Nunca pensé que alguien pudiera hacerme tan feliz y que esa misma persona fuera capaz de hacerme tanto daño y que ni siquiera se diera cuenta, aunque llorando le decía que lo hacia. Sabes el dia en que acepte y que me convencí de que era la mejor decision comencé a odiarte y eso significaba que ya no te amaba. Con el tiempo te perdone, deje de llorar, de sufrir por lo que no fue, era tiempo de avanzar y dejar de pensar en eso, porque di hasta la ultima gatita de mi en una relación que se habia muerto hace mucho tiempo y por la que me perdí yo, asi que era hora de volver a ser yo, de ser feliz conmigo misma y sabes me costo trabajo pero lo logre aun cuando todo respecto a mi salud era incertidumbre y cosas mas buenas que malas, supongo que concentre en eso para dejar de pensarte. Ya no significas nada en mi vida y los recuerdos se han borrado de mi, pero quiero recordar la clase de persona que fuiste para nunca mas en mi vida volver a cruzarme contigo. Buen camino, pero no vuelvas nunca mas en tu vida.

You saw my scars, at some point of our relationship you made stars out of them. Later ones I had to put on bandaids again

i cried the last night i saw you bc i knew you were suddenly going to be my past and never again going to be my future. it was like a weight off my shoulders.

No matter what happens between us just know i did truly love you and i will always care about you :) please don't give ever give up ill always be here if you need me

I love you bub, always have, always will. please don’t give up on us. you’re my other half. I love you baby.

i really hope things didnt end on bad terms, but happy moments are so much happier with you and sad ones are so much more depressing. i hope you’re happy with the girl you used to talk shit about, you lost your virginity to her.. i wonder what she had that i don’t.

when you left, it killed me. now that you've reached out and we're talking again, everything came rushing back. i feel like i'm back in 8th grade. please don't leave again.

You saw me when I was miserable and didn’t even ask if I was okay, I cried for hours and you wouldn’t notice when I went on holiday.

i loved you, i stayed up just to text you but you didn’t answer back, i liked when we called, it just made me happy, now your matching your pfp with her’s, even though we’re friends, it still hurts.

sometimes I miss you but not in a relationship way. I wish we could've stayed friends that would've been dope. um swag ig

when i kissed you i thought i loved you. but then i saw you with her, and realized i’ll never be good enough for you :(

je ne sais pas trop comment l'exprimer en anglais donc je vais écrire en français, je suis désolé à l'avance. si tu veux, tu pourras essayer de le traduire sur internet (malgré le fait que je me doute bien que tu vois ce message un jour). jonathan, malgré la distance qui nous sépare, je suis tomber en amour avec toi. enfin, je crois. il y a jamais personne qui m'a traiter avec autant de gentillesse et de douceur que toi. tu étais dans mes pensées tout le temps, je voulais crier ton nom sur tous les toits tellement que j'étais heureuse, je voulais devenir quelqu'un d'important dans ta vie. honnêtement, je ne sais même pas si c'était réciproque. je crois que oui car quand je repense à toutes nos conversations pendant l'été, elles allaient parfois au dessus du niveau d'amitié. on parlait du fait que tu allais venir me visiter et vice-versa. mais après, tu t'es détaché de moi. sans me donner d'explications. tu avais l'air plus froid et moins intéressé. tu gardais tes réponses courtes. je ne sais pas pourquoi tu as fais ça. était-ce à cause de moi? le jour que j'ai appris que tu étais revenu sur le site de rencontre où on s'est rencontrer, j'ai eu l'impression que tout a chamboulé. je sais que nous n'avions aucun statut officiel entre nous deux et que rien ne s'était passé de spécial mais je veux que tu comprennes à quel point ça m'a blesser. je voulais être la seule que tu trouvais jolie. je voulais être la seule que tu faisais des blagues avec. je voulais être la seule qui te faisait des playlist. je voulais être la seule dans ton cœur. je n'aurais jamais dû m'attacher aussi vite et ce, aussi fort à toi. je sais que "je t'aime" est un terme un peu extrême mais je t'appréciais beaucoup et je pensais déjà à des plans futurs ensemble. est-ce qu'elle te rend plus heureuse? est-ce que ton humeur va mieux? je ne crois pas avoir réponse à ses questions. je veux juste que tu sois heureux. c'est tout ce qui m'importe. malgré ma jalousie, je veux que tu saches que je t'aimais. je t'aime jonathan. je ne vais jamais t'oublier et j'espère que c'est de même aussi.

It's been 3 years now.

I miss the way you'd rest your chin on top of my head, how you'd squeeze my sides, how you'd make me feel safe. I think we met too soon. I think I wasn't ready and the circumstances just weren't right. I hate that we never got a moment alone. I hate that we never kissed. I'm sorry I didn't communicate properly, maybe we'd still be together. I'm sorry I could never see you outside of school. I really was the problem. But I'm better now and I'm so close to being free. I count the days until I'm hundreds of miles away from here. Can we try again?

Please?

not a day goes by where i don’t think abt you. i really hope your happy. all i ever wanted was for you to be happy. imy bubba

I've never wanted to marry a human being as much as you and I would spend the rest of my life loving you.

All I ever wanted was for you to believe you’re deserving of love and that you are good enough please please please don’t believe what your parents say

is it that hard to be honest and jus tell the truth?. u rlly have to hurt someone to the point that they have tried comitting 3 times so that u can have 2 females at the same time, that fucking childish

I don’t blame you for leaving, I blame myself for creating an idea of you in my head that didn’t exist

its almost been three months since you took your own life and i still think about you every day. i never understood what people meant when they said that but i finally get it. i wish i didn’t but it is what it is. thank you for being my best friend. i still blame myself, i know i shouldn’t but i can’t help but remember how rough our friendship was at the end of your life. i forgive you, it’s been hard and i am definitely still mad at you but i forgive you for taking your own life. tomorrow is halloween, your favorite holiday. i know ur excited to be a ghost this year and i hope you get to get your spooky on. thanks for being the best friend a kid could ask for.

I don't know what happened. I was happy and I thought you were too. I knew this would happen but I wanted to believe you were the one. We had everything planned. I thought things went well at the pumpkin patch. I don't know where I went wrong. I feel stupid for believing your lies. I should've never let my guard down. I can't trust anyone anymore thanks to you. Thanks :/

I wished you woud of treated me better. You are toxic to me but i still and will always love you with all my heart. It hurts when you accuse me of texting other guys or talking to them. I dont understand why you dont let me dress in shorts or anything that shows too much skin even tho its not that much you can see.

You’re the one.I know I’m young but I swear you’re the one...please trust me and have patience... I’m trying my best.don’t give up.

sometimes I talk to god about you for you to come back , but your happy with someone else and that shit hurts me the most

Hi lol, it's been awhile since we talked. You probably don't care if we are in speaking conditions or not but it hurts me that we don't communicate anymore. I know that we never actually dated or anything but I really did love you a lot and even though I tell myself that I don't deep down I still do. You were and still are the only guy that made me feel some type of way. I know that I'm not your first love but you're mine. When I told you I loved you I meant it. Losing you was the hardest thing to overcome. I thought we would be more than friends. I guess good things have to come to an end eventually. I wished that you still had feelings for me. If you would've texted me I would've responded in a heartbeat. Every single time I get a notification I wished it was from you... I think about you when I got to bed and when I wake up. When you probably could care less if I was dead or alive. I told you I was always gonna be there for you and I still mean it. I want to check up on you but that's not my place anymore. My love for you wan't fake. I never would've thought that you would be this important in my life lol. I even told my family about you... and then you leave my life a week later lmaooo. I can't like other guys because they're just not you. I look for you in every guy but they're NOT you. I miss the way you used to make feel. You made me feel butterflies.I still remember all the things you said to me. I miss you so goddam much. I would do anything just to talk to you again.

hi, i really dislike you, but i still keep finding a way back to you. I wish you felt the way i did for you but you don't :,).

I hope you’re okay. Your mom is insane and she controls all parts of your life. I hope you can break free. That’s what broke our relationship.

So we haven't talked in forever and that's okay. You messed me up I trusted you and loved you but here we are. We were family and you betrayed me. Its understandable to some extent but come on you didnt have to talk about me when I wasnt there to defend myself. I thought you were better someone different but i guess I was wrong. I hope your happy really I truly do. I just wanted to say this because I never got to say good bye so this is what this is Good Bye.

Hi jonathan, i know your straight which is what makes this whole thing harder but i just wanted you to know that i fell in love with you the first day i met you, and when you got a girlfriend it broke my heart, but i got over it because that sorta thing was bound to happen anyway. I love you, but you are not mine, and i cant control that so i have to let you go.

I loved you when we were in elementary but you left. I saw you again in middle school but all you did to me was to laugh at me and make fun of me, it made me so insecure. Then High school came along and I thought you were more mature but no you were the same person that was in middle school was. Then we entered college and you finally gave me a chance and we started to date for a couple of month then became years. But last year was the worst year ever because I found out that all those years I was lied. I also found out that those years we were dating was all for a dare. a FUCKING DARE. we broke up the next day and then a year later from the break up you called me to tell me that it was a dare when we started to date but he ended up loving me but I didn't believe you. you kept insisting so we got back together but that was the worse decision ever, our relationship became toxic and fucked up my mental health was also fucked up. We broke up months later because I had enough of it and I don't regret breaking up with you. I am doing fine now, I learn how to love myself, and that I don't need no man to make me feel better.

I know you want to stay friends. It hurts to see you moving on whilst still acting the same as before.

i still carry hope in my heart that u will come back to me one day. i haven’t stopped thinking abt u since the day u left me for her.

I wish i never begged you to stay. now i wish i could tell you how glad i am that you left. i’m finding myself. finally.

although it’s not my fault i really wish we would’ve met at the right time, and that you would’ve been patient. but i’m happy now, you’ve helped me figure out what’s good for me. his names kyle and he’s the one.

I loved you I really did but you chose not to believe it. I don’t know if you didn’t trust me, or if you were scared of your feelings or if it was him? But you broke me. You made your decision and you made mine easier so now it is. It is him. It will always be him. You hated him and prayed it wasn’t going to be him. But it is and always will be. what we had was a love story but what him and I have well that’s true love. You screwed and lost me forever. Let that sink in.

i still make scenarios with you in my head, and it feels like you still here.
it's better this way x

thank you for actually caring. it means the world to me. you will never see this but that made me feel like i have something. thank you so much for checking up on me randomly today. the only person who has asked if i was okay. and you really really wanted to know. but thank you.

we've known each other since we were kids. You were my childhood crush, always asked me if I was okay. But we lost connection and now you have a gf. I'm happy for you, honest. But I question myself, what if we never lost our connection? Would we be something now?

ik i was such an asshole to you but jus know that I actually loveyou and i always will and im always here for you no matter what...

I know your dad never taught you things he should teach his son, but i know you will teach our children

I’m not mad that you don’t want me. I’m mad that sometimes you act like you do to take advantage of the soft spot I have for you because you know in the end I’ll come running back to you.

you leaving wasn't what hurt the most, it was you turning all my friends against me which keeps me up at night

i knew you manipulated my feelings against me but I still followed you into the deep end and dove heart first

i still dont know if i liked u fr or not. I still think about u, and i wish i wasnt so mean. You did not deserve it. I know u have moved on, but i havent.

when we went our separate ways i realized how ugly you treated me but i still love you and nothing will change how i feel about you.

you help me break down my walls and see me for my soul and not just my anxiety, but i know you dont feel the same way about me

I long for a deeper connection

I wish you would realize how terrible you're being and how this will end.

i think i will still remember you everyday for the rest of my life. it hurts bad

You're everything anf I'm nothing. I'm suprised you ever wanted to talk to me

I love you so much and I'm sorry for leaving you