Unsent messages to GRANDAD

i miss you, hope you're enjoying your tea and shortbread at your tea party in the sky, love you x

It’s been 6 months and something is telling me your coming back grandad I love and miss you so much

I miss you so so so much and I wish I could of spent more time with you in your final months.

I regret the time i didn’t spend with you

I wish you cared.

I miss you so much and I am just so sorry. Thank you for everything. I love you

I miss you so much. I miss our calls. Everything is so hard now you’re not here with me.

the stupid think making me miss you today? you died before you could accept my facebook friend request. it’ll sit there forever now saying ‘cancel request’ and now there’s no way i can get you back.

I never got to say goodbye, I never got to see you funeral. At least all the trauma I got from you dying and after that made me funny

hey haha. uhh i never really got to know you all that well bc you died when i was like 6 so i never got to know you that well but uhhh ily dude hope you're doing well up there. i've heard you were a nice person. i think you were.

since have you gone...about 1 year& half ago. I’ve been constantly trying to fill the hole In my heart

please come back.

i can’t do this without you.

my life is so empty and i am struggling to keep going.

im sorry for disappointing you, you were always my biggest fan and im letting you down even in death.

please come back.

i miss you.

- christy (your lil chickadee❤️)

hi you’re never going to read this and that both fills me with dread and also relief. you would be so ashamed of what i’ve become.

i will never forgive myself for not saying goodbye when i had the chance, im sorry for disappointing you, all i ever wanted to do was make you proud..but now that you’re gone I have nothing left to give.

my life is this empty shell that i don’t care for & i think there will always be a part of me that hates you for dying, you know my fear of being abandoned by my loved ones and whilst i know you would never do this intentionally you left me in the worst way.

anyway i love you, i hate life without you but i have made my peace with the fact this emptiness is my new forever feeling, i won’t ever recover from this loss and my life without you is so meaningless.

i guess what i want to say most is please don’t forget me, you made me into who i am today & i miss you more than anything.

– christy

i miss you too fucking much. i would give everything to see you again. i hope youre proud of me. i know im not the little ****** that you knew me as but i hope you dont mind. my heart will always hurt when i think of you and i dont know how i feel right now but i just know i miss you. stay safe angel i love you

hi grandad i really really miss you and im sorry for when i disappoint you. recently it just feels like i'm slipping away and its like i just loathe myself more and more everyday but i cant tell anyone because i cant be a burden because people have their own problems right? i just wish you were here i'd love to flip on your tummy again. hopefully i'll see you again one day i love you and i'm sorry i never said a proper goodbye

the hardest part about you leaving is knowing that i could have done more to make you stay. i wish i’d been more grateful for you. i love you more than anyway and thank you for teaching me what love looks like

Not my romantic first love, but the only person that taught me how to love and how to care for people. God bless you. I miss you. I love you.

I don’t know if you remember our last conversation - you said I was useless. You might be gone but that conversation will never go. I know you think I’m going nowhere because I went to art college. You thought me that self belief is so important because no one else cares, but I shouldn’t have had to learn that from family. I hope you’re up there smiling. Self belief made me a CEO grandad and I’m happy. I hope you finally are too. Forever your loving granddaughter

I don’t know if you remember our last conversation - you said I was useless. You might be gone but that conversation will never go. I know you think I’m going nowhere because I went to art college. You thought me that self belief is so important because no one else cares, but I shouldn’t have had to learn that from family. I hope you’re up there smiling. Self belief made me a CEO grandad and I’m happy. I hope you finally are too. Forever your loving granddaughter

I miss you so much. Everything is so quiet without you. Playing games with nanny and just longing for you to be there aches the most. The amount of stories and memories I could share with you. Just come back