Hey me again,
I can't do it anymore. I can't watch you love her. It physically hurts when you tell me about what you get up to and all the things she does to make you happy. I always laugh along but inside it breaks me.
And now its even worse because of what happened. I feel terrible that that happened and she's clueless. You shouldn't say the things you do to me and ik I should stop you but it makes me feel wanted, like someone loves me, like you love me. You're all I want. I love you more than you know. Funny thing is I don't even know why I really feel this way.
I can feel there's something between us and you clearly know it too. The way you look at me and smile melts my heart. The way you look at me when I start to fall in and out of sleep gives me butterflies.
Thing is ik you'll stay with her. You've no other reason to leave.
I don't know what to do because ik it would hurt her if you left or found out how you really are but it hurts me to see you with her.
And despite all this idek if we would work. Is all of this just tension because we want what we can't have. Is this just who you are? Would you do the same to me?
Who knows. All ik is that I'm broken and confused.
I love you :)