you taught me so many things. i wish i would’ve cherished our time together more. thank you from the bottom of my heart. until we meet again lovebug

you will never be a regret. im sorry for all the pain i caused. i hope you know that i still think of our wedding. i'll love you always and thats a promise i will keep.

believe it or not, a face hides a lot. moving on was never part of the plan. everything i ever thought about involved you. i miss you everyday, but i guess we'll grow from this. as much as i want to be your person in the future hopefully, i'll understand if its not. i just want you happy and that's what you are right now. as much as all of this hurts, you'll always have a big piece of my heart. i'll always love that smile and laugh. i think about you all the time.

youre the one person that understood me like no other. you were there for me on the best and worst days. the main reason all your stuff is away is bc i was told it would help take my mind off you, but it hasnt really worked. sleeping alone is one of the hardest things ever, it just doesnt feel right. you were truly the best thing that happened to me. im so happy you found someone who treats you right. dont let anyone hurt you princess. just know that whenever you decide to put that blankie and hoodie away for good, its gonna be a tough day. i love you 224 always

i still remember your favorite names too. bubby, honey, lovey, bebe, princess. i love you always bubby. you might not know this but i miss going to sleep with you and being able to wake up to your sleepy but sweet voice telling me "wake up sleepyhead, its getting late." if something were to ever happen and we got back together in this lifetime, i would never want to hurt you again. i know what i did wrong, and im becoming a better person. maybe you'll see one day. but until then, just remember that i love you always, no matter what

gosh you look so beautiful right now and i wish i could tell you with a bunch of cute names and lovey dovey stuff. i hope one day i get to call you all those cute names again, i hate holding them back because they come so naturally. i hope you realize how much i love you and always will love you. one day lovebug, one day. however, i hope you dont see this. i dont wanna force anything onto you. thank you for being such a beautiful soul. i love you with everything in me. i still can imagine you in a wedding dress so vividly. i hope i get to experience that for real one day. i'll always be the one thats waiting for you.

i find it crazy that its been almost a month. a month without hearing your sleepy voice. a month without the constant cute name calling. a month without falling asleep together. a month without calling you mine. its crazy how fast time has passed but im just glad that this time away from me is doing you good. its great that youre realizing that you dont need me to be happy and productive. youre doing great with everything and im so proud of you. im getting back to eating but im still working on the sleep thing. i love you forever and always, 224. i'll keep holding on for you

i don’t think i’ll ever get you out of my mind. i guess it’s true when they say you never really forget or lose love for your first love. you were mine. without a doubt. i never loved someone the way i loved you. and the thing is , i still do love you and i really always will. it’s crazy how i’m getting more and more into lil peep because it makes me feel connected to you again. hopefully we do get to jam out to him together one day, i’d love that. i hope i get to meet you one day too. gosh that’s all i ever wanted. i’m sorry i’m a fuck up. i hope you’re starting to see that there’s better than me out there. i can see you got a better one already. and i’m happy for you because you’re happy. i love you to the moon and back princess, 224

thank you for believing in me

i wouldn't be where i am as a dancer and person without you

i love ya

i find it insane how i went from being the one you would leave people on paused for to being the one you leave on paused for someone new.

star shopping : 0:29 - 0:42

u said : 0:27 - 0:34

u said : 1:01 - 1:13

awful things : 2:07 - 2:11

the brightside : 0:24 - 0:29

lil jeep : 0:34 - 0:40

walk away as the door slams : 0:00 - 0:08

kiss - 0:48 - 1:01

only a couple. part of me wants you to see this. another part doesnt. but its lil peep, your favorite

im sorry for being shit friend at times. you always have a spot in my life even if we arent close anymore

It’s been years since we have seen each other. You were the most amazing friend I could ask for. But I had to move away. I regret it so much more than anything. I’m positive I would be happy if I stayed and you were one of the main reasons for that. You were one of the few types of people who could handle my quietness and my random energy. You were amazing but I don’t know what happened. I guess we got older. We got older and decided long distance friendships don’t work. You can’t handle my energy when I text you, all you do is embarrass me every time I try to start a conversation. I understand this is my fault. If we didn’t I would of had the most amazingly life but now where I am is toxic. Way more than you would think. No one understands my disability no one knows how to handle me. I tried to kill myself. But I remembered you and the life I had before. I am going to try my best to get that life for me again. I love you former best friend

i’ve had the biggest crush on you since the day we first met, but i don’t know if you’ll ever feel the same about me. I keep thinking maybe it’s all in my head, every small piece of evidence that maybe you felt the same. i doubt you’ll ever read this tbh :3

I wonder if you check this thing like I do. But I think I’m doing it, I’m finally realizing that I can get on without you. No matter how hard it is, I’m doing it. I will always love you and will always hope we have something in the future. But maybe they’re right, maybe for now, it’s better like this.

I didn’t understand why our friendship felt different when I met you in ninth grade. I didn’t understand why I felt more like me when you were around. I didn’t understand why I wanted to cuddle with you in Spanish class & laugh with you in P.E. & sneak off with you in drama. I didn’t know I was queer at the time, but I knew what we had was somehow special. It’s been 7 years since we spoke. I still think of you sometimes.

I blamed myself for what you did at the end. I never deserved it but you made me feel like I did. You found better and left. I should have broke up with you when I had the chance. It would have saved me more time and tears.

I love you. you’re literally the sweetest person I’ve ever met and I don’t even know how ill survive without you.

I know I did some bad things a few years back and I've never forgave myself for it. I miss you everyday and as soon as covid is done I wanna see you. You don't understand how much it meant to me when I explained everything. You're the reason why I'm alive today. Thank you

I'm really sorry :/
We were best friends and I was lost and I still am. I don't know why I drop people but I do. My brain won't have it any other way.

I'm sorry for how I acted. I realized too late that my feelings towards you might have been more than platonic and I acted the way I did in retaliation to suppressing it. I will always care for you.

all i wanna do is hold you one time just in case i lose you again. i just wanna feel you next to me and feel your warmth, one time.

not my 1st love, but we were best friends in 6th grade, and we could still be now if only i had held through. i hope you're doing better, stephanoes:3

Thank you por todo , siempre te amaré y te recordare como lo mejor que me puedo haber pasado . Te mereces mucho más

I love u! I know u are my bsf, but I don't love u in that way... You broke my heart bcs u don't feel the same. I really want to tell u, but i can't. I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU! i'm sorry..

Dear my love, this time that I met you I’ve tried to deny my feelings because the way we talk the way you make me feel is something deeply amazing and I don’t ever wanna ruin our friendship that’s why I hide these feelings that’s why I deny them. You make me really happy, you make me smile like a fucking idiot whenever I see a text from you. Me and you have many many things in common which is a first as I always have friends who are just opposites from me. You are different. I hope to continue with our friendship and never break that, I’ll try to be there for you even if my feelings get in the way. Also I just want to finish this by saying thank you, thank you for being there, thank you for giving me advice when I needed it, thank you for listening and telling me everything is going to be alright when I was stressing and going through rough times. I’ll continue to be there for you and I hope you can continue being there for me as well. I Just want to say that I love you and I hope we’ll see each other soon. :)

you did something i thought you’d never have the guts to do. you didn’t talk to me the whole day. it’s something so little but something i never really thought would happen. i’m happy you’re moving on. i’m trying to as well. i’m taking everyday, little by little. i’m not gonna sit here and lie and say i didn’t check my phone for a notification from you today, but i can guarantee that you didn’t do the same for me. i guess i’ll just never be a priority again. i’m just something in the past. your “first love” but you easily tossed me to the side. i get it. i messed up. i just feel like i’m so easily replaced even though you told me countless times i never was when we were together. i really hope this guys the one. i wish you nothing but happiness in your life. maybe one day i’ll see you in person. but if not, give angel and piper some little rubs for me. and tell your mom that i miss jamming out to the piña colada songs and all those oldies that you never liked. i really thought it was us until the very end. but things change i guess. have a good life. i’m contemplating texting you right now, which is probably what i’ll do after this. if anything ever happens to me, never forget that i love you and even though you hurt me and i hurt you, the time we spent together taught me lots of things. i hope you found your happiness within this kid. i love you 224, even if you don’t love me back. i’ll always be rooting for you.

Ur the only person I can talk to and ur the closes person in my life. I’m sorry I was a asshole when we were kids. I hope u can forgive me. I know we don’t say it often to each other but I love u sis.

You drew me in; into your crazy, feverish love dream, and made me part of who I am today. But at the same time, you rejected my very being and ripped out a part of myself that could never be given back. No matter how I grow or who I love, nothing can restore that piece of innocence and pure happiness that once seemed so invincible and solid within me. At least you gave me a good idea of how I need to be treated and what I should defend myself against in the future.

I truly loved you, we lost ourselves in each other and ended up with nothing but faded memories. It was no ones fault, I just wish I could’ve helped you more

I have finally fallen for you, I love you. But I'm too scared to tell you, just in case you realize how uninteresting I am

To be honest, I just miss you. You're a different kind of sexy. Unmatched. Text me before we die lol -your violet love

i actually left her for you. i can’t believe i did that. but everyday i spent with her, you were still the only person that crossed my mind. i feel horrible. i think it’s my time, just know i love you always. thank you for everything

one of my biggest aspirations is to sit in my car with you somewhere far from everyone and everything, like the mountains yk, and sit there, hold your hand, and blast lil peep as loud as we want. with no other cares in the world. just you and i. that’s why i’m holding on. everything i do, leads me back to you. i hope i’m not getting my hopes up. you’re all i want. i’ll wait as long as i need to. but if you ever need me to back off, tell me please. i love you princess, always.

Before we start. I chose this color because i still remember it’s your favorite color. We grew up together. You were always my best friend, since kindergarten. I don’t know why you chose to do the things you did to me. You talked bad about me, but you never even said it to my face. You talked bad about me to our friends. You tried to get them to hate me, i’m not stupid, i know that’s what you were trying to do. But then they told me what you were doing, like a real friend would. I cut you off, it felt good. It felt good not to cry every night wondering what i did wrong to you. As for our other friends, they told me what you were doing, and they stuck by me, that’s how i know they’re real. I’m glad I cut you out. But you know what, i still think of you sometimes. I still think about why you did what you did. I still think about how we could have been adults and worked it over if you tried like i did. I still think about being your friend. I still think about how we would spend hours in your pool in your backyard. So yeah, I guess i do miss you. But i know that what i did was best for me. That’s the first time i’ve done that , done what’s best for me. So i’m not sorry. Also, you’re mistaken, i never once talked about you behind someone’s back. I don’t do that sort of thing to people I love. My mind says i miss you, but my heart is glad you left .

i’d be willing to take the chance if you were willing to give me it. if you don’t end up giving me that chance though, i’ll completely understand and i’ll let you be happy because that’s all i’ve ever wanted for you, happiness. it looks so good on you. so if you don’t wanna gimme that chance just tell me. if you ever see this, just know that i’m in love with you and have been for a very long time, even when the universe tested us.

i don’t hate you, i hope you don’t think that. i just wish you never changed.

I think I found out I'm in love with you four years too late. I miss you so much. You were right.

I found out I'm in love with you four years too late...you were right. I miss you so much.

I saw our picture
Wishing you the best despite everything<3

Wish you knew how much I loved you, even though you might never feel the same.

i think i'm in love with you

Hi hope you have a great day pookie bearrrrr

are we still on the same page?

I'm so confused. I can't tell if I'm mad at you, in love with you, or just delusional.

I miss talking to u so much

How can I loose a person that I have already lost a long time ago?
Pt. 1

you made me feel empty, but my heart is still full of you.

green was your favorite color and i miss you

i miss the sound of your voice when you were happy.