Unsent Messages

i feel like this is our color bc i've noticed you've started wearing it more often since i mentioned 2 your sis i liked it. i still have feelings for you, and i feel like you do too. i don't know, i just kinda feel like we r connected? eye contact. every time we make eye contact my heart stops. every time i see a post about love, or heartbreak, longing, anything really, i think of you. its always been you, you, you. kinda pathetic. but i just am scared that i will never love someone else just because they arent you. i don't even know why my soul is so... into you. its not physical attraction. something deeper and i know it. you are a really hard person to read, did u know that? hahah. when we talk which is rarely i kinda like how you kinda cant help yourself from smiling. and i cant either. its funny, isn't it? that i, the loud, exciting annoying one is in love with the shy, quiet, guy. there has to be more to our story. i feel like it was a right person, wrong time thing back then. it was, ive grown a lot and happy with who i am. i feel like you have too. its crazy, almost every memory i have with you is etched in my brain even when i didn't try to remember it. i know exactly when and where we met. right before you went onto the court. we didn't even know each other but i said good luck. you said thanks. over a year ago. i think at this point it'll always be you. your vibe, the way you walk, your lack of emotions sometimes, the way you hit, your voice, YOUR VOICE, i just love it all. i'm really not even trying to like you. it is just in my heart. i think its in yours too. hopefully i see you at group tomorrow.