bro please stop beating yourself up i promise you it’s all good and there’s no hard feelings, at the end of the day i love you just the same and you can always talk to me

the boy I like, likes you instead. when I tried talking to you abt it your response to me was to not get you involved and that you didn't want to talk abt it, even tho u know I just wanted to talk abt it so there wouldn't be anything weird between us n bcz u know I can't keep anything from you. but now there it is weird between us. I thought I could tell you anything. but I obvz can't. n now I have no one left.

y- you're my soulmate. i still want us but im so afraid of us fighting again. please. please don't hurt me:(

im so fucking sad and i think i need help but i’m scared to ask but idk how much longer i can do this

Isn't it scary how a person you once bounded so much with, that you would give your life for suddenly turned into a stranger?

I lied - I’m pissed you didn’t invite me but you invited the rest of our friends. I just didn’t want to sound clingy but it actually made me really sad seeing all my best friends partying without me.

Why did you do that, you have made me feel so confused, i like you sm. But i cant can i, because i dont want to be with you incase that's not what you want. I cant leave because what if you don't want me. But after that night i think you do want me but i just dont know sometimes you can be so distant. Somedays or nights like that one, you want me like i want you. I hate feeling this way, i just want you. I want to have you, but i need to know you want me, just one more time, one more night like that and ill drop everything for you. You probably wont read this or you wont think this is about you. Or maybe you do and you dont care, maybe i was just a mistake. I like you sm, but ill leave you be. Because i think i was just a mistake wasn't i? I can't stop thinking about you, about that night. Your perfect but am i.

i cant stop thinking about when you were driving to the station the other day. i was crying and you didn't say anything, you just let me cry and held my hand and i've never felt more cared for or understood or loved. you dont realise how much that means to just have someone there, just to let you get it out sometimes you know? it made me realise how much i love you and how lucky i am. you make me feel safer than any person has before and i feel i can trust you more than other people. dont fuck that up.

I really ducking my hate you for all that you made me lose myself and I still love you made me confused look at me now I can’t spell fucking and I just said I hate you and loved you

I wanted this for so long and now all i want is to get out. i love you. and i can’t lose you. but i also can’t do this.

Im sorry I keep fucking up and im really problematic. Even when i push you away, you're still always there for me and i don't know why.

Isn't it funny that something so natural turned into something strange. How we used to see each other every day an now we are just something that used to be something special

i hate you for what you did but i also love you. like- fuck you for hurting me so bad. fuck. you. but i still love you.

I know you're a dog, I know you're not human. and I know you're not my first love. but Lucy, I miss you so much I miss waking up and seeing you laying on the floor beside my bed waiting for me to wake up. I miss you making me happy when I was sad. I miss you jumping around and smiling even though you were in pain. I miss everything about you Lucy. just come back a visit me sometime

I hope you stumble upon this website, search your name and find even one of the messages I left for you. I think you'd appreciate discovering them here, like an old necklace or trinket in a memory box.

I don't know if we'll ever see each other again, but there are still some things I never got to say. I don't know if I'd ever have enough words to tell you. I've tried in messages, letters and in person. You gave me your time and heard me out. For that I am so grateful.

If events unfolded differently, we could have kept in touch. We were always such good friends. We mattered. That got lost somewhere along the way. And though it wouldn't have fixed anything at the time, I should have been a better friend to you. I wish I told you that sooner.

I'll always remember that letter you wrote me, which you gave me under that tree, after I met you at the station.

"And only time can tell,
Who we'll be years from now..."

Be well and be you.

I still love you, there’s nothing more I want than to spend the rest of my life with you but you lied and now I don’t know what my life is going to be, the whole plan revolved around you and our life together and now you’re not here

i hate that u can be so selfish sometimes. u won't think abt my wellbeing or be there for me. ur own bestfriend. even tho u know id drop anything and everything to make sure ur okay and be there for u. u know that.

Lucy, all those times I said "you" differently, I was giving you a hint. It is you. Although you didn't figure it out, I hope you do.

you’ll never know how much you mean to me, becuase i will never tell you. please stay when i’m gone because you have so much left to do

ive cried to many tears over you but you taught me to actually care about myself and put my need first

i don’t think you realise how much worth you have. so many things about you are important, and there are qualities held only by you. i hope you realise that some day. if not then i’ll always be there to help u along. that’s what friends are for.

I always wonder if you check your name hoping I'm leaving notes saying I still love you. I do by the way

you were always there for me. we were inseparable for years and I never appreciated that until now. i loved you

hey lucy! i kinda have the feeling that we could still be friends but i'd have to wait. if you really leave the school i just wanna say thank you so much for being my friend and thank syou so much for all the great times we've had together! i love you and miss you.

u are to sweet and kind for this world, you have a glow when u walk into a room and put a smile on peoples faces, i hope life treats u well, u are someone i will never forget :)

sometimes I think about you, more like a lot... I miss you lots but I can never say it to your face and it hurts, but I feel like you know that, at the same time I don't know if you miss me, I remember every single day in the summer last year, we called for so many hours, kind of want that to happen today-or everyday, to make it short...I miss you lots and I hope we can talk again, it doesn't matter I just feel like talking on the phone again

I miss you desperately. My soul has a hole in it. I would do anything for you to text me again. I wish there was something I could do to fix this I NEED to fix this I need you in my life- ...Whatever I did to make you stop loving me. I'm sorry.

I like you but I could never tell you. I hate how your always on my mind. Maybe one day we will be together. But not now. I hate that I love you so much.

I kinda had i crush on you. Like a really big crush. Like i saw you smile at me one time and thought i was gonna faint kinda crush. But now that I'll never see you again, I guess it doesn't really matter whether you know. I know it's been 5ish months, and I think I'm over you, but then everytime you even view my story I suck in a breath. I was always worried that if I worked up the courage to tell anyone it would get lost in translation, due to the 2 other Lucy's. So um... yeah. You're so beautiful & funny & you look really pretty when you're concerned, your pearly brown eyes are the most stunning & wonderful thing on the planet, your smile gives me millions of butterflies, your wit, your hair, just... your everything.

Jesus has an ed.
anyway hi, I miss you. I just wanted to personally let you know that I love and care about you so much and know that whatever you're going through right now, you're going to get through it. text me if you see this but hey, you're one of my favourite people

Feelings exist, thoughts exist, but words don't always exist. I love you, beyond stars, beyond time, beyond music.

I never got the courage to tell you how I felt, but I dont regret not telling you... saved myself the pain though I am sure you felt the same...

i miss being your best friend. im sorry people ruined it for us because u were my twin flame. u still are even if I'm not yours. i love you. i hope one day we can go back to what our friendship was. thanks for the best summer

You’re wonderful and bring light into the life of every person who gets to interact with you, like sunshine you’re warm and everyone wants to bathe in your light for as long as they can

I wish we got the chance to be in love. I messed that up and can’t stop thinking about what could’ve been.

I wish we got the chance to be in love. I messed that up and can’t stop thinking about what could’ve been.

putting him into the server under a different username and thinking i wld never find out. well now i know and i really hope it was worth it to you

Again I find myself in my room being alone, since I lost you the colors of life feels drier than constumbrella, Karla always tells me that I must continue with my life and close this stage, meet new people, Love really will be the key? Maybe if maybe not, even though it's been a year since you left, it still hurts, I'll go back to the city with my family they still don't know you left and maybe I'll never tell them, they really liked you, every day I go to your grave, sometimes I think, can you see me? Will you think I'm weak? If you were here and saw me like this you would be angry, life is very beautiful but also very dark.
And I hate that.

im sorry if i was a toxic part in your life. i need you to know im not like that anymore. wishing you the best.

I’m falling for you.
you said you wanted to make your room more colourful, however without meaning to, you made me more colourful.

I will love you from afar too, I guess. I didn’t think this would ever happen. I’m not as psychic, as I think

I noticed you still follow me on Spotify. I smiled at some of your playlists. I hope they still make you smile too.

i think this is closure, i've been postponing this for too long and to be quite frank, you've ruined me. if only you knew

I’m sorry I loved you too much too fast. I’m sorry it scared you. I’m sorry I let you destroy me. I’m sorry I’ll never be whole without you.

thank you for noticing my mental health slipping when no one else did. i'm sorry for making you worry about me. i should be a better friend to you.

I am so sorry for everything I’ve done to you and I hope I can make things better in the future I let my immaturity in the past affect us and I’m so sorry, I just need a chance to show you that I am serious about this working and to show you im serious about our future I love you and I mean everything I say to you about how much you mean to me

I never thought I would say this, but I hate you. I hate you so much it hurts. It hurts so bad. I wish you could actually see what you’ve done.

it’s fine if you want to pretend i’m him. i understand. i’ll play the part. whoever you need me to be. – alice

i know you're not the cheesy type but im really so grateful to have you in my life because you've helped me so much and i can never thank you enough

I know you wont think this applies to you. Consequently maybe that is for the best, but you're perfect. To me. You probably wont see this and thats okay. But i love how funny you are. Your always on my mind. Everything is grey without you