Unsent messages to COLE

It’s been almost four years and god I wish I could let you go. I wish I was honest and being your friend was enough

I wish you loved me the way I loved you, and if I could I wouldn't take it all back. I learned to love myself when you stopped loving me.

we didn't even date but you still meant something to me and it really hurt when you cut me off you bitch

i really am so happy for you but sometimes i still wonder what might've happened if id said something sooner.

i saw how our souls connected, and it was beautiful. I'm over you now, but Ill never forget the way I felt when you left

can u please stop being so inconsistent towards me, it fucking hurts. just treat me right, not just when im about to leave you. stop putting every one over me. you love your friends more than you love me. i just want to be content

Why did we start out so good where I was your everything and now im just meaningless to you.what am i doing wrong.why do you pretend to care and tell me that youre gonna change if you dont mean it. youre breaking my heart dude, why cant you just love me fr again. leave me or love me. i want to be a priority again, i hate being an option.

why did you have to bring up her? why did i fall for you so fast? i hate that i like you because it rly hurts. but thank you, you made my mental health a little bit better

I dont know if you really loved me or not anymore honestly. I loved you. I wish you would have been more careful with the things you said and did.

I still think about u all the fucking time it is sooooo annoying. We didn't even kiss wtf. You're an ass and I hope you realize you could have kept a great friend you fucking bum. You're a burnout at 19.

Since the day I met u I’ve had a love that is so pure. Just standing next to you fills me with this unexplainable feeling. It feels so right to me. But not knowing how u feel has left me so lost.

lmao i might have loved you before but i fucking hate you now. u made me hate myself. fuck you bitch. also ur creepy and fat

fuck you. You are such an asshole. I honestly feel bad for you because you have had such a shitty life, but that’s not an excuse to be a shit person. So Cole FUCK YOU

u still wear my ring.. you probably don't think about me at all anymore but for some reason you never leave my mind.

I wish I never liked you, you knew I liked you and used that to manipulate me in so many ways. go to hell bitch my god

hi, ive liked you for who knows long, 3,4 years? but im moving on. you dont like me back. whats the point? you make me feel hopeful about us one day then the next your gone. i have to let go. i want you to know i loved you. sounds dumb, ik. but you are, and will forever be.. my first love. i love you.

When I see you're name it makes me smile when I see you're face it makes me happy when I hug you it makes me feel safe and warm in you're arms!

uhh i’m lowkey in love w u. you are so fun to be around and have such a great personality. i hope we can get close lolz

You hurt me in ways I cant explain. touching me like that was your way of love. it hurt after i realized what you did to me. i loved you. now i hate you. that's why i ghost you. fuck you for making me think that ppl wanting my body was a form of love. fuck you!

you don't know i like you. we are perfect for each other but you chose to ignore it. i hate you for that but i love you

You did it again. You left me again for her. Fuck you. Fuck you for making me feel the way you promised you wouldn’t.

i always wish we became more than friends, but now we’re aren’t friends anymore. i miss you. i hope ur ok now.

i hope you stay with me. i can't handle another heartbreak, so please, stay. you mean so much to me and you love everything i hate about myself. i hope we can grow old together. it feels like you're getting distant. i hope you don't mean for it to feel that way. i know you aren't ready for a relationship yet but please give it some time. don't give up on me yet. i don't know what i'd do without you. you're perfect.

my closest confidant. i didn't realize i fell for you until you left. i knew you would never love me back. but i always wondered. but then you answered my questions and that was that. but i loved u. the way you listened, the way you still hung out with me even if i didn't talk to u, even if i was having a bad day. u were always there, putting up with my bs. i got so annoyed sometimes. but i still cared. the way i looked, the way i thought, the way i smiled. it mattered. and i miss that feeling. the feeling of love.

i know we dated in middle school and i probably wasn’t important to you like how you are to me. you were my first boyfriend. and 4 years later me and you have the type of relationship that i want :(

you made me feel so good in the beginning but now we drifted and i drove myself to think you hate me. Tell me, did i do something wrong and why don't you want me the way i want you..

I think about you a lot and how much you played me how toxic you were I miss you and at one point I loved you

if I hadn’t been scared over the summer
and you hadn’t been scared in the fall
we could’ve spent the holidays together.

I changed my number yet somehow I still find myself waiting for a phone call from you. I miss you a lot. I wish we could start over but that's really impossible. I think about you all the time and I dream about you every night. I wish you'd come back.

i am over you , i can listen to my favorite songs again and go to my favorite places again. thank you for everything

i want to feel you on me. I want you to touch me be inside me please. i wanna feel that love. Maybe it’s not love for you but i just wanna feel it i want my first time with you

i love you so much i’m so scared to tell you how i feel about some things you do in fear that ur gna get mad and leave. I don’t ever want you to leave. But i know you’re gna find a better girl and get tired of me. I know there are others. Why do you lie? It’s so hard to trust you. I want to i really want to but i can’t when you flirt like that. Just stop telling me you love me and i’m the prettiest little girl you know and you want me when you fucking DONT. STOP LYING TO ME. I’ve become obsessed. I cant stop thinking about you and i’m scared, i’m scared that when you really do leave i’m gna do something bad

i finally got over you. i was finally happy. then you came back. why did you come back? you said you changed. you said you regretted what you did to me. but nothing changed. and now im heartbroken all over again.

Do I make you uncomfortable? I feel like I do, but I don't want to. I don't know how to talk to you, you make me nervous. I think I love you

i’m so fucking in love with you, i have since the day i met you and i’m fucking terrified of losing you, even though i rarely show love, it’s cause i don’t wanna feel stupid for loving you this much if you ever leave me even though you swore you wouldn’t. i’m just so fucking scared that you’ll end up like all the other guys that break girls’ hearts.

i know we wouldn't work out why does my heart want you so badly. im with someone that we both know i love and youd push me away if i said this.

we aren't even dating and i can't imagine life without you. you are my image of the perfect boy and you don't even know how i feel about you. i pray about you every night and just wish i could lay with you and talk about everything.

you’re one text message away and yet it feels like miles. been 3 years since i’ve talked to you. i miss your laugh. i’m sorry my love, i hope you’re smiling right now.

i do think i love you. i was so caught up in the possibility of you hurting me or breaking my trust i broke yours. you said sorry doesnt mean anything but i am. i still keep my lights the same color and still go to sleep thinking about you.

I wonder if Oliver will like your new gf as much as he liked me. I hope he does, you two seem happy together. i miss him.

Hey uhh it's Miriam is it bad that I don't know what to say because we never talk but like I would like to become friends with you cause you seem chill but anyway here's this
I said, certified freak
Seven days a week
Wet ass pussy
Make that pull-out game weak, woo
P.S. Esperanza is better your forgetful ass isn't gonna remember her :)

A small part of my heart will always love you. I wish you nothing but the best, and I pray life goes exactly how you want it to.

i wish i could reach out and see how you are doing but i know you don’t wanna hear from me. Maybe one day we’ll meet again. i miss you bébé, to da moon and back.

i wish i could reach out and see how you are doing but i know you don’t wanna hear from me. Maybe one day we’ll meet again. i miss you bébé, to da moon and back.

i miss you so much it hurts. im writing this right now because all i want to do is text you and tell you i still love you. i would do anything to start over with you. i really feel like our story isn't over yet. i will always believe that you were my right person, wrong time. i still feel deep down that we will get a second chance. ive thought that since the day we ended it. no matter how long it takes, i will wait. i will wait forever for you to come back. and if you don't, and if we dont get a second chance, i hope you find someone you can love as much as i loved you. all i've ever wanted was for you to be happy. so if you do find a new girl, who makes you truly happy, then keep her. and as much as that would kill me, at least i would know you're okay.

You were so hard to get over but if you would have never broke my heart I never would have met him. So thank you for the love you gave and the time we shared, but thank you even more for breaking my heart so I could learn to piece it together and use it to love again

You are the worst person I've ever met, I only went back to you because I needed a rebound, even if you only liked my body. So long you Irish twat, you are a lost cause.

your dad and your best friends have all told me that you turned into a massive dick. you need a damn reality check.

the reason why i held on so tight is because, for the first time, i felt excited about life unfolding in my favour

Every so often I have reminders of you. you're the reason I believed in myself again. you're the reason Im here today