Unsent messages to JAYDEN

we were young when we fell in love, honestly i miss it, we both ignore the fact that we loved each other, i want acknowledge it so bad but i don’t want to lose you all over again

I miss you.. Just text me plz I wanna try it again and i just love you and I keep thinking of you a lot just come back.

I still pray for you, and some part of my heart will always belong to you,I wish we could have been all I dreamed about but I know my heart desires more ,don’t forget I’ll always love you

sometimes I think about our dream of us living in a small apartment, and how you said you'd want to live somewhere near the ocean so we could go together. a humbling memory.

we would always say that things would be better "once we do __" but we couldnt hold it together until we reached those milestones. sometimes i wish we had.

I didn't realise I loved you until we never spoke again. Because of you, I hate the word 'maybe,' the uncertainty of it, the indecisiveness. But I loved you anyway.

Fuck you. Fuck you for making me believe you were the one. Fuck you for shattering my heart into pieces.

Me and you were all shades of grey. Thank you for breaking my heart, I've now lost all the weight you forced into me.

I realised, thinking about you at 2am every night that you were special to me, something i really cant replace. im sorry. i miss you

i wanted to say i miss you more than ever. i should have said or done something because now it may be to late, see you in another life... ig it wasnt ment to be right??

you were the first boy i ever loved. you didn’t need to break my heart like that. you don’t know how much pain you’ve caused me.

Im sorry we destroyed each other and that i was the one who mainly did it. I know you will never forgive me, Im sorry

It hurt when I found out you didn't want to be friends anymore, and it hurt when I saw you laughing with your new ones. But now, I'm glad to see you surrounded by people who will make you smile.

I miss you. I miss our friendship, and how you’d always call me for advice abt how to talk to my best friends cause you liked her, and it hurt me, but I still loved talking to you. I miss your jokes, and our inside jokes. I miss in class you always talking to me.

why cant u understand that i just want u and its crazy sounding but j im so in love with u im whole heartedly in love u i could never my life with anyone else i just want u to realize that im the best ur gonna get and i dont care if you paint ur nails and have long hair your the light at the end of my tunnel u make me so genuinely happy i havent been this happy in forever pls just realize that you want me cause my love for u made me realize that love is real

bro, you mess me up. messed my mental heath up so badly. your laughed at me cutting, laughed at me crying, and laughed at me when i was sad. you never cared. not at all. you lied. you hurt me. you hurt everyone around me. i hate you so much. but at the same time i love you. i love you a lot. its been 5 months. yet. i still love you. 5 months yet those 5 months your kept me happy. little did i know.. you where manipulating me the whole time. though you hurt me, i will never forget about you. so, thank you. thank you for teaching me that im more valid then a rat (your the rat :D)

I am proud that you have studied for the last 12 hours straight. You are inspiring me to study harder

i’m back on here. second day. this website helps sooo much. he texted me saying “i think i found the one”. i really wish i was “the one”. i get it, it’s a boy, it doesn’t matter but to me he matters the most. he’s my exit from everything. he’s so amazing and gets “played” by girls. i just want him to have someone who’s not gonna leave him or break him. yeah his name starts with a J (J’s are toxic) but this one. oh man this J. he’s so kind , sweet , loving , amazing , & so much more. it’s just he’s letting girls break his heart bc he doesn’t know his worth, he doesn’t know how much he’s worth. those girls he’s tried to date or talk to left him and broke him without caring about his feelings. i want a girl for him, not just any girl, a girl who cares more about his personality than looks. he has the heart and looks. if you don’t know what a “yellow” is it’s basically a person who makes you happy. he’s my yellow, i know we started being friends like 3 weeks ago but he’s so amazing and kind. i’m saying that too much but you really don’t know how he is , that’s why i’m saying that multiple times. he’s able to talk to me like we’ve known each other for like ever. i want you to know that i care so so so so so much about you. i’ll be here , for ever.

I've long moved on from you, but I miss feeling stable love. You're the only person that gave me that

i dont know where i went wrong but i really want to get to know you better as a person and be involved with you and your life

i fell in love with you. you’ve hurt me so much now. i still love you though. you told me i was overreacting twice. i remember it very well. i was telling you how i felt about you being distant and you told me i was over reacting. yet i still love you. you’re my everything

i fell in love with you. you’ve hurt me so much now. i still love you though. you told me i was overreacting twice. i remember it very well. i was telling you how i felt about you being distant and you told me i was over reacting. yet i still love you. you’re my everything

you're such a shitty person but I always saw the best in you when no one else would and now I see why you are shit

You are special to me. I know i will never be special to you but thank you for coming into my life. I love you so much I hope you know that. I wish you can see how much you mean to me. I never knew i would get so attach to you. Never thought I would be talking to you. I wanna let you go so bad. But I can’t right now. I hope the person that has your attention right now treats you right. I hope your dreams come true.

I loved the way your blue and green eyes glimmered in the sun, and that smile that lit my face. Your hugs were infinite and i miss you, but things happen for a reason. i have to let go

You were here when I needed you the most. Now all I have is your ghost and the scent of you on my skin.

I just want to tell you about what I have overcome with my mental health. You would be so proud. I miss you...

i depended so much on your love, it broke me. why couldn't you commit and choose me. you always liked her, it was never truly me. thank you for making me realize that i deserve more than what you gave me.

you were a bitch to me. I still act like we are cool but you can go suck my dick. You put me through hell in 7th grade and I hope I never see you again. You helped my eating disorder form from 7th grade from what you said with your friends to look cool. You really tried to look cool. You apologized and I just said it was okay but in fact, I went home that day and cried for hours. My birthday was the next day and I couldn't even eat anything at the lunch table. People bought me food for my birthday and I gave it all away. I stopped eating for months because of you and I couldn't look at myself the same way. From then on I believed the worst in myself and two years later I still can't get over that. I still remember the words you said to me. I know you probably now don't even remember what you said but I still remember now and I can't get over it. I wish I could I really do, but I can't you said so many things to me that year and honestly, I am glad you left but when you texted me again a week ago it gave a wave of it again and I realized I still never recovered from that. I still live life knowing, "oh I'm not good enough, being Asian is not right, you're fat and have no worth." everything you said hurt me. I don't think I could ever forgive because to this day I still haven't gotten over it. I still can't eat normally like i used to. Everything I eat, I think about, I regret eating and i can't eat normal meals. I know you didn't mean it like that but since you pointed it out I couldn't stop thinking about it. I can't even eat without thinking about if it is worth it or not. If I overeat or eat more than one meal in a day I cry. I break down. I start to regret it and I tell myself not to eat the next day. In school, I would sit right in front of you and not once I had food but you still didn't notice. No one noticed and you ate whatever you wanted without guilt when I couldn't even eat something without feeling bad. i dont think i can ever love myself or call myself beautiful because of you. so i hope all that shit you said to me was worth it.

Why didn’t you tell me you had feelings for me when I had them for you too. We could have been what we both needed, we could have kept each other sane. I wish we would had spoken up.

you forced yourself onto me. i loved you too much i was scared to say no cause i thought i would lose you.

sometimes my heart hurts thinking about you , but i’m glad you walked away because i wouldn’t have . i love you forever

I love you so much thank you for making my life better and just blessing me you’re the one person I feel comfortable with telling everything and being my self around , you’ve made me such a better person you’ve taught me soo much I’m truly grateful for your dumbass and how god brought you into my life I’m going to always try my best to make you the happiest you’re my universe I love you

when i get famous you’ll be the person everyone wishes they were because all my songs are written about you

You might never notice me, even if I sit right next to you in class but I hope you find someone who makes you happy.

i wish we could start all over, forget about what’s happened between us, oh if i didn’t know how bad you hurt me

I was ur fall back option and I always allowed it cos I had a soft spot for you. U were a prick to all your girls who you were 'in love with.' I was always fucking thinking ab you.

I love you so much. More than you could ever imagine. Everyday with you is pure bliss and i'm so happy. You make me so happy. I want to get married to you one day. I love you.

i really wish u understood how much i care abt u, bc i always checked up on u. but instead u chose someone who hurt u, then u came back to me as always.

I miss you so much but you don’t miss me. I hope you’re happy now and I still love you I’ll always love you so I’ll be waiting for you to come back.

u were always scared of everyone leaving u after u opened up but i told u things no one knows about cuz u understood and u still left me

i know deep down you were the one for me. i told you things that nobody knew about me because i knew you would get it. i loved you with everything i had, i still love you. why cant you see that you are the only one i want. you are the one i want to spend the rest of my life with. ik we are young but i also know what i want. i just want you to be happy though, even if its without me.

Everytime I think of you my throat gets tight. I wish you would come back but sometimes relationships teach you the life lessons you need to know about

Even though you hurt me and caused me so much pain I could never stop loving you. I’m sorry I wasn’t enough for you to choose me. I wish you could see everything I’ve accomplished. I promise I’ll find you in the next life. Take care of yourself

I miss you, i hate that i do but I can’t help it. I still feel like your the one for me but how could you be when you hurt me like that. I hope your happy Jay, it’s all I’ve ever wanted for you. I will always love you

I thought that we were meant to be but come to find out that we weren't but its fine i think that i found someone that our relationship might work out. Honestly if it doesn't then i give up. I say this because I don't want to cry over a dude. So, if this doesn't work out then I guess i'll just wait for that special someone to come along.

My bsf and I both submitted one. You made her cry for 30 minutes because of you being a dick. But I still gave you that chance to redeem yourself. And you don't even bother to snap me even though you said to her "I'm really trying to connect with this girl" Think again. You're a senior.

i did see your point of view on what happend, i woulden't have came at you if you weren't my friend either

Swear I loved you I still do I just feel like you never cared about my feelings at all I think you only said you had feelings for me to fuck and my dumbass did it because I believed you. You could've been honest I still would've let you fuck.I wish it never happened.I wish you could've been honest. I wish you never text me in may. Thank you for blocking me.I'm sorry I wasn't good enough.

hey. whatever happens to us just know you are incredibly important to me because I think I really do love you.