since its 2021 im gonna get this off my chest, i dont think it’s possible for us personally to be friends when all i can see is us being more than that, and you dont like me anymore and you have a boyfriend so i understand that.., im not saying we shouldn’t talk at all when i see kenzie but i cant keep on doing this, it hurts more than u understand and im really not trying to make you feel bad but ever since the day we broke up nothing has been the same, every night i blast girl in red thinking of u. i love you lauren, and i know you dont feel the same, so i cant keep doing this.

you really hurt me when you said those things about me. but i still loved you and i still do, 2 years later

Thank you for being there for me. I can't believe you still put up with me. I feel like you won't be there for me anymore which is perfectly fine. You've got a life way far outside of mine. I hope things get better for you. I'll be here for you always.

i thought we were best friends. but clearly i’m the second option for you, yet i’m expected to come running

i wish you'd been there... even just to ask if i was okay. when they all turned against me, i thought i wouldn't have the courage to make it to the end of the year. i had no one, & i thought at least you'd have my back but you didn't and thats what hurts - still hurts. don't talk to me ever again, not after what you and your friends have done to me.

my first love. it ended before it even began and despite all the hurt, i still blame myself for the things YOU did to wrong us.

If we don’t make it, I don’t think I’d ever forget the way your smile forms, or the way you smell. You have truly changed my life and I don’t think you even know it.

i feel like ur the only person who truly understands me, were like the same person, im glad were best friends

someone gave me a tarot reading and said you'd come back. I wish you had the strength, I hope the love.

why did you have to fuck everything up. you ruined a year of my life. and somehow i still feel bad for you

oh my gosh you are just wonderful!! i’m so blessed to be your friend & i can’t wait to cause scenes in 2021 with you.

i’m sorry i never called, you changed my life and no matter how different or far apart we are, i love you

I love you. You're amazing as a person and you changed my life in ways I never thought would be possible. Thank you for being there for me.

I know we are on opposite sides of the world, but i really wanted to make it work. Im gutted that you didnt feel the same

Without you, I would have lost trust in people. You make me feel like I am a real person and can have feelings and show love. For you I am eternally grateful.

Without you, I would have lost trust in people. You make me feel like I am a real person and can have feelings and show love. For you I am eternally grateful.

I miss you, my best friend. I think of you everyday and hope you’re happy. Your sister had a baby, congratulations to her and I know you’ll make the best aunt. Even though you hated me when we last talked, I still love you dearly. I hope you’re happy and healthy, I hope you come back.

youre a fucking witch. he was my everything and now i dont know what to do anymore. im so lost. its been so long and i feel like i dont even know him anymore. hes a completely different person now thanks for you. youre a shit influence and everything, every memory, every inside joke, every interest we shared, every stranger things episode we watched together, all the projects weve worked on together, all the music that we shared with eachother. all gone. thanks for screwing absolutley everything up and leaving me with nothing. i miss him.

btw she’s told me everything you’ve ever said that involved me or other girls :) and i didn’t tell her shit until i found out you did. she’s not your friend, she constantly talks to me about how your life is basically falling apart (i’ve heard mad shit from other people) and you need some help if that shit is true & she texted me about your recent problem AND I HELPED HER SNAP YOU BACK bc she was pissed :)

when we first met, you called me a bitch. after that you tried to stay away from me. and every time i got near you, you were full of aggressive aura. i tried to stay away from you, because i didn’t want to drown in the aura. but as the time flew, you tried to get close. closer and closer. the aggressive aura soon turned into warmth. you apologized for calling me a bitch and the warmth turned into hotness. The hotness turned into a pure fire called love. You loved me, and you didn’t even try to fight back the rumors. But the problem was, I hated you. I hated you in pure hatred. I did.

We dated. I wanted revenge. It all felt like a angsty romance novel but no, it was reality.

Soon, I grabbed the bucket full of water and turned off the fire.

All that was left was smoke. Poisonous smoke which could kill you if you inhale it too much.

In other words, regret.

I hope you realize that what you did wasn't okay. you really hurt me. I never want to speak to you again.

i told you i love you after i gave myself to you, you said it back, but you meant it for someone else

I still have vivid dreams about us being together and it still hurts. If I’m being totally honest, I’d wait for 10 more years to have you. I’d give up literally everything to be with you. It’s too late though..

J

If you want to stop feeling like all you're friends hate you, then maybe treat you're friends better because posting stuff and saying how "bad you're friends are" when you're the toxic one isn't gonna make them like you. Stop acting like you know everything, and be better.

you are one of my most amazing friends but you really need to stick up for yourself because i can see how much it hurts you when you know who walks all over you.

You mean the world to me and I'd hate to lose you. But maybe losing you is what I need to really have you.

No one ever tells you your first love will haunt you.Even when I think I’m over it, I’m not. I wish I had come over years ago when you said you missed me. I still loved you even when you didn’t so much that it hurt me and It made me mad. I wish my pride wasn’t so big when I moved so I could tell u how I felt. Starting to wonder if our paths will ever cross again. I hope they do.

You were my best friend and I loved you as best I could. But you changed into someone I didn’t recognize.

I truly did love you Lauren. I know i never said it because I was scared of how you'd react but now more than ever I wish I had. You changed my life twice and I don't think i've ever really felt this strongly about anyone before. I know things didn't work and I hate that more than anything in the world because all I want is to take you on that date or even send you one more stupid video of my playing the ukulele. I think if I could I could die a happy man.

I wish you would tell me how you feel, that would change the game. I’m willing to forgive & I don’t want anyone else.

would you be happy with how we left things if something happened to me? if not, let’s fix it. life is too short to act like this.

i hate the fact you only wanted me for my body but i wanted your attention. you called me selfish wen i was sad:/.

I chose red because it's your favorite color and oddly enough i notice that i have started to wear more red and quite frankly its slowly becoming my favorite color. You have become the most important person in my life and i know ive tolf you this but i dont think you actually understand how much you mean to me. i love you.

i don't know when i realized i loved you. but i can't stop thinking about it. i wish you could love me.

Even though we both agreed to stop being friends, i can’t help but hope that you’ll text me again :/. I really miss you.

You laughed when I seemed shocked. Amused that I didn’t strike you as such. I guess you just never seemed like the type of girl to read poetry. More like the girl who would laugh at lovers or poke fun of the girl at the back of the room.

i slowly feel like im annoying the crap out of you you are texting me less and less every day i'm sorry for whatever i did to you i wanna fix it tho whatever it may be please let me fix it i'm begging you please let me back in your life. idk what i would do without. a life without you would destroy me it would feel like i was slowly killing myself please don't do this to me you mean everything to me and i would hate to see you go. you saved my life now why do u have to end it to. lauren you're my only friend right now and ur the only person that cares enough to talk to me anymore please please tell me what it is and ill fix it. please lauren i love you-*******

u told me it was for attention. i was sitting on my bathroom floor screaming. crying. bleeding. and begging myself to not let go.

i know that i come off as mean but i actually just really like you. i’m just going through a lot of mental issues. i just want to be with you but i’m scared of rejection, i know you’ll most likely never like me back, but i just wanted to say that i like you, even if it means you don’t like me back

thank u for making me smile when i thought no one could. i love u so much. the amount of faith i have in our friendship is huge. thank u for making me a better me. see u this summer , i love u

Being friends with you had really changed my life. You make me feel so comfortable and genuinely happy, thank you so much for being my best friend

You said when you left that you would never come back but here you are, a permanent resident in my mind

You said when you left that you would never come back but here you are, a permanent resident in my mind

You said when you left that you would never come back but here you are, a permanent resident in my mind

I still think about you, i miss you a lot... I hope you’re doing well, If you think this is for you..it is

Hearing you sing over the call makes me feel so safe...I’m so sorry I wasn’t enough to keep you from pulling away

Lauren, I trusted you. I loved you. Even knowing all that, you still cut off communication. You don't know how many times I've cried over the fact that we stopped talking, but then got excited because I saw that you snapped me again. Everytime your name pops up on my screen, I instantly feel happy. I can't say that I'm over you...or maybe I will never be, but I am on my way to be better. I miss you. Very much.

I think about you all the time. I miss you. Just come back! come back into my arms where you are safe and loved...

I think about you all the time. I miss you. Just come back! come back into my arms where you are safe and loved...

your eye contact made me feel like i was sleeping. there is a reason i am exhausted all the time now. i haven't had dreams in awhile but i still see the color of your eyes everytime i close mine.