Unsent messages to KELLEN

even after everything i’d still give you another chance and i feel so bad ab myself for that.

Your eyes are gorgeous, your smile makes me smile too.
I love you.

Even when I’m with him I can’t help but have you on my mind.

do you think of me when you wrap your arms around her?

I waited 5 months for that hug, i think of you everyday.

thinkin bout you

Lowkey would go out with you if you asked but you like her now. If you date her Ill be happy for you

Loving you was a mistake.

Might have a thing for you.

i hate to think that i miss you

i dont know what to do anymore. my best friends tell me that i like you, and that i make it very obvious that i like you, but do i really like you? i love talking to you, you're my best friend but dont you think you should talk to your girlfriend more? rather than your best friend who's constantly thinking about you, wondering if she likes you. you always make me laugh, we act like a married couple over the phone, always talking about weird things, planning a future together such as going to a college near each other so we can visit each other...kellen i have no clue what to do, you're giving me so many mixed signals. some sick part of me wants you to breakup with your girlfriend, but she's so awesome! you guys have been dating for a year! school letters are coming out later this month and everything would change if i got into the same school you're in. i dont know what it feels like to like anyone anymore but i always catch myself smiling when we're texting each other. you're the only guy im ever comfortable around. you always know how to make me feel better even when you dont know that something is wrong. you're my twin flame, we instantly clicked. we have so much in common from character traits and our way of thinking all the way down to where our moles/ beauty marks are that im convinced we knew each other very well in our past lives. we have our telepathic moments, its as if we have the same brain. sometimes i cant even imagine a future without you in it, please tell me what to do.

why did you leave that voicemail? why do you have to make my life so fucking hard. i wish we didn’t end up like this.

I've liked you since 8th grade, and the fact that you like her now. Just remember who was there for you first and who would actually treat you good.

When should I tell you that you like someone that is racist, homophobic, doesn't support BLM, and supports trump?

i liked you since you were the scrawny guy in sixth grade, you didn’t seem interested then and i find it silly i thought you would be now. i know your going places. part of me was hoping it would be with me, but i’m proud of how much you are accomplishing. i maybe could’ve loved you.

i feel like this is our color bc i've noticed you've started wearing it more often since i mentioned 2 your sis i liked it. i still have feelings for you, and i feel like you do too. i don't know, i just kinda feel like we r connected? eye contact. every time we make eye contact my heart stops. every time i see a post about love, or heartbreak, longing, anything really, i think of you. its always been you, you, you. kinda pathetic. but i just am scared that i will never love someone else just because they arent you. i don't even know why my soul is so... into you. its not physical attraction. something deeper and i know it. you are a really hard person to read, did u know that? hahah. when we talk which is rarely i kinda like how you kinda cant help yourself from smiling. and i cant either. its funny, isn't it? that i, the loud, exciting annoying one is in love with the shy, quiet, guy. there has to be more to our story. i feel like it was a right person, wrong time thing back then. it was, ive grown a lot and happy with who i am. i feel like you have too. its crazy, almost every memory i have with you is etched in my brain even when i didn't try to remember it. i know exactly when and where we met. right before you went onto the court. we didn't even know each other but i said good luck. you said thanks. over a year ago. i think at this point it'll always be you. your vibe, the way you walk, your lack of emotions sometimes, the way you hit, your voice, YOUR VOICE, i just love it all. i'm really not even trying to like you. it is just in my heart. i think its in yours too. hopefully i see you at group tomorrow.

you hurt me so bad. i cant look at myself the same after what you did to me. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.

i wish you hadn't led me on, and i wish you had just told me you never liked me at all, but i still hate myself for liking you, and wanting to pickup that phone and call you.

Your laugh is the cutest thing I've ever heard. When you walk in a room with that smile, my heart stops. All I've ever wanted was to hold you in my arms until time stopped.

I have found myself constantly drawn to you since we met and I know you have been drawn to me as-well. I think what keeps us apart is the universe’s plans for our future. We are both so interconnected in so many ways. All in good time, I love you.