i always knew we werent over yet.
i just never thought i’d be winning you over while you’re with somebody else.

it took us three years to come back to each other and i thank you for every moment you are the love of my life

leave me tf alone. you know that i want nothing to do with you anymore. you treated me like shit so stop acting like we're friends. we're not. fuck off.

i cant imagine loosing you, you mean so much to me and i cant thank you enough for it. i think its safe to say im in love with you william ;)

7 months spent talking together. 7 months of us, 7 months of me being totally in love with you. my friends used to listen to me talk about how much i love you, but now they listen to me talk about how bad you hurt me and how much i miss you. everyone in my life knew about you and i. when were you gonna tell me you had another girl? when were you gonna tell me about her? i wonder why you did this to me. was i just nothing to you hayden? i miss you, but i am still hurting. i hate to say this, but i love you. fuck you

i'll always love you. i might not be in love with you, but i'll always love you. you'll forever be my person. thank you for showing me what it feels like to be happy.

i think i’m losing feelings for you. you stopped me from moving away, and think that spending all your money on me will amount to keeping me, but i’m too afraid of what you’ll do to yourself if i end it

i’m sorry

Why couldn’t you just wait a little bit? It would’ve worked but I guess what they say is true. Right person wrong time

hi hayden my original message didn't send but ily i mean like as a friend ofc, wand yeah i used to like you but that's like old yk? so anyway you're so cool and so awesome, i trust you more than anyone else and i feel like i could tell you anything, i don't know why we don't talk as much but you're still my bestfriend, i'm gonna call you in the morning so that i can talk to you during school, ilysm and you're probably the kindest person i've met, the letter you gave to me today was the sweetest thing anyone. has ever done for me, that's not even an exaggeration, i read it a few more times once i got home and then framed it, i'm so excited for your upcoming birthday, i have an idea of what i'm gonna do, i wanna write you some stuff and on the back i wanna put this thing and i just need to get the timing right, if i can pull it off it'll be epic, you'll probably find this at some point and will probably know it's about you and idk if i want that cause then i will seem weird or sum but like you're just my bestfriend and honestly my favorite person, at the same time i do kinda hope you find this because idk but i already wrote one of these long ass things and it like didn't work but yeah ily and like idk

if you read the one below this then like just know that ik this is meant for gfs and exes and such but i just wanted to rant and like tell you that you're awesome and that i miss how we used to talk all day and how close we were, we are still close but it's like different idk but yeah i miss you and ily and you're swag and my bestfriend:)

i love you ok. i wish you realized how much i care for u. u left me hanging out of no where for someone else. i’m in love with you man.

It’s crazy how much you did to me without even thinking of it. You weren’t my first love and never will be anywhere close to it but nobody has fucked me over the way you have. And you’ll probably never realize because you’re so self-centered and don’t care about how what you do impacts others. I’ll never forgive you. I wish everyone who gets close to you luck.

hi hayden. i saw your posts with her today. i hope you two are doing well. i miss you. so much. i miss waking up and being happy because i was able to talk to you, i miss listening to our favorite joji song. i miss thinking about and planning our future together. it’s been almost 6 months since we last talked, since i found out about you and her. that day was terrible, i couldn’t stop crying. you broke me, hayden. i chose this color because it was your favorite color, and mine too. if you see this hayden, please talk to me. i miss you

i'm sorry for everything. you really were the best. i loved you then, i love you now, and i'll love you forever.

Sometimes I think about you and I want to punch you in the face, other times I want to thank you for being there for me.

u were the first person that i said i love u to u made me feel so much sadness happiness anger frustration u left me in the dark all i did was wait for u hoping u would say hi but i got nothing at one point i thought i lost u that changed me u told me u were going to kill yourself and stopped replying i thought u died i panicked i spent all night thinking crying a couple hours later u told me u were okay that changed me i will never be the same i wish u the best in life

If u find this u won’t know if this is actually from me but I hope you read this. I never loved you but I did care about you and I know you cared about me maybe u even loved me bc u would always say that when u were drunk. I am sorry for being such a horrible person but I’m not sorry for what I did. You kept pissing me off and u were so cocky and it made me so angry. The only reason u found out about him is bc I made her tell u bc I was so tired of ur cockiness. Thank you for saving me that first night and for being so sweet and caring when we were alone but I just couldn’t stand u when we were around other ppl. U acted like a whole different person and I just didn’t understand it. Again I’m sorry for what I did but u drove me to it.

i am worried that i will mess it up this time, that i wont be good enough for you, that you won't wait, that you will eventually give up on me

For some reason I still feel like we’re just having a really long break and we’re gonna get back together. But we aren’t. I wish I could move on, I don’t know what’s stopping me. I miss us.

i've loved you since we first met and i still love you 26 months after even though we haven't talked at all this year except for when i said happy bday to you but you left me on delivered which hurts me but im used to it by now. i really just hope you find someone who you really love and are happy with :))

hey, i know we aren't on the best terms. i wish u couldve been honest with me, and didnt take advantage of my kindness like everyone else. you said things would be different, but your behavior never changed. it was always a

bro. what happened. one minute we were thriving and then within a second it all changed. i don’t want to pretend i’m okay with this anymore. i’m hurt. you hurt me. and you know it, but don’t even try to see the obvious problem. how can you forget about me. how? i genuinely was in love with you. everything about you was so perfect. your eyes.. i could look into them forever. a clear blue. reminded me of the sky, and how lovely it was. your smile, it made me have hope for happiness. from the way you walk, to the way talk.. it’s perfect. i wanted to be with you every second of the day. i never got tired of you. i never forgot about you, no matter what situation i was in. i still think you’re perfect. i still love you, might not be IN love, but i love you. and i thought the feeling was mutual. but i guess not. you fell for her, the second you saw her. it broke me, but at least you’re happy. that’s all i want. you asked her out, how sweet. something i wish you would’ve done for me. she was your world. still is i see. i hate that she hurt you. i hate her for playing with your feelings. i’m sorry she cheated. i’m sorry she manipulates you. i hate you won’t take my advice. it’s not for me, it’s for you. i want you to be happy, even if it isn’t with me. i texted you everyday, no response. i’d say hi in the halls, no response. for a whole month i wondered why you wouldn’t speak to me. and then you did. you finally said hello back. i haven’t been as happy as i was in that moment. then we talked for a few days, telling each other everything. and stupid me, popped the question. “why didn’t you speak to me earlier?”. i’m so fucking stupid for asking. i wish i never had. i expected to hear its because your ex didn’t want you to, but no. it’s because you forgot about me. you didn’t think about speaking to me, forgot my person. i’ve never felt more pain. ever. how could you forget about me? after all we’ve been through? what the actual fuck. you weren’t just my person okay? you were my best friend. but i guess i wasn’t yours, was i? or you lied to my face. thanks, appreciate it. i hope you have fun with life though. i don’t wanna talk to you for awhile. love, m.

Imagine what we could've been. After every guy I'll always go back to you. It's impossible to get over you.

We talked about how we were soulmates but I pushed you away, didn’t know what love really was I don’t think I’ll ever find that connection again

part of me misses you so much but the other part of me knows you shouldn’t be in my life anymore bc you don’t deserve me.

You may not have been a romantic love but you were the first friend who ever genuinely loved me, I miss you, and I want to hate you so much for being so stupid and I wish more than anything youd get sober and come back, I still love you

The second I saw you, I immediately fell in love with you. You made me feel as though I was special and loved in a way I had never felt.

I miss you so much. I'm so sorry I left. I didn't know it would be the last time I'd see you - Megan from preschool.

i know i fucked up, and i’m sorry i just wish you could at least text me something so i know you’re safe even though you were toxic and i know i shouldn’t miss you.

I would have stayed if you didn't get her pregnant - I'm glad you did though because I'm a whole person again

I remember when I liked you, and everyone told me you were no good. I miss the days we would stay up talking

we barely worked out. we’re the kind of opposites that don’t attract but i still cant stop thinking about you??

I remember the first time you telling me about this and we were both sad how many people were in pain, I never imagined myself here writing about you. I'm sorry I didn't notice how much pain you were in, you light up my day when nobody else did. Thank you for everything moment you spent with me, the late night calls we had and the crazy ideas we had. I'm hoping for the best for you and I hope someone else will treat you the best. You deserve it really, I love you.

God gave me you for a reason, I miss you man. People come and go but you can never replace a brother, rest in paradise. I am sorry you had to suffer ways you didn’t deserve.

Adults always tell us that falling in love at a young age is impossible. Or that it will never last.Though I am not agreeing nor disagreeing with them, they shouldnt make it seem like the worst thing on Earth. Falling in love multiple times slowly deteriorates your hope. All I wanted in life is to have someone. I dont care if its one person or two people. I just want someone. No matter how many times you hurt me or broke me I still came back. Im not saying i regret what we had, I regret what i didnt do or didnt say. I have no voice when it came to you. It hurts like hell seeing you with any girl. Though its been months since weve even seen eachother or talked. I wish you would talk to me. But I know i shouldnt. i know you will take advantage of me again. im slowy trying to move on and see other people. As a matter of fact I found someone I know will treat me better, but there's something holding me back. And that something is you. No matter how much you hurt me and make me feel like crap, I will never tell you how awful you made me feel about myself. And I cant ever hate you. But for now there is nothing I can do or say. Im scared i will soon run out of time. I know you dont miss me. You miss the thought of having a girlfriend. You miss the thought of having someone that you know damn well you had me wrapped around your finger and i wouldnt ever speak up. To think I even gave you another chance let alone 5. I will never hate you. I will never make you feel the way I did. I hope you find the girl I never was. I just wished you would have told me how you truly felt. I hope when you find the girl of your dreams, i hope to god she treats you well and passes your needs and wants in a girl. I really wish I was good enough for you. Ive always grown up to seeing people never last. Ive never even seen anyone in my family thats together and happy. I just wanted to be enough for someone. Thank you for opening my eyes and teaching me not to fall in love with someone that doesnt know what they want. I just hope i wasnt just a lesson. I love you. Goodbye.

Adults always tell us that falling in love at young age is impossible. Or that I will never last. No I am not agreeing or disagreeing with them, they shouldn’t make it seem like it’s the worst thing on earth. Falling in love multiple times can slowly deteriorate your hope. All I wanted in life is to have someone. I don’t care if it’s one person or two people. I just want someone. No matter how many times you hurt me you broke me I still came back. I’m not saying I regret what we had, I regret what I didn’t say or do. I had no voice when it came to you. It hurt like hell seeing you with any other girl. it’s been months since we’ve even seen each other or talked. I wish you would talk to me. But I know shouldn’t. I know you will take it advantage of me again. I’m slowly trying to move on and see other people. As a matter of fact I found someone I know will treat me better, but there’s something holding me back. That something was you. No matter how much you hurt me or made me feel like crap, I will never tell you how awful you made me feel about myself. And I can’t ever hate you. But for now there is nothing I can do or say. I’m scared I will run out of time soon. I know you don’t miss me. You missed the thought of having a girlfriend. You knew damn well you had me wrapped around your finger. And I wouldn’t ever speak up. To think I even gave you another chance let alone five. I will never hate you. I will never make you feel the way I did. I hope you find a girl I never was. I wished you would have just told me how you truly felt. I hope when you find the girl of your dreams, I hope to God she treats you well and passes your needs and wants in a girl. I really wish I was good enough for you. I’ve always grown up to see people never last. I’ve never seen anyone in my family that’s together and truly happy. I just wanted to be enough for someone. Thank you for opening my eyes and teaching me not to fall in love with someone that doesn’t know what they want. I just hope I wasn’t a lesson. I love you. Goodbye

when we first met i knew you were the one. the one that would always be there for me. but the one that i couldn't have.

You hurt me so badly but for some reason i still want you back. I know you’ve moved on, but I still haven’t and it’s killing me. Why can’t i just let go?

you were the first person i felt strongly for but know i’ve grown to know what we were missing in our relationship p.s. i hope ur a having a good time in portland:)

I always think I'm over u till I see u at school and wonder why u can be happy without me. when I have to try everyday to even get out of bed

Sometimes I wish you had never told me I meant the world to you, then maybe I wouldn’t have become so attached

You really hurt me and i will never forgive you for all you did. But i still love you and i always will just like you feel about me. I know we arent meant to be and thats honestly for the best for both of us. Im sorry we cant be together but we did have some amazing times and i think about that alot. We were so young and it was like something out of a movie. Magical in a way. But you fucked that up... -

I really hope you’ll text me again. you were the first person to make me feel safe in a really long time. I hope this works out.

I know we only talked for a few months or even weeks. I want to thank you for those conversations and your weird response. I hope you're doing well cause I'm always stuck thinking about you. Feeling your embrace is the only thing I want. You said you hated or disliked the word some British word and I had a playlist called that. You cant imagine how quickly I changed the name. I hope you're doing good Anderson

Hayden Anderson
-if that's even your last name :)
listen to "Heat waves" by Glass animals. You've been stuck in my head with this song on repeat. I thought you deserve to know that you have a song someone plays and thinks about you.
Hope you're doing well Anderson :)

Dear Hayden, I miss you you’re always on my mind. I miss our memories. I love you. I hope you’re happy even if it’s not with me

i love you so much, but when you fake you don't love me i just wanna die. it hurts but i don’t wanna say anything cause you’re in a bad mood

You told me your favorite color was purple and I fell in love with it too. Now I can't look at purple the same again.

I knew your parents would never let us be together but I wished we could have tried. I miss you even though we were never together.

I knew your parents would never let us be together but I wished we could have tried. I miss you even though we were never together.