to hurt me. I wish you would realize. I’m getting tired but I’m still waiting for you to change :(.

You always said I was the perfect girl for you and how you always wanted me. Why did I end up just being another fuck to add to your list?

you never allow me to move on. you always come back when i feel okay. it's been 5 years, we need to let go.