You were my first live and I will never forget you it’s hard to move on because I love you so much you don’t even know I hate that’s you don’t see me

La verdad me enseñaste muchísimas cosas, te creía diferente y te idealicé mucho pero al final pude ver quien eras. Te amé muchísimo y al mismo tiempo te llegue a odiar por todo, desconfiando de todo lo que me decías y hacías. Me parecía increíble tu comportamiento conmigo y en verdad no supe que hacía mal cuando lo único que hice fue moldearme a ti. Ahora veo que si estoy mucho mejor sin ti pero me duele la manera en que terminamos y nos alejamos. Cuando la conexión fue instantánea en menos de un día y ahora ni un hola nos podemos decir. En verdad espero estes bien y cuídate mucho.

god i miss you so much when i shouldn't. you hurt me so bad , you lied to me and my friends. but you were so nice to me , how can i forget you ? i wanted to stay friends after it all even though i shouldn't be. i missed you , i still do. i cried myself to sleep so much the day you said you " passed " i had to find out at 7 am in the morning that you lied to me. all the messages i sent , you read them all. i talked about how much i missed you and my day . . . you read them all yet you never replied. i had a dream you were back. do you know how painful it was to tell your friends ? god it hurts so much el. i want things to go in reverse. it was almost my birthday when you did all that . . . it was also almost our two year friend anniversary. i was gonna meet u and live by you !! but then you left me. why'd you lie. el why ? WHY ?

It hurts that you don’t call me what I asked you to, I feel disrespected and upset because all I asked was that you would change your words to make me feel comfortable.

i fucking love you ever since you’ve come into my life again i’ve been so happy i don’t think you know how much you mean to me i promise i’d never hurt you princess. i love you more than anyone and thankyou for always putting up with me when i’m drunk or hyper, you really do care about me i love you so much :(

hey baby if you ever see this i hope you know who it is i just wanted to tell you how much i love you, i truly do. you bring nothing but pure happiness into my life and i cannot thank you enough for that, you make life way more enjoyable even though we live in a cruel and dull world, you truly are my favourite person, i love you more than i could ever love myself princess everything about you is just so perfect and my mind cannot get around that. your smile is just so pretty and so is your soul and that’s what i love about you, you’re a good person eliza, the only one who has genuinely cared about me. i love you

Lo siento si no te pude hacer feliz, pero ya no puedo más renunció a ti, pero solo por qué me hace daño seguir aferrsndome a ti, el tiempo dirá las cosas. Te amoooooooooooo

I’m almost screaming pick up the phone. I’m not doing this unsent bullshit. I want my questions answered. Don’t be a pussy.

i just wanted to say that i still love you. Even if for u i was just a friend. i miss talking with u.

I feel like this is a big chance but I was looking through and saw ones that had my name and yellow and I just refuse to believe its a coincidence. I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry I never meant to hurt you and ik nothing is going to change that ever, which is fair but I really did love you and I'm sorry it ended like that. I hope you're better now and I hope everyone else is as well. You all do so much better without me

Weird...u made me to fall in love with u but when we met...u was a boy who wasn't my type.I am sorry but it's better without you.

that actually does mean a lot to me

i sometimes feel like i'm not good enough for you, because u r so perfect and kind and amazing and way out of my league and im just me, so to hear that u feel that way about me makes me feel really special

i swear to god if u send this back to me you know its me and this is embarrassing so no need to confirm anyway love u so much

make prOFIT widerlich

Siempre te voy a amar no importa la circunstancia ni el tiempo me hiciste Tan feliz y eso te lo agradezco pero ahora ya no estás y me haces tanto daño :(

I love you so much and I’d do anything for you but I’m trying to figure out if I love you more than a friend.

I’m ready to forget all those failed attempts and call u my first love... just, please say it’s not just me.

i’m so sorry for how stupid i was. i didn’t realise how much i felt for you until we weren’t together anymore and i regret it because you were just so kind and the perfect partner to me and i took that for granted. i’m glad we’re still friends, but i wish we could be more again.
from the sun to your moon

Las cosas que dices se pegan conmigo junto con las cosas que haces. Puede ser algo bueno, pero honestamente no lo sé.

Te amo, y me duele mucho que siempre me veas como tu segunda opción, que jamás me elijas primero a mi y primero quieras arreglar tus cosas con otras personas, me duele que quieras quedarte con otras personas aun cuando vamos a tener un bebe, me haz roto como nadie lo ha hecho, y no se porque siempre logras que te perdone, y que me sienta yo como la culpable, porque siempre logras hacer que me sienta tan miserable y afortunada al mismo tiempo, por momentos fugases que me regalas, quisiera arrancarte de mi vida y ya no recordarte nunca mas, porque dueles, en cada respirar, en cada suspiro, en cada paso, cada palabra, dueles como esa herida que nunca va a sanar, y lo peor de todo es que no se porque te sigo amando si me haces sentir tan miserable, desearía que esto no hubiera existido, y tal vez todo seria diferente, hubiera conocido a alguien que si valiera la pena, y es que tu eres increíble, en verdad, te admiro por tu dedicación, inteligencia y humildad, pero no sabes tratar a una persona que te ama, y llevas años lastimando gente, a mi entre ellas, y me duele que nuestra hija no tendra un padre que ver todos los dias, quien la consuele si tuvo un día malo, o un papa que pueda ser su héroe, preferiste estar con una persona a la que me jurabas ya no querías, ni te sentías cómodo, la elegiste sobre tu hija y eso me mata, espero un dia Dios y la vida te perdonen, y aprendas a valorar realmente, yo entiendo que te tengo que dejar ir, por el bien de mi niña, porque no nos haces bien, y espero que la vida te de cosas buenas y seas feliz, realmente feliz...

"Todo es su culpa, por querer estudiar" fueron tus palabras que hasta el día de hoy me siguen doliendo, no puedo entender como es que eras así, estoy cansada de pensar ¿como estas? Si ¿ya comiste?. Te quiero mucho y me duele todo, hablar de ti cada vez me es un poco mas fácil pero aun así se siente como si fuera el inició

i gave u nothing but love and u took everything from me. u sold me out. none of my secrets are mine anymore. i tried to kill myself because of you. you ruined my life. i hate you.

i know you dont like me like this anymore but i want you to know i love you but i dont wanna ruin our friendship

i know you dont like me like this anymore but i want you to know i love you but i dont wanna ruin our friendship

i’ve never been in love before, and i’m scared i never will. but with you i knew i could have loved you, if you had let me. but you ended it before i had the chance.

Hoy es uno de esos días en que me pesa tanto tu ausencia, necesito un abrazo tuyo, solo tuyo y de nadie más.

bueno nunca encontraras esta pagina así que no hay problema
no te imaginas cuanto te quería, ni si quiera un poco. Supongo que la frase que dice "todos somos pequeños participantes en la vida de los demás" queda perfecto con nosotros..si es que alguna vez hubo un nosotros, porque como terminaron las cosas ya no estoy segura, pense que contigo todo seria diferente pero la manera en que me trataste simplemente me termino destruyendo mas de lo que ya estaba en ese momento, ahora despues de tanto tiempo puedo decir que no siento nada por ti, porque ahora puedo pasar por tu lado sin sentir nada y puedo mirarte sin tener las malditas ganas de abrazarte y besarte, ahora estoy conmigo y te agradezco por destruirme, me tomo mucho tiempo entender que no estamos hechos para estar juntos y empezar a quererme a mi antes que a los demás, así que muchas gracias por eso, es lo único bueno que me dejaste, aparte de tus recuerdos en mi mente que la mayoría no son muy buenos cabe destacar.
a pesar de todo lo que paso espero que te des cuenta que no debes de alejar a las personas que te quieren y no vuelvas a poner la excusa de que tus papás están separados y que por eso tratas a los demás como mierda, espero que te vaya muy bien ya que no nos volveremos a ver esto es un adiós ya que no puedo decirte todo esto a la cara, cuando termine esta carta eres parte de mi pasado y no te volveré a pensar, porque al final todos terminamos recordando esta etapa como una de las mas bonitas, aunque en mi caso una de las etapas mas dolorosas
S.C.S

i’m sorry i let you down a lot. i’m sorry you kept making the wrong choice. i’m sorry you hurt people when you were hurting. i’m sorry you never got help. i’m sorry you never got to graduate. i’m sorry you never got into university. i'm sorry you never got to fall in love. i’m sorry you never got to see the world that was in your dreams. i’m sorry you got tired of trying. i’m sorry you never got those phone calls for those jobs. i’m sorry for the battle with yourself. i’m sorry people didn’t listen to you the way you wanted them to listened. i’m sorry you kept losing parts of yourself. i’m sorry you couldn’t be who you wanted to be. i’m sorry you couldn’t be what people wanted you to be. i’m sorry you weren’t stronger. i’m sorry you always feel like you have to say sorry for being who you are.

you are still my person forever and always. I miss u more than anything and I hope you realize that u were everything for me, even if I never made that clear. I still love you

dude, thank you so much for all you've done for me. youve stuck with me through my best and helped me through my worst. i dont know what i would do without you. i hope one day i can meet you in person. thank you so much, youve made me feel somewhat me again. ily no homo

After everything, I thought you’d at least say goodbye before deleting yourself out of my life.

I wish I didn’t love you as much as I did.

How could you like me when you look like an angel from heaven and I look like shrek and donkey had a baby

Hola, se que esto no es muy valiente de mi parte, pero, creo que por aqui es donde puedo hablar como soy, normalmente cuando hablo contigo me siento feliz pero asustada porque solo recuerdo lo que me me hiciste , todo es daño y mas pero me siento bien, comoda, me das confiaza y siempre haces lo mejor para que me sienta mejor conmigo misma.
Gracias por todo, aprendi muchas cosas a tu lado.
y ps esto es todo gracias y perdon por hacerte perder el tiempo mientras lees esto, se que no es muy valiente de mi parte pero era la unica opcion.
Ahora si bye.

Tal vez jamás leas esto pero quiero decirte que fuiste lo mejor que me pudo haber pasado en mi adolescencia y que siempre te voy a recordar como ese primer amor tan mágico e imposible...espero que seas muy feliz y cumplas todos tus proyectos y sueños

Hey El, there isn’t a day I’m not reminded of you, whether it’s the box I keep our letters in, that I haven’t had the heart to throw away. Or when I hear the two songs I associate with you, anarchist and dancing in the moonlight. I know you’ve moved on and are happy but I struggle to move on after any kind of relationship as I don’t find them very often. I’m glad and I hope you’re truly happy. Noey

I think I knew I'd leave you one way or another. Maybe that's why I always loved you like it was my last time.

I wish it was ok again. I see how everyone else can still be near you, hold you, smile at you, and i just miss being something.

Why do you act like you hate me? You told mw to go and yet all you did was make faces at me and make fun of me and leave me. I saw a shadow at the bus stop where we sat 5m apart and i got excited because i thought you were back anf i thought we were normal again. It wasnt you, i felt so stupid for even thinking for a second you cared enough to walk over to me

How does it feel to be in love with the girl who ruined me? Does it even cross your mind? Doesnt matter anymore if we dont even talk

Aún me emociono cada vez que me mandas un mensaje... Para luego cansarte de mi y romperme el corazón cada vez que te vas

you felt like home. why would you hurt me?

we talked recently ur happy it makes me happy i miss u i’m still waiting my love

words can’t describe the amount of love and admiration I feel for you.

i hate that he’s so perfect for you.

its been almost 3 years & you still sometimes haunts me, the hurt that i hold is getting heavy

do you still think about us like i do?

iloveyousomuchithurts

u just have no idea how much i think abt u

pls don’t leave me…

You know, I still really like you.

I don't have the courage to tell you this, but I like you, el.

We have so much left unsaid.
I’ve wanted to contact you for 4 years now. I’m sorry I went no contact