Unsent messages to DAN

i'm still in love with you.it is so painful watching you ignoring me everyday.i miss you.can't wait to see you again even tho you'll never see me as a girlfriend.i love you so much.i don't think you'll ever see this:) i don't think i'll be able to get over you.

the first boy who ever liked me. we were so young. now I see you and its police conversation but nothing more.

i really like you and it scares me. i've been telling myself you don't feel the same way. i've been blind for too long, i'm really sorry. i hope things can work out. if not, you still have a piece of my heart. you've made my life easier to live, i am forever grateful.

Dan,

remember how it ended, but also remember that the 6 months were heavenly

even though you broke my heart, you are still there in my memories. You were my first love, and you mean so much to me - my love for you was the realest thing i’ve ever felt. I wish you remembered how much i loved you before you did what you did. my heart will ache for a long time, but I hope you learn something from what we had and what we lost, i know i will. Maybe we’ll cross paths again one day.

thank you for everything, dan.
I’m sad it had to end it this way.

goodbye , my bubi, my snug bug, my love.

I am completely in love with you. I can't go on with my day without constantly thinking about you. And when I think about you, I can't help but smile. You make me feel whole and happier than I've ever been. Moments with you just feel endless, but at the same time I can never spend enough time with you. I love you.

You don't know how much I truly care about you, and that hurts way more than I can explain. It's like having this hole inside of you but you can't fix it no matter how hard you try.

I seriously hope you forgive me. It was all my fault, the only problem is you left me before I told you.

You don't know how long I've waited for you and yet knowing that I'm here for you...you're not here by my side.

I don’t know how to love you when you’re so far away. It hurts that I have trouble remembering if it’s worth it

I want you to know that I still think about you, even though you are in another country. I think what we had was good even if we don't speak the same language.

I still think of you from time to time, and how I fell for you so fast and so hard and at the wrong time. You said you loved me to? Did you mean it? Do you ever think of me?

i just want to be able to talk to you again, that’s all. and that’s too much. i regret not telling you how much i loved you.

I know everything about us was wrong and all the in betweens but it felt so right I always say I hate you for what you did but I truly think I will always love you I get you I’m happy with you you’re right being in eachothers arms just feels right I wish I knew and believed your feelings are still as strong as mine for another shot now that it’s been a few years but deep down I think I know it will never work it hurts to love you and I’ve never had this feeling for anyone like this,haven't held you in three years and that hurts it even hurts hearing your voice now knowing things will never be the same as good
As the moment of the conversation gets my gut feeling is it will hurt more to continue I’m sorry I wish I could believe you. I love you so much and still not over you I’ve only been with you but I don’t think I can put myself through this again

I love you and I'll always care for you, I'll be here for you and I don't care how long it'll take you to realise that. I promise, I promise, I promise that you'll be the one forever, no matter whom may try and walk along our path! (i used blue since its your favourite colour)

(i put it as blue as its your favourite colour!) I love you, I promise to never leave you but once again... I am struggling but you still blame me although i forgave you for ur unspeakable actions.

You promised me you would stay and we would make so many memories together. you promised a lifetime then you just up and left. you broke me into a million pieces and i will never forget the way you hurt me, i will never let that happen again.

You promised me you would stay and we would make so many memories together. you promised a lifetime then you just up and left. you broke me into a million pieces and i will never forget the way you hurt me, i will never let that happen again.

I can’t wait to meet you in person. March is too far away and the separation is killing me. You’re so kind and I can’t wait to be able to hold you.

i miss you.
it sucks that you don't feel the same anymore. i regret often of how i acted when you were here and my mood swings got the better of me. i wish i could get one last hug. one last kiss even.

In the short time I've known you I've fallen so hard. I think you like me too and I wish you would just tell me already.

Why couldn’t you just stay by me why did you have to leave me after I told you how bad it hurts when I’m alone

apart of me is happy i didn’t say anything because we are so close now but u will forever be my first love

Ending things with you may have been the biggest mistake of my life. Its been a year and I think I'm still in love with you

you just flipped a switch and everything changed between us. I cant even tell if you like me anymore and I cant even say that to you because im just making you mad and its breaking my heart

honestly I dont know if I loved you... but I can never seem to forget about. even though its been years, is that love?

I know you are my soulmate, my twin flame. Waiting is hard, but I would live through anything to be with you.

Fuck you. Fuck you for getting me to trust you then leaving. Fuck you for making me think you actually cared. Fuck you for every lie you ever told me. And fuck you for throwing my emotions off a fucking cliff.

You made me feel like nothing like my feelings were nothing. I don’t hate you but I’ll never forgive you.

I wish it didn’t end the way it did. I am so sorry for all of the fights and that the final day was left with you mad at me. I didn’t see what I had until you left and I wish we could have had a conversation so I could move on...because you did but I struggled for so long. If only things were a bit different...

today was the first time i saw you since you left, i realised you're missing out cause i’m the best you'd ever get

its been months and i still keep looking for you in other guys , but i know in the end of the day they'll never be you.

i know you'll never see me more than my body, but if that's the only way i could make you stick around then it'll be okay.

we were partners in crime; the terrible two. now im just terrible. i love you, danny. always have, always will.

I thought I loved you but now I realise it wasn’t love because we were too young to understand what love was. Love was just a word to you it didn’t mean anything as you said it too much and too early on like it was just simply a word and nothing else, you destroyed what we had.

if you looked into a mirror and saw who you really are... you’d see that the problem is within you, not others.

Man I don't miss you at all and I never thought I could say that. I wish I could choose two colours because of how you treated me so differently depending on what mood you were in. Hot and fucking cold.

I think about that car ride all the time and the way your hand felt in mine and how i wish i kissed you.

i know you’re with her now but every time i see you i can’t help but think what we could have been. would there have been a chance for us if i’d have said yes? would there have been a chance if i put you first? i regret my decision because i chose them just for them to go and do that. all i want is for you to be happy and if she makes you happy then i’m happy for you. but i want you to know more than anything how much i love you, and that i will always love you no matter what. you’ll always have a special place in my heart and i’ll never forget you?

i promised i loved you. i just didnt love the way u treated me. and thats when i learnt to unlove u. im sorry.

Thanks to you I can’t trust him when he tells me he cares, I can’t trust that he’ll stick around like you promised to, you broke me and then attempted to come back like nothing happened. What did I ever do to deserve that..

I’m sorry I’m sad so much, and I’m sorry I can be so annoying. I just love you with my whole heart. I’m scared to lose you.

you were the first boy i truly cared for and whenever i like someone it comes back to liking you. have fun with soph

I wish you realised how much I like you. Please give me a chance and make you happy. I want to be your girlfriend so bad.

You’re the most caring mature boy I’ve ever met and I’m so greatful you’ve come into my life. I can’t wait to fall in love with you

I have a hard time trusting and you scare me. I am going to allow myself to fall for you though. Please don't hurt me, okay?

God the things I would do to get drunk one last time with you and do and say all the things we wanted sober.

God the things I would do to get drunk one last time with you and do and say all the things we wanted sober.

I’m sitting across from him at breakfast trying to figure out how to break up with him bc he’s not you