Unsent messages to COLE

I miss the way you loved me. Nobody can fill that hole now. And I just sit here wondering why I wasn’t enough.

I've always wondered if my makeup came off on your baby blue shirt. I'll never forget the way you held me and held my hand.

apparently you don't think i'm smart enough to see through your lies - but i can. i'm choosing to give you another chance anyways because i can't imagine life without you.

If you would have asked why I didn’t want you with Dustin I would have told you it was because I didn’t want you choosing to do coke down the road going 90mph.

We are soulmates. I’m sorry I never learned to control my anger but I’m trying. I love you so much. You’re my whole world

You knew I was struggling but you gave up. I didn’t. I’ll fix myself for you. You’re my soulmate. I will always love you stinky..

I don't think I will ever find someone who I love as much as I love you. Letting you go is going to be one of the hardest things I will ever do.

i kinda rly miss u but idk if ill ever see u again. we met on the lake but maybe next summer :/ this is the color of some details of my volleyball from when we first met.♡

I thought you cared and I thought it was something else. obviously it wasn’t considering how easy it was for you to ghost me

thank you for loving me. i will forever love you. our cruise was so much fun together. the only thing between me and u is 1223 miles. i love you with all my heart

I'm sorry things ended the way they did but I had to move I still wish you would be there for me like I always will be for you.

i love you but ur demons were too strong for me. i hope you find someone to battle them w/u. i need to fight my own.

ill always care about you. you are really important to me and i hope i mean something to you too. you will always have a special place in my heart and i hope one day we can be together. but if not, i wish nothing but the best for you.

i have been in love with you since we were ten. i’ve been waiting for you for 6 years, please just give me something, i need you.

i’m over it, i’m over you, but tbh i still think about you, i hate the person you’re becoming. where’s the person that i know? the ginger haired guy that would do anything for me. ):

You made me feel something that nobody else could. Even after everything I would let you back in my life so fast.

you taught me how to truly see a person’s personality. as much of a fuck boy u are i do miss our convos but i dont miss u.

I wanted you and I thought I had you, until you really didn’t want me and couldn’t even tell me that.

everyone tells me you did love me but i don’t believe it anymore. i was right about her the whole time. you never really wanted me. i was ur project while u practiced on how to love and treat her. you hurt me more than anyone ever has. now i know i’m not capable of someone else’s love. i’ll always love you and care for you. sucks it’s not the other way around.

I miss the way you treated me In the beginning. You used to ask me how I slept, and now you barely even answer my texts. My heart still flips when I get your notifications on my screen though. I don’t know if I’ll ever stop loving you. I just wish you could love me the same. Ps how’s cod?

i still think about you sometimes even though it’s been awhile. I don’t miss you, I miss what we had.

I know for a fact you will never ever see this but you treated me like shit. you treated me like shit even though I sided with you for anything because you were my best friend and I trusted you with my life. its hard enough to explain to your family why your one of your friends don't come over anymore but to explain to them what actually happened too. now that I think about all of this after 2-3 years, I think your my twin flame. one twin flame is bound to run away the other is there waiting or chasing after them because they are to scared to lose them, that is an exact representation of you and me. then one of your "friends" tortures me for a year about me "liking you" even though you knew the truth and exactly what happened and you had the audacity to side with her, pathetic. fuck you that's all I have to say because of what you did, but I truly believe we have a soul connection and that we are twin flames, trust me on that one, im good with my spiritual shit, I never miss a beat with it and you know that.

I never forgave you for what happened the night he died. I've been biding my time, waiting to free myself from the shackles of your embrace. You stifled me.

You cheated on me over Harry fucking Styles because your ego was so hurt by the fact I said he's the number one man in my life. We weren't even dating for a month.

hey coleslaw. i know we’re good friends but i feel like you only want to do back seat stuff with me cuz you know i’ll say yes. you actually mean a lot to me and i don’t want you to use me. also i wish i was as pretty as the Hollister girl.

I thought you would be my forever. Now you’re gone. I still love you. I never wanted goodbye to come.

You got my letter today, I told you I had to let you go. I still love you. I will always love you. I never wanted goodbye to come.

i think i did the right thing by letting you grow, and not holding you back..but damn why does it hurt so bad.

You maybe shouldn't trust your best friend, considering he tried to mess around with me whilst we were dating.

Sometimes I think of you and it makes my heart beat a million times a minute. Sometimes I think of you and feel so lost and alone.

Hi! I still think about you! How’s college? How’s Megan? I feel guilty liking you when you have a girlfriend but I won’t do anything to break you guys up, you’re too cute! Crazy that I got a crush on you just from a Hello....

i remember last year you asked me to promise to stop hurting myself and i knew i couldn’t but if you asked me to stop hurting myself again now i think i’d actually try this time, i’d try just for you, cuz you mean the world to me now

you said you were going to bed. i said goodnight. i held you tight like i do every night, but when i woke up your side of the bed was made and you weren't in my arms anymore.

I miss you so much. You were the only person that i could connect with and understood me. You were my everything and I hate not having you by my side. I would do anything to go back and start over. I love you.