Unsent Messages

You wrote me one on the 11th of October the day I thought you wanted me to leave, as I tried to I realized hours later that it was a mistake and I came back because I couldn’t. My feelings for you are the most beautiful raw things I have ever got to feel in this life. The amount that I feel is way to strong to ever be apart from you. When I see your face, it makes my stomach flutter, I love talking about you to my parents it makes me realize how much I care about you,
You have taught me what love is, how to be loved. I told you about my past and you didn’t judge me like I thought you would but instead you loved me even more. You didn’t care because I meant so much to you. Which made me feel beautiful, that no matter what I had done I am still perfect to you. You don’t understand what it feels like when I am with you, When I know I am yours. It’s the best feeling in the world and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. You decided to leave due to some serious reasons, for which I don’t blame you, hearing you express it all I could understand why you would want too. But now when I look at my phone all I do is cry, waiting for you to text me or call. I look in the mirror and choke on my own words because I can’t have you. I can’t brag about you or sleep call with you. I can’t talk about the amazing future we planned for each other.. I can’t love you the way I want too and it hurts. I want you to know I have never cared this much for a person as I do for you, you are the most amazing, handsome, fearless, and strong human being I’ve met. If I had the chance to hug you and kiss you I would; even if it was the last time I’d ever do that. You have made into a better female, one who isn’t as fucked up as the rest, you made realize my beauty and the meaning of it all. But seriously you are the reason why I started believing in love, that love is real. Because Marc I love you, and I won’t ever and can’t ever stop loving you.