Unsent messages to FIN

I know you can never like me back but I need you to know I like you.

i am yours no matter

still miss you
still love you

All I asked for was for you not to lie to me, why was that the promise you had to break?

Please mail my stuff back. Especially my sweater. it's been a year, u said u would. It's not urs :(

i wish you could recover so i could love you.

Am I the mystery?

I miss the speck of brown in your blue eyes

sorry for always being so difficult

your the most beautiful boy fr

u treated me like a option, and I stupidly stayed.

I miss who I thought you were.

i think i love you. i don't know what to do about it

I love you loser

another life maybe, idk

i was so thankful to have you always on my side but you’ll never understand how it felt to find out why

you made me feel like i wasnt enough. when the whole time, i was too much. you didnt like me, but you didnt want to see me with someone else, so you stayed until you moved on yourself. and for that, fuck you. i hated myself for ages because of you, you are a horrible person.

Hey me again,
I can't do it anymore. I can't watch you love her. It physically hurts when you tell me about what you get up to and all the things she does to make you happy. I always laugh along but inside it breaks me.
And now its even worse because of what happened. I feel terrible that that happened and she's clueless. You shouldn't say the things you do to me and ik I should stop you but it makes me feel wanted, like someone loves me, like you love me. You're all I want. I love you more than you know. Funny thing is I don't even know why I really feel this way.
I can feel there's something between us and you clearly know it too. The way you look at me and smile melts my heart. The way you look at me when I start to fall in and out of sleep gives me butterflies.
Thing is ik you'll stay with her. You've no other reason to leave.
I don't know what to do because ik it would hurt her if you left or found out how you really are but it hurts me to see you with her.
And despite all this idek if we would work. Is all of this just tension because we want what we can't have. Is this just who you are? Would you do the same to me?
Who knows. All ik is that I'm broken and confused.
I love you :)

Thank you so much for making me smile everyday. I’m deadly scared to loose you if you see my true colours. I don’t want you to get hurt by me because sometimes I can be really mf toxic and mean. I don’t mean it. It’s the way I was raised. I hope I didn’t do anything wrong, you’re my fin remember. I love you so much.

I want you to text me just so I don’t have to let you go just yet even if you aren’t mine I don’t want this to be the end but without that text it’s gonna have to be

This is my third message.
I guess I'm wishing you'll read it from where you are. I miss you. I miss us

My body aches when I think of the night you left me. I can still smell the hospital left on my clothes
What happened to forever

so my name is fin and i am really sad that whenever i go to search up name, an error pops up. i'm a lil mad ngl >:(

Hey,
You're my best friend. You mean the absolute world to me. You're my home.
I feel like I can't live without you, like I'm lost when you're not around, like no one will make me feel the same.
Ik some of these feelings are reciprocated but you love her too.
I hate seeing you with her, but she makes you happy.
Ik she's not who you truly want but you feel stuck now, you've put in too much.
Don't worry. I'll be here waiting for when the time is right. I'll always be there when you need it. Always and forever. xx
P.S. the colour is green because it's the colour of the jumper you wore that day.

I think about you a lot. I just want the best for you but sometimes I confuse these feelings for something else, and I get so scared because I wouldn’t trust you with my heart, but a part of me still wants to try.

I didn't even love you but you tricked me into thinking I had to. I listened to everything you said to me and I'll never forget what you put me through, I mean how could I forget all the consequences of the pain you caused me are still here.

We fought so hard to get together, why didn’t you think I was worth fighting for anymore? I love you so much, I hope she is enough for you. I just wish I was.

dear finlay,
i loved u from the age of 12. you were the first thing i thought of in a morning, not what time it was or what i was going to wear that day. you were more than a crush, you were my everything. i remember when everyone realised i loved you more than anyone and anything, was when your fish died and you were crying, then i broke down. i couldnt see you cry because it broke me, and made me cry. your happiness was my happiness and your smile got me through the day. i love you oh so much, and you dont realise that you are the reason i am here. i almost attempted to kill myself, but i got a notification, and it was u. you saved my life fin, and i will forever and always love you for that. i know u probably dont feel the same way, as i was just a simple crush for you. but i dont care, as long as youre happy and healthy and alive i love you.

i wish i have the balls to tell you i have always liked you and found u attractive instead of playing it off saying u weren't my type for months.

You know I still like you, right? I mean I think I know you know but just feel the same way, please, it's ruining me

hi hehe,
uhh your kinda cute. yeah i said that... I kinda wanna hug you right now but I can't cuz you'll think i'm weird.. :)

Maybe you felt something and it scared you. Just know that I'm here for you, whatever you need me to be in your life. I fell for you, maybe now isn't the time for us, but I'd like it be soon if you feel the same

i still love you you know? after everything , after you telling my friends you don’t love me back, after everything because i can’t forget what life was like before. when we would stay up late at night talking about ur cats, minecraft, friends everything and anything we wanted to. we didn’t force each other to speak about our problems , we just let each other know we were there and when i told u i was going to sleep you said “no wait don’t go”. you would pause your game just to snap me back, and then would pause it again a minute later to do the same. if only i knew what would happen when i told u , i still don’t know if i would have still told u if i could see how different things would be. my parents still ask about you , i don’t dare tell them we don’t speak anymore. i will love you forever and always , but i have to let you go

I love you. With every inch and fibre of my being. You say we have to go against fate, make our own destiny together. Most of me believes and agrees with you but... we're miles apart, we're at very different points in our lives... I hope wholeheartedly that we do make it.