Unsent messages to JOCELYN

So yea as i was saying you did mean alot to me i just pretended you didn’t because i coudnt deal with those feelings anymore i didn’t know why i had those feelings everytime you hugged me i felt happy because u brought me happiness because you were the only person who really cared out of everyone i felt your love as a friend the most it was real every-time you came around for a hug i would panic you just meant so much to mean to the point i couldn't function around you and yes i did notice your smile fade & the face of disappointment when i wouldn't give you the same affection back it was hard seeing your smile fade but everything in me did want too
i think we both made eachother happy i know you made me complete but your the reason why i love hugs now you taught me so much honestly but it’s hard to find someone that hugs the same way you did everytime your around me i forget how to properly function because those memories will always mean so much to me even if i don’t feel this way anymore it’s like still there but not and the feeling of regret i had.. but i learned to appreciate those who make me a better person like u did i just didn’t appreciate you at all i treated you like garbage i just hated my self i didn’t know how to show u affection the way u did i didn’t know how to make you happy the way u made me happy it angered me i wish we would of keeped that connection that made us both happy it was our sparkle ❇️ But at the end of the day i left u but wish you the best and keep being the light to people worlds like u we’re mine -..

i’m unsure of your name now, last time i checked you said you were trans but still unsure. we were just in the 2nd grade. you left the same year. to be honest you made me who i am now. you introduced me to Melanie Martinez. now every time i listen to her i remember you. you had this big crush on this one guy and you threatened to kill his girl bestfriend (she was actually a lesbian) i miss you. you and your messy black hair, beautiful brown/green eyes, you and your craziness. everyone thought you were absolutely crazy and i just thought i was absolutely crazy for you. we haven’t talked in years. if we talked again i think i would just fall for you all over again.

- the girl you showed the song “Dollhouse” to

Thank you for being my person. You've been by my side for as long as I can remember. You've persevere through all of my stupidity (which I am most thankful for (jk) BUT hey I'm funny sort of) I'm grateful to have someone in my life as loving and considerate as you are. You deserve the whole earth, moon and the stars. Maybe even the sun hahaha. I cannot thank you enough for continuously being the person I call my best-friend. Thank you and I love you forever & always. To more memories :) Happy New Years bud

with you. i am heavily disappointed. i know you loved me just as much as i loved you i just dont understand why you couldnt show it. i know youve been hurt before but why didnt you stop it from happening again? you couldve but you missed. i you hurt as bad as i am currently.

you asked when did i stop liking you.. i dont know.. maybe i still like you. maybe i dont. do i still like you.. its weird.. youre weird. i like that. i love you. i still like you.

i hate how jealous i am. im a terrible friend. i hate my mind. i hate how i think. i over think. its bad. i love you. i miss you. i wish i was with you. youre the best person anyone can ask for. the first time i held your hand, i thought it was the best thing ever. remember when we went to go get pasta and we went home living like there was no tomorrow. i miss those days. i miss you.

I love spending time with you; thank you for being spontaneous. P.S this is gonna be corny, but I get sad when guys treat you like shit. I want you to be happy. Love u

I like you, and I hate that I couldn’t be what you wanted at that time. But now I think it’s too late

i trusted you with everthing you were my bestfriend and i loved you so much and you fucking left i want you to come back so bad man just please

that hurted. u know. its been six months but all i feel is the pain u gave me and my whole family. why. i just want to know why. i dont want to see u. pls i never want to see u. ill just cry.

I ended things because I was just a kid and I felt like your baggage was too much for me. And you deserve better.

he would reincarnate as someone who could love you the way you deserved. someone who didn’t push you away, and just maybe… you could love one another again

ur a smelly little cheese girl. you make me so happy and i hope we last because there is so much stuff I want to do together, u n me. i love you. i only want you. if u ever see this no u didnt cheesy feet girl.

hey bae, im honestly going to really miss you. i dont think it shows much but yeah i will miss you sooo much. im crying rn but i hope we ft again soon. its been a while. i hope ur ok.. i love you

hey bae, im honestly going to really miss you. i dont think it shows much but yeah i will miss you sooo much. im crying rn but i hope we ft again soon. its been a while. i hope ur ok.. i love you