We use to be so good but then you lost interest. Didn't think you would. You met my parents man how could you just leave that easily and move on like that. It hurts not going to lie.But there ain't nothing i can do about it but to move on so i guess i have to move on too.I will finally be happy once i'm done fully done with you.I will miss you but i already feel happier knowing that i'm finally done with you and that i'll be able to move on from you. I will always have feelings for you deep down.

I still miss you every single day. It's selfish because I'm the one who fucked up. I fall asleep imagining you are beside me. I can't hold down a relationship because nobody is you.

will i miss you. ill never say that. but i miss you a lot. hours we would stay up. and just talk. the last day we hung out and you lashed out on me and said sorry countless times after. i felt like garbage. and in chem the last month we were in the class. you didn't talk to me, look at me, text me, call me. you would talk to christy tho, and ryland, even keira. you would get ryland candy and stuff. i felt hurt. i seriously miss you so much. you were such a great friend. i know you are prob mad because of what i did to ben and stuff, but i'm sorry i cant do this. i'm thinking about leaving. will you men't so much to me and still do, please reach out and just talk to me. like a serious talk. if you could only see this lol.

im sorry i ghosted you completely, i became insecure and beloved no one could love me, you will always remain my first love,, all i wanted for christmas was you...

m sorry i still love you. you’ve hurt me and,, a lot of people so many times but i just. can’t help it when my thoughts drift back to you. i miss you, and i’m so selfish. i’m sorry.

There were so many reasons why we never belonged..but the one that drove me to end it..was knowing I loved you so much–that I would’ve forgiven you a million times–and deep down you knew that.

it’s your birthday today. on my birthday i wished for you to come back. i wonder if you did the same about me. do u ever think of me and how you said you loved me?

i used to like you so much but now everytimee i see you it just makes me sad you always had the prettiest smile

You are one of the kindest people I have ever met, and not kind the way most are. You are worth so much more than it seems you know. I hope you know how loved you are. I don't know why you're still friends with me, but you are. And I am so, so grateful for that.

#3 I think?. Me again. I think I'm just ranting here at this point which, I guess, is annoying. You've been on my mind for the past like 3 days which sucks. Today I realized that I forgot your last name. And I just can't remember it. Maybe a W? Or an F? A G? Either way, it makes me pretty happy. I'll take it as a sign that you're starting to fade from my memory even though I feel like that's not true. I think it's just a temporary blank in my memory. I've also been thinking a lot about how I would love to scroll through my DMs because there are so many old conversations in there that I'd love to re-read but I can't do it because our conversation is there too. The one where you gave that awful apology. That conversation just gives me chills and makes me nauseous to think about. I just want to do things normally again and I feel like everyday I discover something else that you screwed up for me. And you know what's crazy? You have a younger sister. You did what you did, while having a younger sister. I hope that never happens to her I really do. Last time I talked to her I just remember her being funny and I hope she does great in life. Her view of you is probably amazing, and as much and I hate you I hope it stays that way. It would be awful to know that about your older brother. Best of luck to her in the future.

i wish you cared about me as much as you care about her. did you ever put me first?
i want to tear out every single shard of you embedded in me. i hate how you're such a big part of me. i hate you more than you'll ever know.

I hate that I still think about you or worry about bumping into you in the city. I can’t stand it. I was 12 you asshole and I said no I swear to god I said stop. And you’re not even the only guy. It was random boys in elementary school, then it was you, then it was a school overhire. It’s been 5 years and I haven’t felt the same. I’m so tired of this I just want to feel normal again. I have no idea how you’re doing now but fuck you. I hope you never do that again to anyone else

I hate that I still think about you or worry about bumping into you in the city. I can’t stand it. I was 12 you asshole and I said no I swear to god I said stop. And you’re not even the only guy. It was random boys in elementary school, then it was you, then it was a school overhire. It’s been 5 years and I haven’t felt the same. I’m so tired of this I just want to feel normal again. I have no idea how you’re doing now but fuck you. I hope you never do that again to anyone else

Me again, asshole. You wanna know how many things you ruined for me just in those 3 hours? The front section of movie theaters, those gray joggers that I really liked, the candy store at the mall, and good grief the movie Finding Dory. We were at a kids movie. We were at a mall. I literally can’t stand you. And fucking hell you ruined how I felt about my own body. You ruined the name Frank. You ruined that place where you used to work. You ruined everything that reminds me of you. FIVE YEARS LATER and I still remember this all. I swear I said no and to stop I fucking swear I did even when you texted saying I never did. No one understands how much this hurts. I just want to be normal again I can’t fucking stand this. We’re seniors, applying to college and everything. If I see you at my future college I might go batshit. Choke

I think i'm falling out of love with you. A part of me is happy to move on but it feels so weird at the same time

u had so many chances to reach out to me. but you chose not to. it was your fault we couldn't be something

I was waiting for you for the promise that you made me time ago, but seems like I was the only one in love here and that truly hurt me but i need to move on and find someone better for me.

I spend the last 5 years of my life without seeing you but hoping we would find our way back to each other one day. Seems like I was the only one hoping for that

I need closure. I need to see if you have changed to stop being in love with you. I need it to move forward like you did.

if i could change something from the past, i would have tell u that i was in love with u but too insecure and afraid of ruining our friendship. I miss u

I hate you for picking her as your girlfriend. Why did u told me that you would always prefer me over her?. that hurt me so bad

Sometimes I wish we never dated, our relationship was so toxic but I could not see that because truly love is blind, 1 year and 3 months down the drain, to this day I'm so scared to love someone and to commit to someone because of you. I am still very young to know what love is but I fell hard for you. You messed me up so bad that I can not even say I love you, because it means nothing to me. But hope you're living your life, nothing but good luck to you in life.

I don’t know if I love you, but the only thing I know is I like to be by your side, and it hurts me because you don’t feel the same way

what happened to us.? wasn’t I “daddy’s little girl” but you always have to find a way to fuck it up and make it about yourself.

I would have let you go easier if you just told me you loved someone else but instead you say you cheated and now I can’t trust him

Hey remember when we used to walk around the corner of your house and you would tell me stories when I get to heaven I want to do that again:)

Eras lo que tanto buscaba pero llegaste en el momento incorrecto, seguirás siendo tú y solamente tú, aquí estaré para cuando sea el momento adecuado.
Te extraño...

i hate you so much...with my whole being. you act like i'm supposed to forget and move on with my life after all the things you did to me. you ruined me and my life. u deserve to rot. every time i regrettably think of you i feel suffocated because of what you did to me.

i wish i had done things differently because you were always right. you said she was taking advantage and you were right. you were always right, but it’s too late now i guess :)

I love you. I have since the day I met you. Ill always love you even if ur with her. I’ll always be here if u change ur mind.

#5. Hi. I still can't remember your last name and it's kinda bugging me but also really relieving. I've had 2 dreams with you in them and I don't really know why. In both of them, you were trying to apologize. It leaves me thinking that maybe I should DM you. I have no idea what I'd say. "Hey, remember me? We used to be super close and then you did something awful to me and changed my entire life. How are you?" I don't know. I get the feeling that our paths are gunna cross soon which is horrifying but maybe a bit comforting too. Maybe it's a sign that I'm healing. Idk. I hate that I feel like this. I really just want to forget about you and I wish that you could take back what you did. I miss how we were and you just flushed that all away so quickly. I just really wish you hadn't. For both of our sakes.

Llevamos años juntos, se me hace difícil entender cómo llegamos hasta aquí aunque todo haya cambiado, estoy feliz de haberte conocido.

you used to make me feel yellow, golden like sunshine and now that's all gone. i wish it wasn't. i wish i still had all that hope for us. i wish it was me.

you're so cute when you play the guitar and sing and talk about Skyrim but we would never work out so I gave up flirting

I still very much love youu and want to be with you my whole life but u agreed to be friends and I want more than that our relationship would work out if we put on both equal effort u told me u loved me
Was it all a lie?
I hope not..

#4. I looked at our DM's. At your apology. It was really bad. You really had the nerve to say it changed you and your life, and then question how it changed mine. You've got to be kidding. I just don't have sadness about the situation anymore it's all just anger. I'd LOVE to get you out of my head though. And I'm so scared that we'll end up at the same college. Or somehow our paths will end up crossing again. I just can't have that happen right now. Someday this will literally just be whatever. It won't matter to me. I wonder if you still think about it and if it still matters to you? I really hope it does.

finally i don't want u anymore. I deserve SO much better. hope you find ur true love :) i'll find mine.

I don't know if you meant to hurt me but I sometimes fucking hate you for it. I hate myself more for not completely agreeing with the fact that you hurt me in indescribable ways.

#6? or #7? I can’t stop having nightmares about you. I always say this but I just wish you had never done what you did. We were so close and everything was fine and I trusted you and I really liked you and I was young and it was all just so nice. I don’t really have nightmares that often but when I do they’re ALWAYS about you. I just want a memory cleanse.

maybe in another life? i just miss you too much though .

Forever and always.

i hope you know we could have been friends I didn't mean to hurt you

I genuinely hate you and I wish we never met

I felt it too. It wasnt all in your head

No ocean waves compare to yours, and none ever will.

I wish we werent so close so i could get over my feelings for you

I’m so proud of you for graduating. We were toxic together but I’ll cheer u on forever.

sorry for leaving

I’m still waiting for you:)

i wonder if you still even remember me. im so sorry i miss you