Unsent messages to JORGE

i love you. please start loving yourself too. I can't live with the thoughts that you won't be there the next time i try to talk to you again

Hey jorge I just wanted to check in on you to see how you are doing and i wanted to tell you i still care about you and you cross my mind sometimes but ever since we broke up my life has been but better because our relationship was so toxic and I couldn't handle it anymore. But I do miss being around you sometimes cause Ive always loved your personality. :)

i miss you so much man i was so happy....you hurt me and i still send sorry. i want to kiss you again please come back one day

i miss you so much man i was so happy....you hurt me and i still send sorry. i want to kiss you again please come back one day

hey Jorge... I miss you so much, I miss everything we had, I'm so sorry I ruined everything and I still love you. ill always love you, I never want you to leave me, I wish everything would go back the way it was you made me so happy and I miss that so much. I cant find anyone the same like you and I think of you all the time. I miss you please come back.. ill always love you.

I hate you so much ! I let you into a spot that no one came into. I gave you all my love and you only used me for my body. You manipulated me into sending you them. That you were sad and were depressed but at the end you weren't any of that. You left me broken. I am haven't been able to look at my self the same. You pointed out every little detail and made them bad. You even had friends with benefits and thought it was okay. I knew it was a sign but chose to ignore it. You just said it was nothing. Then after convincing myself that I was just overreacting and poured myself to u. You Kicked me to the curb and Got with that friend and now I'm broken and you are just fine. Fuck you Jorge S.

i miss you. i've ever felt this way about someone before, i think i love you. why won't you say it back. why cant you just feel the same way about me. i can't get you out of my mind, i miss you.

I wished you noticed me and at least maybe got close to being friends even thought I wanted to say more than I ever said. Maybe if I said something before I would’ve had a chance but did I even from the start

Today I listened to our song after five years. I know it's been a while, but I think I will always love you.

Que sepas que, a pesar de todo el daño que me has hecho, si aparecieses el día de mi boda con otra persona y me dijeses que me fuera contigo, lo haría, porque no creo que pueda querer tanto a alguien como te quiero a ti. Para mi, has sido y eres todo. Solo quiero verte feliz porque es lo único que puede calmar mi dolor.

Definitivamente has sido mi primer amor. Eras diferente y eso me enamoró. Siempre vas a tener un hueco en mi corazón aunque tú ya no me tengas en el tuyo. Te voy a querer siempre a pesar de todo.

Por muchos años que hayan pasado, y por muchos chicos nuevos a los que yo haya conocido, si me metiese en una habitación con todos te miraría a ti. Te elegiría a ti. Siempre serás tú y no sé ni por qué pero lo siento así.

Fuiste el amor de mi vida, ese con el que sientes electricidad, una conexión instantánea nada más conocerlo. Perdi la cabeza como una niña, fuiste lo más bonito y doloroso que me paso.
Ojalá todo hubiera funcionado, a veces aun pienso y si...

Ojalá algún día arreglemos esto que nos separa. A veces te echo de menos y aunque he encontrado el amor, nunca me olvido de tu mirada.
Si realmente somos el uno para el otro, el destino nos unirá. Y si no, espero que alguien te cuide y te haga feliz como yo no supe hacerlo. Lo siento por romperte el corazón, han pasado varios años pero aún me sigo acordando de ti.

Una parte de mi te ama y siempre te llevara en mi corazón pero otra te odia por haberme lastimado tanto, eres eso que jamás podra contar por que nunca he tenido una idea de que fuimos ni que somos.

Idk if you’re the one who said you wished you could still talk to me but it doesn’t seem like a possibility- but you can. I promise you can. I would answer you any and everyday just to tell you about how my life is now. I promise I would still answer. Please if you’re seeing this let’s just have a conversation about how beautiful life is now because I would really really love that. I think about you and your family everyday. Please don’t be scared to reach out.

Desde que te fuiste no a pasado ni un día que no te recuerde, te extraño y esperó volver a verte en otra vida, te quiero jorch❤

No se si después de todos estos años tendré el valor de decirte por fin lo que siento por ti. Todos desde siempre han dicho que nos gustamos, que porque no lo intentamos. A veces pienso que si tiene futuro, pero otras veces siento que no significo ni nunca he significado nada para ti. Me sigo acordando a veces de esa excursión con el instituto, acepto que los dos estábamos genial juntos y tenía muchas ganas de besarte pero por no atreverme a hacerlo se quedó así y no pasó nada. También me acuerdo de aquel día que tocaste la guitarra en clase y me miraste en un instante y me sonreiste, era maravilloso como mobias tus dedos por las cuerdas. En ocasiones me sigo sintiendo así contigo, así de feliz.
Dudo que en algún momento me olvide de ti, loor lo menos de tu colonia, o de ese momento en el que te cambio la voz, tampoco de tus chorradas pero siempre te recordaré como una de las mejores personas que he conocido, aunque veces seas un borde conmigo.

Jamas voy a olvidar el momento en el que fuimos uno , ese instante donde solo existiamos tu y yo. Pero la realidad nos separó

Cuando todo se pone mal, quiero volver a ti. Eras como el hermano que nunca tuve y ojalá la vida algún día me dé a alguien como tú, pero que no me haga lo que me hiciste al final

Porque cada vez que me miras el mundo se me derriba? Me prometí a mi misma que te olvidaría, pero como lo voy a hacer, si todos los días me vienes con esos ojos de cordero, que transparentan el alma misma?

Por fin he conseguido entender que no se trataba de tiempo sino de intensidad, ya se que es tarde, pero mejor tarde que nunca.

i used to come on here and tell you how much i loved you. how much i missed you. how sorry i was for everything. how i would wait for you forever. but honestly im so done with that. im done waiting on you and im done being sorry. because i was a child going through grown up shit and you KNEW that, it was YOUR decision to get involved with me. im not sorry for any of that. im sorry for the way my mental health used to effect you, yeah, and im sorry i would take things out on you. im not sorry about my life. you should be sorry for walking into it, putting me into your family when you knew i didn't have one, and then ripping that out from under me. and im done waiting on you. im done being paitent im done trying to wait on your relationship with her to be over i am DONE. i am finally letting you go. because it's been 2 years. its beem just as long since you would talk to me and have a normal conversation with me because everytime you've talked to me since the break up you've treated me like a fucking child and im so done with that to because all i wasever doing was checking up on you and making sure you were okay. i fucked up, i wont lie- but you fucked up worse. you lost the downest bitch ever, somebody who held it down for you even when their own life was falling into fucking pieces. and i used to want you to see that so bad i wanted to show out for you so bad to let you know what you lost and how much better i am now. but im glad you dont realize. because you are not the type of person i want to be with. not anymore. i get people grown and change, but your whole morals and values have changed, and i just cant fuck with it. and i know that if you were to hit me up my heart just might not let me ignore you. im grateful for us meeting. you showed me what love was and what not to do in a relationship. but now, everything that im holding onto for you, its blocking my blessings. real blessings of people who ACTUALLY love me and care about me and would willingly go to hell and back with me- people who deal with my mental health and life struggles every day. the ups and downs. something you just couldnt do. i hope youre happy now though. i really do. thats all i have ever wanted for you. and i cant wait to see you in the mlb in a couple years playing for the sox. while its a damn shame it wont be us together, thats what you chose, and i cant keep dwelling on that. i hope youre doing great because im doing beautiful. you were my first love so youll be in my heart forever, but i gotta let you go now jorgie. i have to.

I miss you so much everyday, but I’m so glad you’re happy now- with everything I put you through, you deserve it.

i sometimes wonder if it was the brokenness that drove you away i wish i could have been happier for you

my heart will always belong to you. you helped me at my lowest and for that i will be forever grateful.

i don’t think that i’ll ever stop loving you and that’s what hurts the most because i know you don’t care anymore.

I don’t know why you’ve done the things you’ve done or wether you choose to ignore me but I hope you’re well. Nice person wrong time ? Ik you see me but for now just be safe and you know my socials

Hey... there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about you. I want to get you out of my mind and move on but I can’t. The worst part is that we never even dated and I’m not sure if you ever felt that way about me, so I’m stuck with the what if. I have a feeling you’re seeing someone else and I’m so happy you found someone, but’s it’s killing me inside. Especially that I know the person you’re going out with and we all work together... I want to quit so bad because I can’t bear to see you anymore and not be with you. But I should have known from the beginning, I look so stupid for caring so much when you hardly ever checked up on or even text me. I wish you nothing but happiness, I truly mean that. You mean so much to me.
Don’t forget about me when you make it big!!!
P.s I love you

you broke me in ways that I could have never imagined but also because of you I’m stronger than ever and back on my feet.

I don’t know how to like or love anyone because of you i’ve hurt people cause I thought you would change but you never did
so... FUCK YOU

i never want to forget what we had, please stay forever even if it's in my head. i wish i can turn back time and fix what i broke.

Odio extrañarte cuando estoy en mis peores, me hace pensar si te sientes igual y no hay nadie a quien contarle

I’m so sorry for today. I know I told myself that distancing myself from you was to protect myself, but I can’t do it. I saw you today and I completely treated you like you weren’t there. It hurt me so bad to make you feel that way. I still care for you and I still want to be your friend. I don’t care if I get hurt in the end as long as you are happy. I hope you can forgive me.

i miss you more than you can imagine, i really think we are meant to be with each other, i hope we get back together.